The Random One

things that don’t last forever: 

this singular line makes me so emotional.

how to know someone deeply:

“There’s something about a pair of lips sliding down your neck that will always get me. Maybe because we’re always left wanting more. Always wanting more and never knowing what to do with the time that has slowed to a halt, and the only thing in front of you is a painting you’re trying to blend your name into. Always wanting more and never knowing what to do with the legs that kick start more than adrenaline, fueling more flames that you never planned to hold. I want to press my lips to your open mouth, not to kiss you, but to breathe your breath. And there’s something about mapping out promises with busy hands on someone’s legs while you’re driving that rewinds our favourite memories. There’s something about waking up to someone. The way the morning sighs around their face, and you know you’ve been dressed with their sweetest thoughts. There’s always that and you can’t get enough of your love being the one you could hold. Of lacing the misdialed scars into a blanket that folds their laughter in half. Of writing a new song to their heartbeat. Of only welcoming the rain down their face so you could follow their laughter to the clouds higher than the swing set you’re proposing their name on. There’s something about kissing on hip bones, and my god, I know you’ve been bruised, and tomorrow’s visibility is low, but I’ll leave you love notes when you can’t see your hands. I know my heart isn’t as naked as yours was. I know my eyes sometimes slip into a sleep that suffocates waistbands. But, there’s something about someone that loves you. How their breathing is the only air you’ll ever need. How their saliva slides down alongside yours. How your hands could be watering the same garden, yet being together is never close enough. There’s something about prayerful skin and pillows. The butterflies knew where to rest. Your name knows when to leave dreams full of kisses in your thoughts. There’s something about that touch from that special someone, there’s a closet of blushing cheeks you’ll always wear when you hear his voice. There’s something about the way they look into your eyes, like you’ve been held in the wrong definitions your whole life. And I know it isn’t always soft laughter and summer rain, but dear, he’ll always be chapters of lovely. And even if these memories are all we’ll ever have, you’ll always outweigh the bad. And I know I’m flawed, and I’ve been undressing every reason to love you backwards, but I just hope your heart is always full, even when your hands are not.”

…..Maybe we all need one person in our life with whom we can share the pieces of our broken heart

Aries: Sometimes we don’t even realize how much we are hurting until we find a safe space where we can be vulnerable enough to feel the extent of the pain.

“The truth is I don’t know where I see myself five years from now. To be honest, I don’t know where I see myself tomorrow. I don’t have a plan. I let life take my hand and guide me along the way with my fingers crossed that I’ll find something beautiful as I walk. may you find your way to the nights where sleep is the last thing to consider. may you walk through the same old lamplit streets and get inspired by the colours of the lights. may you find the desire to talk again, to laugh again, and may this bring you back to who you are.”