we parted our lips and we reached from inside

You cannot live alone on the fantasies you feed to your mind, eventually you have to touch your life for real, assess and analyze your habits, understand your character, try not to hate yourself for your character as it was shaped when you were very young by circumstances outside of you, and begin learning how to cope with your character, how to build habits that work for you, finish small projects, finish big projects, expose yourself to more uncomfortable situations, assess why you want to leave that friendship before you leave it, raise your anxiety levels on purpose, so that you can grow, raise your work load on purpose, so that you can grow, so that you can build resilience, so that your life expands, and can be experienced by you in full and in reality

life is like... you make connections with people and then say goodbye

i think ppl are scared to speak up on where they want their love to go, yes out of rejection, but also in a weird way where no one wants to be the partner who “cares more”. no one wants to be the partner who always has to start the hard conversations, bc it’s easier to allow someone else to do the presentation and you be in your seat than to have you up there with thoughts & a clear plan with your nervousness and being Seen about what you are. It’s easier on the ego to feel like you can reject and walk away from someone instead of being the person who puts themselves out there. but the secret is this. the most special person will always be the one who starts those conversations. the fun of love and the romance of love will always follow that person who speaks first, who has the will to define their wants and needs. now you just get to decide if you want that to be you. 

everyone so scared of change even just things as small as signature hairstyles and favorite backpacks we all think “who am I without these” even though being alive and shifting is fun and unpredictable

i don’t know how to ask for help i disappear and come back when i’m good