faerie liqhts and moonlit nights

I don't care, I just want you in this one.

I like human AUs & reincarnation but it's not them, they DIED & I wanted OUR Aziraphale & Crowley to LIVE. we expected, with no questions asked, for 3-7 YEARS that they would live, in the South Downs, immortal. the ideas of them dying, having no past, no memories, & or not being themselves was not something any of us considered for a second. it was a cruel & unexpected twist that I don't think anybody wanted & it's hard to have lines or moments or circumstances within that tragic story that appeal or intrigue you when it's tied to things that don't. & all you really wanted was to love the ending in its entirety & continue in the comforting knowledge that your blorbos will always be AS YOU HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN THEM. immortal & happy exactly where they're supposed to be, so you can come back to them any time for comfort, just as you have for so many years before. when we were reassured this would be true, it's hard to see the beauty in anything else, particularly something that amounts to one of the most needlessly tragic & unsatisfying things I've ever seen.

I know life & stories & media are not always this simple & nuance can add to meaning... but we were assured so many times by different people that this finale was for the fans & they knew what we wanted.

it turns out they didn't.

Asa & Anthony are sweeties. they are basically Michael & David. but that's not the story we needed to end happily.

Happy birthday to me!

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