Ideas from an unemployed human

As movies and tv shows these days take a lot of effort and budget to create the movie magic which “Wows” our hearts and keeps us hooked, but I would like to create a what if situation when studios have a limited budget for the works. Like the movie “Be Kind Rewind”, what if we recreate hit movies and memorable moments in a tv show at a much lower budget.

As I am trying to cope with this downward spiral of negativity, I thought of an idea for those in similar situation. Unfortunately I am just too introverted to execute this experiment. 

As I am sure there’s a few of us out there who’s probably in a similar situation as I am, or people just needing someone to talk to. Similar to a speed dating situation, a social worker will set up a table and a chair for himself and another, with a sign that says “Talk to me.”, “Tell me anything” or anything similar. 

This is to create an opportunity for human interaction, almost like a venting booth, or just someone there to listen and care. It does not matter if whatever the person is saying is true or false. All that matters is that there was an interaction between two people. 

The phrase and sentence, “what about me”. When I hear it, I can’t help to feel all the things I have done in the past goes unnoticed, I feel unappreciated as if I was taken for granted. Each time I hear it, it heart feels like a tonne, and brought me slamming onto the ground. 

I have done everything for the future, I planned, I tried executing, I have emphasized the plan over and over again only to fallen on deaf ears, and it was not only for my future but others. Even while I was in this rut of a situation I am in at the moment, I have done nothing but to plan the future based on the current situation, but with how I am struggling with finances, I can’t help but to make drastic measures for the future. But the moment I mention my plan... those dreaded words I hear over and over again, “What about me?”. I then can’t help but to think about all the other times, when my words are like dust in the desert when all I have mention and thought about was the future and how it was constantly causing conflicts when brought up. 

They say not to dwell about things in the past, but how could I not? After what I have gone through and what I am going through now, I feel like I am being used and then thrown away, and it repeats in an endless cycle, being unappreciated. Then I hear plans that does not include me in it. The same phrase rings in my head, but it was not in my voice. 

Am I inconsiderate? Am I selfish? After all this years of compromising from my end. This makes me think if everything I have done is one sided, especially I was never even close to achieving the goals that I have set in the plans agreed upon. 

I think I should consider a gap year, a year that I should reevaluate everything, As the saying goes, “it takes two to clap”. I can’t help feel that I am the only person in a two man team.

Lately I have lost a lot of motivation and no longer caring for the daily chores I have set for myself. I distract myself with my old addiction to avoid unnecessary negative thoughts but eventually this meant putting aside all my other plans and chores. 

I stay at home to avoid spending, I became quite anti-social but I just do not want to impose my negativity on others. I may have reverted back to my hermit phase again, where I’d just stay at home and survive on minimal amount of items that I have available to myself. 

In Japan, there are people who are paid to be “friends” or to socialize and listen to others as their work life and busy culture working overtime, there’s hardly anytime for them to socialize or confide to someone else.

My idea is almost like a confession booth but to a professional (not a church). Rather than bringing secrets to the grave, secrets will be revealed once the person has passed. Also rather than going to a lawyer, you just go to this confidant who safely and securely keep all your matters private. 

This confidant will not be connected to any family members, friends, associates, colleagues, or anyone that the client knows of. All discussions with client will be recorded and these information will be released to whomever the client wants these information to be provided to. 

If the client changes their mind about giving these information out, all of these documents/information will be destroyed. The person who the client wish to give these information to has the right to choose receive these information. If rejected these items will be destroyed or handed over to another person if the client wishes to have an alternative person to provide to. 

How does one define luck? How is someone considered fortunate and someone considered unfortunate. I always pondered on this question everyday when things go wrong. But when things don't go wrong I never question myself. When good things happen I hardly notice as much except for when I get large windfalls.

During my youth, I always thought I have luck with gambling, but lately as I've grown up, I felt I no longer have that luck with gambling as I constantly lose on tables. 

How does one perceive luck? Just the other day I felt as if I was down on my luck, getting rejected by jobs over and over again, my watch strap broke, while I was peeing, and it fell into the urinal. 

