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We’ve built a wall, stopped all possible communications, burned some bridges. But you made some effort to get in touch with us again. The wall vanished, connection started again, paddled the boat to reach the other end. I thought we’re all good, I thought those “So glad to see you again, we’ve missed you so much, don’t worry we’ll help you” lines you uttered were true. You all faked it. Is it because we weren’t that successful like your other nephews/nieces that you forget we existed? Or you just throw away the memories and sacrifices what our father did to all of you that when he died, all the things he had sacrificed were burried too.

I don’t usually hold grudges. We’ve already accepted the fact that we’re no longer part of your family. We’ve built the walls and burned those bridges for 8 years and you just destroyed it in a snap. Now, we’ll be rebuilding... Walls too high for you to climb & rivers under bridges that you can’t swim because waters have run dry.

Twas 10 years ago when I met you at a School located at the Mountain Top where hoodies and lip balms are a must. You were so gorgeous with your all black OOTD that matches your perfectly painted eyeliner. I then said to myself, “This girl’s so cool, too impossible to befriend her.”

And then came that day when you went to our room (para magpaload), we had some chitchat and started the endearment “girl”, only to realize that it wasn’t a good choice because God didn’t bless us with PABEBE voices so we ended up calling each other “BOI” instead.

We’ve been through a lot. From takas moments to campus bound to “I don’t like that friend for you” to Research/Thesis struggles to “will I be able to graduate?” to Alumni Church goal achieved to RN goals, relationship goals, heartaches and many more.

After graduation and passing the boards, we took our paths differently, you being a nurse and me having my headsets ON during graveyard hours. Although we’re miles apart, we never forget to update each other. LDR still works. ❤️

I know you’re quite the opposite of me, I being the loudest and extrovert and you being so timid and shy. I can still recall those times when you hid your pregnancy just to surprise us but since you aren’t good at hiding, you got surprised instead. But that doesn’t change my treatment to you. Yes, I’m quite disappointed but I was soooo happy knowing I can be a Ninang to that cute lil boy named Teddy.

I know you’ve been through a lot lately, you’re silently crying under your pillow but I am proud of how strong you are as a woman, a partner to Azer and as a mom to Teddy. I have never known someone as strong as you are amidst all the trials and sacrifices you’ve made for your family. You’ll be walking a different road now in Aussie away from your comfort zone but I am sure that Azer won’t leave you and I know you are a fighter. Just keep in mind that I’m always here for you and I’m just a one call away whenever you’re homesick and need someone to talk to or if you wanted to share anything, I’m all ears boi.😉

I’m gonna be missing you so bad. 😭🥺 It’s no longer a ONE WAY TICKET TO DAVAO but I’ll see you soon in Aussie. You both take care and know that I love youuuuuu so much. 😘❤️

I can’t think of any reason why you suddenly left me. We were so sweet back then, chatting about random stuffs may it be related to the game we both played or how our day went, giggling while exchanging kisses on both of our camera lenses and just enjoying each other’s company/presence without uttering a single word. We were so comfortable with each other that we don’t mind how we look like upon waking up and after a long tiring day.

You were my everything, I’ve given most of my time to you. Gave all the energy that I could give but still you left me.

Days have passed, I was wondering what could’ve been wrong. Is it because I’m too sweet that you lost interest in me, or is it because I don’t have that great skills in ROS that you don’t want to play with me or you’re not just contented or maybe we weren’t just meant to be.

I’ve been guarding my heart so well by not allowing anyone to handle it until the day you came. I thought you were capable of handling my fragile heart, I thought from all the guys who broke my heart, you were different. But I ended up falling inlove with an asshole, again.

I thought I was enough, I thought from all the efforts that I’ve been pouring and all the support and defending I did from all your haters and all the mocking about your pasts, you’ll keep me. But I guess, I’m still not enough and you decided to chose her over me.

I’m still grateful for I’ve known someone like you. I am grateful for all the heartaches you put me through because those will serve as a lesson for me to not commit the same mistake when my right man arrives.

Thank you so much because for once, I felt happy and felt loved (even if it’s FAKE) in a short period of time. Maybe I am enough, maybe not for you but to the person who can see my value and worth and appreciate all the love I can give.

I may not be able to meet you personally, we may have a bitter ending but I’m still glad you came. Thank you so much my virtual boyfriend, I may not be able to date you again in Ghillie Island but thank you for letting my heart smile for a while.

I love you but my heart says I should let you go.

I haven't met you yet but I can't wait to introduce you to my mom and late dad and that for sure they'll tell me, I'm so blessed to have you. But...... lemme tell you these things and just a heads up.

I'm overly dramatic and I am loud. I overthink too much not because I don't trust you, but because I don't trust them and by them I mean, them Bitches.

My jokes are sometimes a yes but maybe sometimes you'll find it annoying and I just hope my humor matches yours.

And by the way, I talk like a guy because I am one of the boys. I talk dirty and promise to talk the dirtiest when I'm with you.

My friendliness is sometimes misinterpreted as flirty but I tell you, it's you I wanna flirt with for the rest of my life, up until the day I die.