i write occasionally

I am in the midst of writing two AU’s for The Bear (maggot and get me off the floor) but I will definitely start writing cannon adjacent fics after they’re completed/once season four is released.

If you have any requests or comments or questions feel free to ask. I may not do all requests because I’m not comfortable with NSFW and I just might not be able to (please don’t be offended if that’s the case)

Keep in mind I’m a full time college student with a job and an internship and untreated ADHD/depression so updates will be weird.

I picture Abbot having a similar reaction to Lee from Manchester by the Sea if Robby actually flatlines

gif under cut for anyone who doesn’t understand the reference

Fell in love with the bear and then immediately fell in love with ur fics, and after my bear obsession I moved onto the Pitt only to find ur tumblr and see YOU REBLOGGING STUFF FROM THE PITT???? AMAZING COINCIDENCE

Anyway just letting u know ur rly cool and INCREDIBLY talented, and i rly want my writing to be something like urs as i improve!!!

Live life long <3!

DUUUDE gotta love the pipeline!!!! That’s too funny!

You’re so very kind for messaging me- please feel free to leave requests for the Pitt and or the Bear :)

I know I’ve been saying this a lot on my blog and in the notes of my fics but I’m just going through a very rough time

regardless, I PROMISE my bear fics will be finished 😭

You are so kind for saying that :)

To those who do not practice Christianity, you may not know the verse Exodus 20:12 “Honor thy mother and father”, but many of Christians have translated this to “never speak badly with your parents”. Because of this I think that Dennis has a very hard time opening up about what he went through in his childhood. I have no doubt that poor kid went through some kind of abuse (whether he even realizes it or not is another big question but we’ll get to that) and if he was raised in a strictly religious environment this was probably shoved down his throat. Also, if it was a tightly knit community/ cult like environment like I’ve seen some people theorize I have no doubt kids who talked bad about their parents were snitched on (by adults and other kids). Even now, as an adult, it’s highly likely Dennis is highly hesitant to talk about his parents at all because he doesn’t have many good things to say about them.

Now onto the not knowing it was abuse… there is an unfortunately high number of people who use The Bible and twist it to excuse abuse, which will ingrain itself into the brain of the abused as not just excusable but expected, good and just (Proverbs 13:24: "Whoever spares the rod hates his son, but he who loves him is diligent to discipline him" which does NOT mean beat your kids but GUIDE them. Shepard use a rod to guide their sheep not hit them)

That Catholic guilt (though I don’t think he was raised Catholic) of believing you’re deserving of repentance though pain goes deep. I find it hard to believe that even after escaping the punishments Dennis didn’t punish himself (with fasting, or on a darker note, potentially self harm)

So put those two together and you get borrowing up all your trauma then occasionally trauma dumping things you don’t know are super fucked up and then repenting for it out of guilt.

Is this making sense? I can in another post and answer questions if needed.

On a more positive note, I believe that over the years Dennis is has escaped the toxic weaponized Christianity used against him. I like to think he has found true faith in a healthy environment, where he learns the gospel instead of just bits and pieces and discovers that he is loved and that forgiveness is not conditional.