So, there’s over 100 of you here.
My journey with this blog officially started April 28th 2026. But, in reality it began back in October 2025, when I first heard “Have to Have You” for the first time. I had known the movie, I had been following the musical for a couple years now and I had been writing and rping in another fandom at the time when I took this blog’s URL for the first time. Not sure at the time what I was going to do with it, but it stuck.
And then I let it go. And then I saw the show in previews.
I started working on the intro and design of this blog on my flight home and in the airport. And when I launched it I had no idea if anyone was going to ever find it. At the time I launched him, this rumbling community of rpers in this fandom resurgence didn’t exist yet. I’m not going to claim I’m the reason the resurgence happened but I was one of the first to arrive and for a long time I assumed nothing was going to come of this blog from how dead it was.
Wow. You guys really showed up, huh? First rp blog of almost 30 to hit either of these milestones.
You know, when I started this journey I had considered writing Michael over David-but my gut just screamed at me, “you know this guy” and I followed that gut feeling. After over 1,000 posts, listening to interview after interview, just sitting with this character for so long has taught me so much about him but also myself. If I felt like he was a part of me before he definitely is now. My dad always told me growing up relationships are like a conversation and this experience has felt like the most captivating conversation that I’ve ever had as a creative.
David is just a gift to unpack, really-to sit with. Kiefer, Ali, and Pierre have laid such beautiful groundwork to research and all in such completely different ways. I don’t think I’ll ever begin to comprehend the artistic genius and power that birth this iconic monster, gang leader, rockstar, but ultimately tragic human being. Everyday doing this is a testament to their brilliance more than anything and all the truths I’ve found in that. My friend, Ann once joked I could probably write a 90 page book atp on Ali’s David alone and this is probably true from all the historical research, cultural research, analysis, dialect analysis that has birthed this blog’s voice, all of it.
But, David isn’t a character in a vacuum, there’s an entire town of Santa Carla that he’s wreaked havoc on. So, I don’t want this to become a self-indulgent victory about how cool I am because it’s not. It’s a victory for community and all the people in that community who lifted me up, who trusted me with this guy in any capacity who I think means a lot of different things to each of us, who came in after me.
Thank you to the people who ever read, left a like or reblog or followed. There’s too many of you to name but I see every single one of you.
Thank you to the people who’ve ever been touched by my work on here in any way. Maybe that it got you through a difficult day, or made you cry or laugh when you needed to, let you explore something about yourself somewhere you feel safe to. I’ve gotten messages about this before and those are always the ones that warm my heart most. If this blog, or my David has ever done anything for you on any level it’s been my highest honor to give you that.
Thank you to my friend Count for spamming the inbox at the beginning of my rp journey on here, without your David harassment none of this would’ve happened.
Thank you once again and always, to my friend Ann, for always being my biggest cheerleader through everything including now.
Now, the next set of thank yous are for my fellow rpers. As many as I can remember who’s worked with me. I don’t want to shout you out as your blogs, but as what I see you as-artists and people in their craft who’ve for whatever reason chose to work with me:
Thank you @/vampirelover1987’s mod, @/dwaynedwaynedwayne’s mod, Batty (@/belongtosomeone), Ria (Darla - @/darla-sweets-87) Melody, (Dani - @/beckettwashere), Victor (Dwayne - @/bloodsucking-jaguar), whom I’ve never spoken to OOC but had a ball writing with.
Thank you to @/yourlocalboardwalkwitch’s mod @/beaizded’s mod, Sparrow (Marko - @/boardwalk-anarchist), Hal (@/thebloodmoonrises), Panda (Kyson - @/wolfofsantacarla and @/fallingxstarss), Ozzy (Dwayne - @/feralfangedfrights and James - @/santacarlarecords) Tori (Amelia - @/pastelgirlofsantacarla), and Xavier (Paul - @/highvamp69 and @/notadrummerfuckboy and Laddie - @/chronicles-of-sorts) whom I’ve all spoken to OOC to differing levels.
