I. AM. RUUUDEEE!!

I see a girl racing through a green valley

Laughing

Hair flying

Twirling in the wind

She is alive

She is there

She is in the moment

She cares not that she has a weird run

She cares not that her face wrinkles when smiling

She cares not that her laughter is way too loud.

She is alive

She is happy

Then cry myself to sleep.

Feels so lonely

When there are a thousand hands waiting to reach.

Can't trust no one

Has to make it all by myself

The mics are on

Yet I dont feel heard

Sit out here

Thinking someone will find me.

I catch a glimpse of the sky,

the prettiest they have ever been

hues of pink

dashed across the pale blue.

I wonder why I didn't see them earlier,

I wonder if I'll ever see them again.

I hear the laughter of a child,

the honking of cars,

I've been there

and I've hated it.

But as the tides took me under,

I remembered what it was like to laugh like that child,

what it was to be in a car driving somewhere you love.

I remembered what it was like to be alive.

I remembered what it means to live

Let someone live

What is there to lose if you

Let someone breathe.

What is worse than

Being the reason for someone's unhappiness.

What is worse than

Being the cause of someone's humiliation.

In a world where competitions and comparisons rule,

How can I let myself be

I never thought I would write these words… 😔

I never imagined waking up to endless screams,

Running barefoot through smoke and fire,

Searching for my mother among the rubble,

Only to find nothing but silence… a heavy silence telling me that no one will answer me anymore. 💔

In one moment, everything changed.

Our home became a memory, my mother’s embrace became the past,

And my father's face, now absent, is the last thing I hold in my memory.

They’re gone… and left my heart burdened with unspoken grief. 😢

But despite everything, we are still here… trying.

I survived with my younger siblings.

Yes, we survived… but who are we after survival?

Children without warmth, without a roof, with no place to return to.

We were displaced to an unknown place, carrying a bag empty of everything… except pain. 🥀

We slept in the open, waking every morning to a life that holds nothing for us,

But despite everything… we keep trying. 💪

I write to you today not to cry, but to ask for hope. 🌱

I ask you to be a small light in this vast darkness,

To extend a hand that can mend what the war has broken in us.

Your donation will give my siblings a chance to sleep safely,

It will provide us with food, shelter, and maybe even a new beginning. 💖

✅️Vetted by @gazavetters, my number verified on the list is ( #586 )✅️

Any amount, no matter how small, is big for us

It’s a prayer, it’s love, it’s life. 🌟

In conclusion...

From my heart, and from the hearts of my little siblings,

Thank you to everyone who has donated,

Thank you to everyone who has read,

Thank you to everyone who has shared.

I smashed the plate,

Threw the glass,

Yelled at her to fuck off and leave me alone.

But outside,

I just nodded.

And later,

But I survived.

Laying in the hospital bed, I thought,

Some call her crazy,

Some call her insane

Some put her in an asylum

But nothing killed her rage.

What they had to do was understand her

What they had to do was see

The little things

The papercuts

That covers her brain.

What they had to know was

What its like to be treated

Like they treat her

What they had to do was

Sit with her

Listen to her

And then maybe her rage might die

Calm might be restored

But they chose to ignore.

It was easier to call her mad

And so she rages