IceFich

So I'm never going back  No, I'm never going back

 You don’t know how it is, to be lost in thought. To be lost in a fantasy that you know will never come true. A reality so twisted by your mind that you don’t know who to trust, or to believe anymore, who’s really there for you. A voice in your head that’s constantly nagging over and over. Being set off by the littlest things and having to lock yourself in an enclosed space so you don’t hurt anyone. Waking up in the middle of the night full of fear, or deprived of sleep because you mind wont rest, won’t stop playing these thoughts over and over, won’t stop twisting all the good in your life into bad, won’t stop conjuring up the unlikely and making you believe in utter bullshit. YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT IT’S LIKE TO HAVE A RESTLESS MIND IN A BODY THAT NEEDS REST.

Mind: “But it feels so good”

They always go back to the one they really love. Its never the side whore. But why is it so backwards for me? You say you love me then there’s the “But i cant live without her.” It’s like your asking for her to be wiped off the face of the earth. For me to make her feel excruciating pain, pain that words can’t explain unless you travel to the deepest thoughts of the person who’s inflicting the pain’s mind. The pain that i felt when he said he can live without me, but not without you. And trust me bitch, it hurts like a motherfucker.

~ Cheshire Cat

Liz Taylor

Being told to stay with someone, while you watch what’s yours be taken away and claimed is not, in any way, caring and wanting the relationship to last. It’s wanting and expecting everything to yourself after you’ve made it clear who you really are. So do you really expect me to watch and stand by as i am consigned to oblivion, in every way possible as you say “stay”? The situation is easy to figure out, you just want everything to be yours, and then guilt your way through people if they end up hurt. Though, i refuse to let you impersonate the victim. You will feel what i feel. You will see what i see. In me, and in yourself. When you do, you’ll hate every part of the sick monster you’ve created within yourself.