After seeing Captain’s view on Byleth being half Nabatean, I feel like they are saying being mixed raced in general is bad, like there is one side that is “no good” :(
Like. I get it. Cap'n damn sure didn't mean to say that being mixed race is bad and that people should strive to be one pure "right" race. 100% not his intent.
But fuck man. Fuck. When you give a character internal conflict about being mixed race and your positive development for that character is "You're right, it is bad that you're mixed! It would have been better if you were purely this race instead of mixed with another one that takes away your humanity!" there should be like. Blaring horns in your ears screaming at you "THIS DOESN'T LOOK GOOD CHIEF."
Because you have, in the same chapter, a POC man being described as big, scary, angry, and unreasonable as he does harm onto a pure, innocent, small white "tiny girl." You have in the same chapter Byleth say that Ingrid's death is her last tie to humanity being cut, despite Flayn being around and never having been described as a bad person - she's Nabatean, so she couldn't have helped Byleth retain humanity. Throughout the fic, you have Claude be likened to TWS due, in large part, to being an outsider that Edelgard doesn't know where he came from (which if anything should lessen her suspicion of him - since when have TWS placed a spy without replacing someone who didn't already exist? The answer is literally never). You have Shamir all but literally be called "one of the good Dagdans."
So yeah, it gets extremely fuckin' hard to not give this moment a hard side-eye when Cap'n has continuously failed to not fuck up in terms of race. Especially when specifically Nabateans have been pointed out as lacking in humanity throughout the fic in not-so-subtle jabs: "A flower's only beautiful because it can't last forever," "Life having an end is what gives us perspective. It’s what keeps us human," Edelgard calling the Nabateans creatures and beasts and monsters, Byleth bonding with the Nabateans being portrayed in a negative light despite how healthy her dynamic is with them.
Like, look at the line. "I wish you had allowed me to die. I’m not a Nabatean. I’m not a human. I don’t belong anywhere." As if Byleth needs to be one or the other in order to belong. As if being part Nabatean is worse than death. Like, I ain't about to ignore it - I've expressed before that I've experienced racism for being mixed race, and it's exactly because of sentiments like this. Mixed race people don't belong! We're too much like one and not enough like the other! We're others and we won't ever have a place! So excuse me that Cap'n having Byleth experience internalized racism and prop it up as her being right in hating being mixed race has me a bit fucking tilted