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"He seemed to have been born with overwrought nerves, and in his passionate desire to excel, he was often led to the brink of some rash step; and yet, having resolved upon such a step, when the moment arrived, he invariably proved too sensible to take it. He was ready, in the same way, to do a base action in order to obtain his wished-for object; and yet, when the moment came to do it, he found that he was too honest for any great baseness."

“When a flower doesn’t bloom, you fix the environment in which it grows, not the flower.”

“I think about you but I don’t say it anymore.”

“Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.”

“I love that word. Forever. I love that forever doesn’t exist, but we have a word for it anyway, and use it all the time. It’s beautiful and doomed.”

“You certainly are not hard to love;

"sometimes hell is the person who promised you something heavenly. the devil is good at pretending to be everything you want."

As I slowly fall in love with you and get to know you more and more, I want to meet and get close to your closest friends, your family. Wanna see your sweetest, most embarrassing childhood memories in older pictures and videos. Want to listen to your friends and family's funniest stories about you from the past. Would love to see the city you grew up in, listen to the most memorable stories from your school days while passing by your old school. Tell me about your first crush, your first love. Your first heartbreak. Let's see you and your friends' favorite hang out spot when you guys were little. Your favorite getaway place when you were younger. I would love to catch up, fill the missing pieces of your past self into your present self, cherish every missed out moment of you, and fall even deeper in love with you.

Thank you for crossing paths with me. Even if the moments didn’t last nearly long enough, they were all beautiful.

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Don’t be mistaken, I love every part of you. I love the funny, the serious. The happy and the silly. The caring and the worried. The proud. I love the overwhelmed and the sad. The scared and the vulnerable. God, I even love the passive aggressive.

“If I could find someone that loves me the way I felt loved back then, maybe I could stop thinking about you and finally feel like a whole person again. I know you’ve already moved on, and I’m sure seeing my name drives a knife of hate through you, and I’m sorry. I’m grieving, and it’s all I can do to keep my head above the water. I thought we had the love only writers and artists truly know, the poetic and endless type. But I hurt you, and I ruined it, and though I’d give my all to make it up to you I know that isn’t what you want. So for everyone’s sake, I’ll find someone new. I’ll see if I really can love again. And I hope that you’re happy out there, and safe, and loved. And I hope one day I can be too.”