Blog of Memories

The infinite possibilities were extinguished when you were. And whatever may have eventuated, I’m still saddened you didn’t get to experience “it.” It’s not always about how much I miss having you around as my crazy (Tumblr perfect) nerdish friend (two peas in a pod), but also about you and what you have ultimately been deprived off. Maybe that’s the process of grief. Maybe that’s the process of maturation (me? Mature? Ha!) - moving beyond the selfish tears.  But it’s this year that it’s dawned on me that your nephew, Dallas, a toddler the last time I saw him with you there, is older than you were at your end. Remembering he was born in  2000 (a fellow Dragon in the Chinese zodiac), he’ll be 17 this year. And you, not yet 16 when you were stolen away. That makes the head reel. Ageing only seems to increase exponentially as time goes on. However, I’m sure - from Facebook, and catching up with Katie one time - the boy will make you proud as a aunt. He’ll be that little pop culture, gaming nerd that you were, and live a life you were denied. :)  

You think you remember most of the silly memories you shared with your best friend; all the memories you re-wrote out from that other killed site you joined, and then Facebook triggers one it appears you forgot about. According to some page for theatre - on Facebook - two people from the city in which we friends lived are doing some production. One of the names, a Carrie, was a senior in our all girls school. This name triggered a memory I'd previously forgot in which the girl - in a typical horror movie fashion - tried to run me down. It goes like this (maybe? Memory: amirite?): I was away with the fairies strolling across a dead-end road near the entrance to the high school. Suddenly, I'm brought back to reality as a car appears startlingly close to my legs. Looking to the driver, I believe it to be the older Carrie G, theatre nerd. I could have been wrong, but for whatever reason I tell Alice about this experience (this is where she comes in to it), Carrie was the person I told her I thought tried to vehicle-ly murder me.   The resulting joke we then had was that Carrie had it in for me, and any little misstep on the road - the domain of the cars - would see her zoom out of thin air to try and send me flying like a Frisbee. I was just an inside joke of sorts we'd make if I was near or crossing a road. Like, "hey watch out for Carrie G when you walk home!"  

I hope they never break up. <3

The bank was less brambly and more bushy when we parked our asses down on it to do coke. I also remembering trying to smoke weed down their with my first girlfriend (all girl’s school, what did you do?) in University.

This memory came back to me in a roundabout sort of way. It started with watching AMVs on Youtube where one used a song called Synchronicity, from Tsubasa: Tokyo Revelations but used footage from X TV (another CLAMP series). Basically I decided to watch Tokyo Revelations (having seen Reservoir Chronicles) then re-watch X, because why the hell not? I have plenty of unseen anime I can watch but let's re-watch this particular one. Did that. It was great. Then remembered I was given Cardcaptor Sakura on the hard-drive: ok, I don't know I could sit through all 70 episodes and the movies now but I did recall that one weird episode with strawberries, and Sakura and friends getting locked in.... Episode 38: Sakura's Happy Strawberry Hunt. I must have seen this particular episode with Alice present because I clearly remember mocking Ms. Mizuki (english: Ms. Mackenzie) pointing at her neckline as she sits in a tree, with the bestie, several times. The thing being it's super creepy because Sakura is just hanging from the ledge, she looks out the window, there's the teacher - she points, Syaoran (Li) pulls her up, he looks (upside down), and the teacher is gone! It was a "laugh out loud", "what the fuck!?" moment for children's television. She meant using Clow Key around Sakura's neck to unlock the door - locked by the Lock Card (uh, duh, Sakura!) but her mysterious nature and appearance at that time was rather startling. Glad to have a Cardcaptor's memory other than recalling Alice's crush on Yue. ....CLAMP has a few studs actually. :D