Anxiety

"I don't know about this, Fé..." Adrien says nervously, hovering outside the inn.

He and Félix are here in Japan to meet a friend they'd known online for years. They 'met' in a discussion about music, particularly video game covers. Adrien has always found that fun, but he'd get in trouble with his father if he was every caught messing around trying to do so. That didn't stop him from talking about it though, or from dragging Félix into the conversation.

Online friends are weird; you never know exactly where you stand with them, and meeting in person is a big step, but... well, taking control of their lives comes with trying to branch out and find friends entirely within their own control.

Adrien's Japanese is still shaky; he only started learning it last year, and hasn't had much chance to practice it much in speech, and that fact is contributing to his anxiety about proceeding inside, despite having come all this way. And Nicky knowing languages other than Japanese; all else fails, they could talk in English.

Félix is considerably less concerned about the language; he started studying Japanese years ago on his own; Tokyo was one of the places he'd considered trying to move to, as to get away from his father, he still might, after university. If he could talk Adrien into coming with him. That's the hang up, for getting the hell away from their father. He doesn't want to go without Adrien.

That's not to say that he's not nervous, about meeting Nicky, but he's not letting it show on his face, just straightening his shirt collar before looking sidelong at Adrien.

He looks back away from his twin, instead looking up at the sky, and letting out a breath, "Relax; we've come all this way. It would be rude to stand him up now. We agreed to meet here, so let's go in."

Every time someone came in, he tensed, wondering if it would be them this time, only to be quickly let down once he turned his head to look at them. As the day went on, he wasn't sure if he wanted them to come or not. After all, he never told them he was stuck in a wheelchair and while he hated himself for thinking bad of his friends. That they would possibly turn around over something so small but, considering his past, it wasn't a possibility he couldn't consider.

Nicky sighs as things start to slow down. He tries to clear his mind by looking at his phone for a bit. He was currently logged into his public personality, and reading mostly positive comments on his plan to livestream, a concert soon, did cheer him up a bit. He also should plan out his next casual stream now that he thought about it.

As the chime of the bell rings, signalling the door had been opened, he jumps.

"I-Irasshaimase." He greeted easily, giving a light bow as he did so. Like he did as he greeted all the guests. It's only when he looked up at them that he recognized them.

"U-U-Um hello." He easily switched over to English for the two. His nerves then started to kick in as he felt himself start to shake again. What was worse, in his surprise, he ended up bowing again. His face then flushed in light embarrassment from not recognizing them as soon as they walked in.

For worried onlookers

“You don’t look so hot…”

“Are you okay?”

“You need rest.”

“You can’t train, not in that state.”

“Business is over until further notice, your health is more important.”

“Go rest, this isn’t up for debate.”

*my character catches yours mid-stumble* “Whoa, you alright there?”

“You look like a zombie. When was the last time you had proper sleep?”

“You’re shaking. This is really affecting you, at least take a nap.”

“I’m picking you up and taking you to bed, too bad.”

“A small break won’t be good enough, you need actual rest.”

“You shouldn’t of over-exerted yourself.”

“I’ll carry you the rest of the way.”

“You could hardly stand!”

“Don’t think I won’t make you go to bed. Try me.”

“Looks like I caught you at a bad time.”

“You’re so stubborn, quit squirming I’m trying to help!”

“Your hands are shaking. You need to stop.”

“You don’t get enough sleep, do you?”

“You’re practically nodding off.”

“Hey, you just passed out. Are you okay?”

“We can nap together, ok? We’ll be nap buddies.”

“I’m crawling under the covers with you, alright? Just rest.”

“You burned your energy out in the snow, you’re shivering badly.”

“This hot weather is affecting you more than you think, you look like you’re gonna pass out.”

For the affected

“I’ll be alright, I just need a small break.”

“You’re overthinking things, I’m fine.”

“You’re too worried, I’m totally okay.”

“Don’t touch me, I don’t need your help.”

“I said I’m fine, let it be.”

“I didn’t think it’d be this cold, my body hurts all over…”

“I might have been in the sun for too long…”

“I’ll get shut-eye when I finish this paper.”

“I’ll rest when I finally get results.”

“I don’t need rest, I could keep training with no problem.”

“I can’t sleep, I’m too anxious.”

“I don’t like when it’s still and quiet, and I’m alone with my own thoughts.”

*you catch my character mid-stumble* “I-I’m alright, I just need to sit a moment…”

“Could you… sleep with me?”

