this isn’t a blog. it’s a coping mechanism

i don’t recognize myself anymore

I can’t do this. Everything hurts too much. I’m fucking done.

wish i could disappear without anyone noticing

Maybe so many people leave me because I’m better off as a memory

I wish I looked good and no idc what people say ab me there’s things I’m always gonna nitpick and obsess over no matter how good it looks to other ppl

therapy didn't make me selfish and mean, trauma did

I’m so fucking tired. I can’t do this anymore.

i want to disappear everyday

it feels like December will be the saddest month of the year. including Christmas and New Year of course. i no longer have any reason to smile or be happy. i'm just existing and that's all

i would like to have someone to talk to every day and every night

without feeling that i bother them

I DONT CARE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *throws up and dies from caring*