Iâm sorry,
I was angry â you know what that was like, donât you? The uncertainty, the danger, the helplessness? Maybe if Iâd been older Iâd have made a better choice, but I canât go back anymore than you can. I canât save them, I canât stop what happened.
But wouldnât you have done the same? If it had been one of yours? He asked me to go, and I had to. That was practically my brother, you know what family means to me.
You know how it was â you know what theyâll do to me if you take me back.
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So Iâve left New York, Iâve gone out west â back home. Donât come looking, donât ask my folksâ. Iâm staying with an old friend and his grandmother on the mainland, and I wonât cause you or the camp any trouble. Just [âŚ] just forget you ever met me. Tell Chiron or whoeverâs running things after the shit show in manhattan that Iâm dead.
Iâm sorry. For everything.
Sincerely,
O. H. Monroe