“I could hardly move… maybe I did push myself too hard…”

“Yeah yeah, I’ll sleep in a bit…”

“I’m okay, really…”

“I’m not a kid, I don’t need you hovering over me.”

“Maybe I’m a little tired…”

“You’re the last person I’d want to see me like this.”

“You’re right, I’ll finish what I’m doing later.”

“Okay. I’ll go to bed, thanks for the concern.”

“I love fire, don’t you?“

“I can’t let you do this.“

“I wish we had more time.“

“What I do is not up to you.“

“I used to want to save the world.“

“This is my mission, now. Forever.“

“Have you never met a man before?“

“They don’t deserve your protection!“

“I am both frightened… and aroused.“

“This is not what we came here to do.“

“I wish we had more time… I love you.“

“It’s wonderful. You should be very proud.“

“I can save today. You can save the world.”

“Well, where I’m from, that’s called slavery.“

“Maybe you’re better off without me, yeah?“

“How do I know you’re not lying to me, now?“

“After everything I saw it can’t be. It cannot be!“

“I cannot stand by while innocent lives are lost!”

“It’s about what you believe. And I believe in love.”

“It’s not about ‘deserve’. Maybe… maybe we don’t.“

“But, it’s not about that, it’s about what you believe.“

“We’re probably going to die. This is a terrible idea!“

“You don’t think I get it after what I’ve seen out there?“

“This is not something you can cross. It’s not possible.”

“I will fight… for those who cannot fight for themselves.”

“Is this what people do when there are no wars to fight?“

“I go where he tells me to go, I do what he tells me to do.“

“You know that if you choose to leave, you may never return.“

“What one does when faced with the truth is more difficult than you think.“

“She said the world of men do not deserve you. They don’t deserve our help.“

“NEVER let your guard down! You expect a battle to be fair! A battle will never be fair!“

“If you see something wrong happening in the world, you can do nothing or you can do something.”

there it is  …  pretty much how i remember it .

just an observation ,  not a judgement .

what are you expecting your silent protest will get you ?

at least acknowledge this isn’t the way to deal with your anger .

i’m not gonna let you keep acting like a jerk .

you think you know everything .

you’re such a liar !

you’re still coming tomorrow ,  right ?

we don’t need any more holes in the wall .

i don’t know how you did it ,   i just know you did it .  ‘cause you ALWAYS do it .

[ name ] ,  don’t you wanna know where this thing goes ?

wow ,  that’s really  …  impossible .

it’s late ,  just go to sleep .

wait ,  what did i say ?

i did my best ,  but YOU .  you kept looking and looking .

are you with them ,  or with me ?  whose side are you on ?

[ name ] ?   oh my god ,   oh my god -

i beg your forgiveness .

what do you want with me ?

it’s not what i want with you ,  it’s what i want from you .

i’m placing my trust in you .

if you fail ,  i’m afraid i’ll have to find someone else .

get inside the protective circle !

for the last time ,  there’s no such thing as  [ xyz ] .

now do you believe me ?!

how many of those things are out there ?!

sit tight ,  i’ll be right back .

i’ll be right back ,  keep pressure on that .

what do they want from us ?

oh god .  they’re coming from everywhere .

you don’t think ,  you just DO .

you do stuff ,  and we pay for it .

you ruin everything !

there is so much about this that’s not okay ,  i don’t even know where to start .

you die ,  i die ,  we all die .

they’re not leaving .  they’re never leaving !

we stay here long enough ,  we’re gonna end up like  [ name ] .

if you’re so smart ,  what do you suggest we do with it ?

we’re safe as long as we stay in the house .

okay ,  i think i have this figured out .

you have to get out of there .

it isn’t safe ,  you don’t understand .

one night ,  i dreamt that i saw him in the woods .

that’s what this is all about ?

i told you you wouldn’t believe me .

do you really think i am SO stupid that i don’t see what this is about ?

that isn’t gonna happen .

don’t you think you should just tell him ?

there’s your ride ,  off you go !

destroy it ?  are you mad ?

they won’t let you leave .

not until you tell me what you need to tell me .

you said you had something you needed to say to me .  so ,  what is it ?

look me in the eyes .  and tell me .

i  …  i just wanted to tell you that i love you .

wrong answer .

[ name ] ,  it’s not your fault .  it’s mine .

i was trying to protect you ,  but i guess i should’ve just told you the truth .

is it okay if i stay here ?  with you ?

who else is gonna protect us ?

i see now .  &  i may never be able to forgive myself .

you came back as you promised .  so i forgive you .

found on this website, so credit goes to them.

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