Self-Disclosure

She’s stunning, sooooo vibrant and authentic.. What I particularly like about her is her non-conformism and proactiveness.. It does really touch my heart.

She wears goggles and an acid-colored kerchief. She practices yoga all day long.. Oh my, she flies to Sri-Lanka in three days, but

She invited me to a NY-afterparty in the retreat center that she serves at so I am happy I have a chance to see her again before the end of this season and possibly drive her to the airport...

She’s so enchanting I hope to meet her in Peru one of these days....

I’m writing it to myself in the future to try to communicate this dull feeling I am now experiencing... It’s nothing special but logic and conditional reaction and it’s filthy...

I feel being a compost plant, lol

..filled with biomass I put in

Well, I just helped my son with preparing some vegetarian food for a birthday party, so I tasted some. I didn’t consume any alcohol, neither I took any stuff (I would be much better off eating some mushies instead of this kinda delicious cuisine, blargh)

It feels warm and comfortable. Body wants nothing.. The environment is homey and friendly and it is disgusting!

I’m now seriously considering simply washing that out of my body completely by doing Shankhaprakshalana....

Tomorrow is a local fair day and I want to be brisk and intelligible rather than being stuck by processing all that.

Remember

thermally processed food is for swelling and dumbness. It just turns one’s bio-chem lab on which in turn utilizes one’s brainpower to coordinate the sophisticated digestion process instead of subconsciously connecting one’s psyche to what’s important;

Being full is for oily skin, acne, smell and kidney issues. Being stuffed is like being stuck, dull and blind, like wearing a blindfold, almost like being drunk, but no fun, lol;

milk and cheese is for joint ache;

pastry is for slime and headache. pathogenic microflora loves that

sugary food is for parasites and eye twitching.

Rawism basically is a business need for this condition. It primarily is not about body but the mindset. I just have to be as smart as I could possibly be to face the unknown and talk to all these intelligent people about the things that are new to me:

lead generation

marketing strategy

partnership

international business development

Good news

I won some allies. So far I conducted two productive video-interviews (out of four or five, lol). Oh, my how awful it looks on record.. There’s indisputably an opportunity for growth.

Tomorrow I’d ideally like to meet a twenty-something girl I met last week. That is enough motive to just turn into a raw food eater.

Yes, I’ll do Shankhaprakshalana right now to clean the windscreen up and save the brain power...

Today's Agenda

Asking three folks for a hand with formalizing an offer about creating tailor-made business apps using a cool gear based on a robust community ERP platform AKA embodiment of a typical workflow of a distribution business.

I'm a geek-in-chief of a software company that built a couple of rather cool solutions in the field of high-volume trade and manufacturing business. We developed it here:

..with little to no supply of qualified workforce, mostly relying on the remote talent. This is what the place looked like just a couple of days ago:

So you can't just leave such a place but I did just that last fall in fact. We moved to a regional capital in order to improve our organization setup. So here I am working on a terrace of the HQ:

So it's like I brought a piece of our village life with us. The office is located in the very center of the city but we got a shady terrace hovering over a little forest which is particularly good for yoga practice and meditation so I believe this is the very right place for deploying a MVP. So far I brought a software engineer and a CSR from the continent so there are three of us here currently and the operation side doesn't overload me as hard as it usually did, so I have an opportunity to line the things up and scale, so here I am asking you a hand with sorting this out. Please just go ahead and tell me what you guys and gals think about this. I do appreciate your feedback very much.

My Ariadne's String

One hour is nothing as compared to stalling into disorientation after popping out of just another technology domain and diving into another one and then switching back to my code..I just want to come to the surface.

These gaps stack into weeks and months shaping a kind of learned helplessness state that is totally artificial.

I can do anything! I have experience building distributed information systems for American Oil & Gas corporations. Those systems worked in the conditions of a really high cost of idle time (up to several grands per hour per drilling rig). I managed to take over those projects from a well-established Indian software firm. I basically did it all alone. That partially is the biggest concern..

Things have drastically changed since that time though.

I learned human communication;

I became way more conscious;

A glimpse of enlightenment pays visits to me more and more often. It has a lot to do with digestion, btw. It did literally open up my heart (well, blew it up in fact, lol). This is a whole other story, though.. Well, two or three other stories. It feels like I have to disclose it...

Let me say why you should care. Grrrrls is the short answer. Spirituality and materialism are both sides of the same magic key to energy circulation, basically. I know something about it.

But first off, I am now designated to getting this double-project done. I am paid for doing it. My friends' businesses depend on the success of the project I'm now leading. And we're failing so far... These indeed are temporary complications and the life is tough for a reason. So I stay calm and keep focus and foster clarity with every day practice.

So let me just make it my responsibility to dedicate one hour a day to writing about things. Well, it took four hours today, lol.

Let this story of success or failure carve its path to existence.