black Heart

I got something I wanted and enjoyed the adrenaline rush for a while

Then the universe stepped right in and wa slow me are gonna do some drastic work to make sure you can’t pursue this a moment longer and makes the other party go into a forced period of healing and reflection .

His mother passed away .

A month ago I love yous are being ignored and forgotten

This person has so much other plate and so much outside attention I don’t know if I’ll ever shine light into his head again

But really in all essence I now know this is what I deserve and what he was meant for

I can’t be a partner . I can’t be a person someone depends on for anything. I am hurt and broken and a twisted person and just want to be loved so badly. That’s not fair to him . And def not fair to me.

The universe really did step in.

She was sick since 2001.

Truly weeks prior to her going into the hospital she was bringing things over and helping him out and he told her about me.

In every way I wanted to run off with this guy and be irresponsible, irrational and selfish