Eternity Is A Mere Moment

I’m not fine at all. LIKE AT ALL. TAYLOR HAVE YOU’VE BEEN READING MY DIARIES?

THIS SCENE HERE. OMG

Personally, being in my 20s is a complete fucking mess, and I tend to hope to get some support from the people I love (especially the ones I love the most and do absolutely everything I have to make them happy). It sucks when you realise it will never be reciprocal.

the facial expressions are so powerful, the fake smile, the yearning while she looks down because that asshole didn’t show up, the whole scene as a parallel to the scene with her father and him (+ the parallels to the Lover mv, taylor, you mastermind)… so fucking powerful. I think it has made us cry because we have all have been in that sort of situation, just clinging to that dumb hope that person is gonna show up, or at least have the decency to call

A week before RED tv, i had this huge fight with my best friend, the person who i would’ve described as the love of my life (sometimes i still do, old habits die hard i guess), because I tried to hug her (yep, just like the scene, bc it was a normal thing between us). The hurt and seeing myself in this videos made me realise a lot of things.

It’s the subtlety of things, just like the hand thing. You start to see cracks of something that’s inherently wrong in the relationship, but it seems like you’re the only one who sees it.

+ “anytime now, he’s gonna say it’s love. You never called it what it was” Being so confused about a situation, hoping to get that reassurance but mever getting it. It sucks and it hurts and this single line makes me cry like a baby.

This scene right here. JUST HOW, HOOOWWWW. It’s a perfect depiction of toxic relationship and gaslighting when you notice things aren’t going well, when you let yourself express your emotions to the other person only to be treated like you’re crazy or exaggerating. Suddenly the fault is all yours for “feeling to much”, how you feel is belittled, and you feel so bad. Then the showering of affection comes in; just so you never know where do you stand. You don’t which version of the person you’re getting, but you keep on just because sometimes you get their good side. It’s sickening, it’s maddening, it leaves you confused and it makes you question yourself. You suddenly don’t feel like you anymore.

It’s all so well depicted.

Tolerating being treated like shit just because then they will apologise, and you just let it slip because “well, there must be something happening to them, it’s not really their fault”. Expecting, even after all that, the sweet version of them.

Sometimes because all you have known about love is that it hurts, so you just think “this is how it should feel, it’s love, of course it’s gonna hurt me”

En even after all that, even after tolerating and ignoring red flags and ignoring advice from everyone who cares about you, even after losing yourself; you get left behind. All out in the cold, with no real explanation, just with you feeling “well, there must be something wrong with me; there is definitely something wrong I did for this to happen”. The manipulation was so real it left you like that.

But then it comes my favourite part. The healing. Coping with it writing, you slowly start seeing yourself again. You took your broken heart and made it something not only beautiful but something that made you find yourself again. You made it out alive, even after all that crying, even after having to pick piece by piece the shattered glass you were. You made it, and you made something beautiful and inspiring with it. Somehow, that’s everything.

I think that’s what I want to do too, Taylor, and I’ve been thinking about it for so long. After seeing this short film, all I have to say is thank you. Thank you once again for being there (even if you’re not actually “there” or “here”) when I needed guidance the most. Thank you for showing me parts of my heart that I didn’t recognise until this came in my way.

Thank you once again, even after writing all that I want, I think no words could ever express my gratitude.

Well let’s just say this is me (not even trying) since RED tv and the all too well shortfilm

IM ALL TOO UNWELL TAYLOR

My Cardigan finally came!!! 😭 @taylorswift i’m so in love with it

I ordered fearless and evermore but i still have to wait for a couple of months. Work really paid off 🙌🏻

Unluckily mi little sister broke my guitar, since the release of fearless i’ve been inspired to start writing my own songs, it still works but sounds kinda bad. The next paycheck will be for a new guitar and more merch

I love you @taylorswift and i can never forget the fact that you saved my life.

Your music has been therapy to me. I have been in really bad places in my life, but your messages made me feel seen; especially this is me trying. Honestly, as someone who has been really close to that look out and has tried to follow her fears all the way down; your music has been a anchor for me. As a lesbian, everything you have done for our community has inspired me. I hope some day im as a half as the woman you are, resilient, smart, honorable. I can not thank you enough for pulling me out of that dark dark place, thank you for being my (and millions of people too) soundtrack of my life. Happy birthday Tay, I hope you have an amazing day because you deserve it, surrounded by loved ones. Me, as a swiftie, would want to give you the sun and all of the stars. I can’t thank you enough.

Pd: i would post a pic with the rest of my merch but it still doesn’t arrive in Peru (also i might have kinda stole mi fathers credit card to buy it but it’s ok, we’ve talked about it)

Pd 2: i would cut a leg just to meet you, i don’t even use it that much

Now a real description of When you understand the more he says the less you know, and when you beg him to take your hand and wherever he strays you follow and when he wrecks your plans and holds your hand

@taylorswift @taylornation

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