nobody knows (2004)

and is the over-abundance of gay sex in film where two guys are just going at it with no tenderness in the room with us right now

i'm genuinely terrified because this felt like a relapse. an addiction spiral. he got a taste and couldn't stop. he made that phone call to florida and it went very badly, and it set him off. he was done, he was pulling back, and something broke. (the double meaning of the breaking bad title, where not only do we get those glimpses of walt and jesse, but gene is embodying the title quite literally, to the point where he reminded me of desperation level heisenberg - impulsive, controlling, unkind - in a way he never has before.) this is someone who refuses to process his trauma, but who is endlessly raking himself back over the coals of the terrible circumstances he helped to instigate. someone falling back into their worst habits, their darkest self...and in many bad relapses like this, it's often the final time. there are usually only two ways to end it. it's fatal. or you get clean.