enjoy what you can, endure what you must.❤

It’s tough when you put everything into something and feel that passion; that fire for what you’ve been striving to achieve only to be told no, you’re too good; you’re not good enough. You have too little experience; you have too much experience. It’s a double-edged sword and it feels like you can’t win, that you’re forever on the losing side of the spectrum.‬ I doubted myself, but didn’t let it fully take over my reality. Because the second you say you can’t, you start to believe it. Little by little, it takes over you and all you’ll hear yourself talk about is all of the things you can’t do.‬ But guess what? so is can, and you can do anything you say you can.‬ Because you should. Because you can. Because you will. You keep grinding at it. You keep going. You don’t stop for anyone, not even yourself, and you refuse to let a negative remark or response deter you from your goals. Sure, maybe you didn’t accomplish something you set out to, but it doesn’t mean you failed. I had learned through life experiences that the best way to learn is to "fail." If you are able to use your defeat as a way to grow, you are not failing. You are developing a powerful mindset. You are striving. You are choosing to trust the process that needs failure in order to develop into success.‬

It's very easy to say I love you to someone. But living up to your words is one of the hardest. It's too easy to fall in love but consistency is a struggle. It's easy to give the hugs and kisses but what is difficult is truly accepting someone's whole self. You must be blessed if you have somebody who has been consistent since day one and accepts your IMPERFECTIONS with no buts and ifs.

This Is Why You REALLY Thought That He Liked You As Much As You Liked Him You thought he liked you, because he gave you every reason to feel that way. He touched you. He texted you. He told you that you were pretty. Maybe he even kissed you, made out with you, had sex with you. He didn’t tell you that he wasn’t looking for anything serious, because he knew you weren’t on the same page and didn’t want to break the illusion for you. He didn’t want to lose you by admitting that you wanted way more than he was willing to give you. He knew that the truth would ruin everything. That, as soon as you found out about his intentions, you would cut him out of his life. So he lied to you — by saying nothing and letting his actions speak for him. He strung you along with compliments and kisses. He kept flirting. He kept teasing. He kept giving you reasons to believe he wanted to date you, but he never actually said the words. He never said that he liked you, that he missed you, that he wanted to become your boyfriend. Why? So, when he decided to date someone else or randomly stopped answering your texts, he could claim that he had no idea that you had feelings for him (he did). That he didn’t realize he was leading you on (he did). That you were never actually his girlfriend and have no right to be angry with him (you do). He’s acting clueless to save his own ass. He knew exactly what he was doing from the start. He knew that his actions would end up hurting you, but he didn’t care. He wanted you around. So he put his needs before yours. That’s why you shouldn’t feel bad about falling for him. Don’t reprimand yourself for not seeing the signs earlier. For letting him string you along for weeks, months, years. For being blind to his truth. You’re not an idiot for believing he had feelings for you. It wasn’t your fault. It was his. He tricked you. He knew how you felt, so he knew how to manipulate you. He played the game and played it well. But you can’t let one shitty snapshot of love ruin your perspective on it. One day, you’ll find a guy that wears his heart on his sleeve. A guy that says what he means instead of turning his feelings into a guessing game. A guy that actually explains that he wants to take you on a date, not just that he wants to hang out, and admits that he loves your laugh and your lips, not just the shape of your body. That guy is out there. And you’ll find him. One day, you’ll find someone that holds your hand, looks you deep in the eyes, and admits that he wants to be your boyfriend. Your husband. Your forever. And then you’ll forget all about the boy that broke you apart in 2017.