GET JINXED

this particularly works with anything negative i’ve forecasted. “i woke up feeling like shit today, so my day is gonna suck” isn’t a particularly helpful thought, but “it’s a great day to be alive!!!!!” feels hollow and insincere when i have a pounding headache & am running on three hours of sleep

instead i’ll tell myself, “i really don’t feel good right now, but i’m open to the possibility that coffee and breakfast might perk me up a bit.” or “i’m in a lot of pain today, but i’m open to the possibility that my workday might still have fun parts despite that”

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hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

While your emotions may feel just as intense, maybe you catch yourself thinking “this will pass. It always does” instead of thinking about giving up.

Maybe you still have irrational thoughts but you catch yourself challenging the thoughts.

Maybe you allow yourself the space to feel your emotions instead of burying them. Maybe this means you validate your emotions, even if they don’t make sense to you.

Maybe you’ve learned some new coping mechanisms or learned to reach out for help.

Maybe it’s realizing not everything is a personal attack on you and that people are just being people trying to get through their own lives. Someone’s being short with you? Maybe you think they’re having an off day instead of thinking they are mad at you. Maybe it’s in the way when a friend has to cancel plans you don’t immediately think they hate you.

There are so many other possibilities but my point is that when you think you haven’t made progress, try taking a closer look at how you react to certain things now than you did before.

(ʘ‿ʘ✿) “what you say ‘bout me”

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