I feel like I am at the lowest point in my life. When I see bills and when I look at my bank account, my heart drops. I feel like curling up in a fetal position and just sit in the corner, but that would mean I'm not doing anything, which eventually will lead to a downward spiral in my life. 

Since I struggle to get any feedback from previous interviews and where I've gone wrong to help correct myself and further improve my chances, I thought it would be a great to have a show, with consent of the companies and the candidates. 

The idea of the show is also to help those who struggle to impress during an interview, and to figure out which areas they could improve on, and what criteria each companies are looking for. 

The show provides various type of different jobs, and show the unique capabilities of different candidates, what companies do to determine the right candidate. I am sure that each company will have their own unique approach and method in selecting the perfect candidate. 

Companies may also provide feedback or discussion where why the other candidates were not selected. If I would give a name to this show, I'd call it "The Candidate." 

I just thought of another TV show idea whilst blogging on the idea above. If they could have a TV show for people who are seeking a new job, or those who are unemployed looking for new work, or those who are seeking change in career paths, or looking for a change in their working environment. At the same time, there will be multiple employers with different job offers available. 

Just like the chinese dating tv game show called "If you are the one." but designed for employers to find the right candidate for the job. Candidates arrive on stage to select their employer of choice based on company branding provided. Candidates are to provide a brief overview of themselves from characteristics, their education background, employment history and why they decide to go on the show. At any moment of the time, employers can opt out in hiring the candidate. Remaining employers will be given the opportunity to ask the candidate questions, based on the roles they are willing to offer. A video of the candidates references will be played, based on standard interview questions. Employers will also be given a chance to speak to the candidate's references. 

My apologies for the late entry as for the past two night's I've been working in the pizza restaurant. It's occasionally busy and I do get up to 5 hours of work a night which isn't bad. While working I do understand the trades a little bit and what needs to be done to run the pizza delivery business. The business is small and runs on with just two people. It used to be a thriving business with 2 other partners and 5 delivery guys until the commercialization of other pizza franchises robbing them of customers. Though it is great to know that they are still some loyal customers out there supporting these small businesses. 

I can't wait to learn how to make a pizza and make one just for my wife when she returns home from UK. I just can't wait to get the ingredients required to make her something tasty just before she returns.  

Back to the business ideas. Imagine making UBer a little more versatile rather than just transporting people. Ensuring deliveries of parcel's packages, food just for that little extra money as not every night you'll get a passenger for a customer. To ensure smooth flowing continuous work, why not undertake other extra tasks to earn that additional money in the pocket. Combining both apps such as Menulog which logs delivery details and UBer like app to coordinate all deliveries. 

I decided to go with the interview with McDonald's. I got myself prepared, dressed nicely, and prepped all the documents necessary to bring to maccas. 

I arrived early, and the lady was interviewing someone at the time. I sat down and waited patiently, until my turn came up. She came and asked me a couple of basic questions and asked me what I plan to do and what's my availability. I told them my availability since I have accepted a new delivery job. I said I wouldn't mind undertaking two jobs at the same time as I am only chewed up in time for the night for the delivery job. 

She seems cool with it and told me that I will only hear about something by next week to let me know if I get the job. Feeling happy I decided to go home, only to find an email saying that I am unsuitable for the role. It was a huge let down and disappointment. I can't even get a job in McDonald's. Am I overqualified? Could I not just get a job so I can make ends meet?

I was thinking about starting my own baby clothing design. With technology these days plaguing the world, more and more recent generations in the 1st world countries are no longer exposed to the world outside other than their computers, tablets, phones and television. My design just goes back to old roots, where its a design simply portraying ambitions, innocence, and life in itself. 

However my only concern is that this may only cater to a small number of buyers as these days, they want their children to look hip, or "swag". Not sure how well this will work. 

Just a start to another week, it's Monday, when new jobs gets posted online. I've lost count to the number of jobs I have applied for. I have been applying since I knew my project was coming to an end. There were "promising jobs" but ever since then, I had no luck, due to different experience, different specialty and living/working in a different state affected all chances I had to get a job. It does get a bit frustrating annoying that the time I have spent to earn this degree has gone to waste. 