Now for the more personalized thank yous:
Jinx (Lucy - @/wannabewildagain), our thread has been one of my favorites I’ve ever had in my time as a writer and I want you to know that I really mean that.
Mare (Dare - @/w0uld-you-dare), Mare you’re so bright and supportive in so many ways-I’m so in awe of your artistry and your ability to create and be such a lovely person with all that talent.
Amia (Michael - @/wanttobelongtosomeone), without these blogs we never would’ve gotten to geek out about Michael Emerson in a propeller hat and that has to count for something? Ok in all seriousness, I love the way you write, and I’m so greatful you took a chance on working with me and you shouldn’t be so afraid to reach out to people because you’re amazing!!! But, I digress 😤
Mads (Rose - @/forever-in-the-neon-lights), in spite of our blogs being enemies for so long, and god was it fun to beef, you’re genuinely so welcoming and I love every single thing you’ve sent me in DMs. All of it.
Grace (Val - @/nocturnalpolaroid), I aspire to be as principled as you. You’re such a wonderful storyteller and Val’s story is one of my favorites to read. You’re openness and willingness to set boundaries and admit how you feel may not always land the way you want, but it’s such a show of strong, uncompromising character even if it isn’t always the easiest. You’ve never failed to be lovely to me, and I treasure that more than you’ll know.
Visual (Holland - @/holland-the-ghost and Mallory - @/santacarlasiren), you’ve given me two of my longest threads and were the person that got Esper going really, and you’re such a talented artist too. I’m in such bewilderment by how you keep up with both of these blogs with so many threads. You’ve also given me so much ammunition and inspiration since we’ve met. Can’t thank you enough.
Star (Star - @/starshallnotfall), The Star to my David, though you were the one who took me under your wings in a way. My twin in all the worst ways-You once told me “us TLB kins have to stick together” and we have and I’m so greatful for that. I’m so so so grateful you answered that dm and left room for us to talk even when I was being an awkward loser because you’re so cool. Genuinely. You’re so fucking cool. And funny, and chaotic in all the ways that are fun and ughhh I could rave forever.
Michael (Michael - @/thoushallnotfear), it’s very fitting we were so scared to acknowledge each other for the minute we do to click. And now you’re highkey one of the coolest people here. The straight man to the chaos, for all I rag on you, you’re so kind. Just the warmest and most supportive person. I remember that time we straight up love bombed each other about how much we loved each other’s work and I meant all of it and still do.
Strange (Max - @/eternal-family-man and Marko - @/immortal-rebel), you’re one of the closest friends I’ve made through this experience. Some of my earliest work when I was still figuring out who this David was was with you and I think for that reason I owe so much of his softness and his heart to your blogs. I always find him at his most human when I’m working with you. And you’re so passionate about your blogs and their stories it’s so nice to talk with a fellow research freak. I think we both found so much of our footings through working with each other and it’s just been, the most beautiful collaboration experience. Thank you for getting excited to talk to me and wanting to be my friend we wouldn’t be knee deep in David x Marko threads if you hadn’t.
Lastly-Squash (Aspen - @/coffeeconnoisseurofsantacarla, Michael - @/phoenixonamotorcycle, and Dwayne - @/rocknrollercoastin) my best friend from another fandom following me into hell, and there’s nobody else I would’ve rather taken the journey with. From smut dares, to fluff, to angst-writing with you and getting you into this hobby with me has been the other highest honor of the entire experience. Not even just working with you but the jokes this blog has spawned, the moments so singular they’ll never happen again-My David, the one you rave about, as you know him, would not exist without you. And I can’t begin to scratch the surface of gratitude and fulfillment I’ve gotten out of your work. And I probably never will. Just know I thank you every day for it. For trying to trick me. For showing up. For making this experience as beautiful as possible.
Bonus thank yous to everyone who’s ever expressed interest in writing with me. And everyone who inevitably will write with me after this is published. (Pls I love writing with new people!!!)
I’m sure I’ve missed some people and if I have lmk and I’ll put you in here, but this is getting long winded enough.
If you read all of this, you’re a trooper and just.
Thank you for being here.