I had the opportunity to switch company and go into a structural design field, but I turned it down believing that I would have been given the same opportunity in the same company.  I guess it may have been my biggest regret, but yet I don't know where I would be now if I have taken that road. It's like Robert Frost' poem, the road not taken. There are no do-overs in life or reloading a save point.

I should not dwell on it and move forward. My mother has recently told me that she's gone to see a fortune teller to see my fortune based on tarot reading. Based on my birth date, the teller drew out the hanged man card. I went online to read what it meant, and it states that I am in a suspended situation, and I may have to wait for a new opportunity. I am told to let it go and make necessary sacrifices to experience new things. 

Some reason it feels as if the tarot card reading was true. I am doing jobs out of a my profession and experience. I am grateful indeed for these experiences. I wonder if these readings are really true or just so happens to be coincidental. I was warned though that a person may want to cheat me, which I interpret as a con-artist may cross paths with me. I will need to keep that in mind, if there are sudden too good to be true opportunities arising and consult with someone before delving myself in such too good to be true opportunities.

With the change in technology these days, I feel that emails these days are very slow especially answering queries from customers/clients. Usually this is just a painful waiting process, going back at forth with clients and waiting for the next query from the customer. 

Why not give the opportunity to stay at home parents, who could not leave their home especially when they need to care for their young, when they could not afford child care, and just need a little extra income to pay for rent, bills and all other living needs. 

With proper training to stay at home staff, they can run online webchats for customers who do not wish to be placed in a waiting queue on the phones, and they are paid for duration they have worked dealing with clients. Each individual gets to choose a time slot to which they would prefer to work. 

Woke up this morning to find an email for Mc Donald's saying I have been shortlisted and all I have to do is arrange a time to be interviewed on their website. I have mixed feelings about it. I am happy that I've got another opportunity, another job to help pay the bills, and the other my proud self which says, I am better than this. As much as I try to drown out these negative feelings, they tend to overwhelm me through out the day. There is this feeling where I felt that my heart is being crushed, as if I am heartbroken with life in itself, and I keep telling myself over and over again, this is one of life's many challenges, and I just need to face it head on, as it builds up character. All I have is my own thoughts to motivate myself, to pull my head out of the water and get back on my feet. 

My other concern, if I do accept the job, I need to avoid feeling complacent. Complacent about the fact that there isn't any other engineering jobs out there for me, so I should stop developing and renewing my engineer knowledge. 

I am a worry wart and this is not healthy. I am not sure if I am suffering from a form of depression. I feel that my spirit has been crushed. I do hope this does not affect my mental health. I believe that good things will come to those who wait.  I need to also learn to let go, learn to control my thoughts and feelings. This is not the end yet. It's only the beginning, and if I can't go through this, all my hard work and effort would have gone to waste. I will not surrender to this mountain that I have to climb. I will reach the peak and find my way back down over it. 

I am going to set an interview date for Mc Donald's and regardless of the outcome I will stand tall and face the challenges ahead head on. 

I was wondering to myself, ways to earn money, and my thoughts was to start something Viral. When I mean viral, I do not mean infect someone with some form of a virus but, more of being the next internet sensation. Earning money from videos such as youtube, selling merchandise, being a famous meme, and etc. 

Then it hit me. I suggested to my best friend that we should start a web-series called Viral Me. The story was to create a mock-umentary (similar to the office), about someone, being in my position, trying to make ends meet by finding the next internet sensation and earning from it. The company they set up in this mock-umentary is called Viral Me. However the search or trying to make a video clip, or find the next grumpy cat, or making the parody video is real. When I mean real, the web-series will use videos actually used to try to make a viral video (i.e having pet auditions to find the next pet internet sensation, or creating a parody video. These videos will be posted separately from the web-series and used as reference in the web-series. Views and popularity will then determine how the next story goes in the web-series. The web-series will try using ways commonly used to create viral or money making internet sensations.