Human Disgrace

Good thing abt being back in switzerland: i can get codein on prescription YOOOO

I want to beat u up u child fucker. I want to see u bleed. Want to hear u scream.

I'm so useless! :D

Sure feels good to be the third wheel. And being a nuisance. At least i've got vodka.

Guesd i'll get drugged tomorrow and then throw away all this shit because when i'm high on codein im either sleeping 15 hours or get stuff done.

My spit looks like blood

Last 2 months were really bad. But I feel good now. Happy, a bit more energized, a bit more alive. Everything will be perfect some day. I just know it.

Yeah god fucking dammit. The person that was my best friend like 2 or 3 years ago only talks to me when she’s fucking down and needs something from me. Sorry that I dont want to put up with that bullshit anymore. If your life’s so shitty then do something. I cant fucking help you everytime you feel a little bit sad. I have my own problems and my own shit to do.

My body feels so numb lately. Uuuurgh.

I just found a valium. 5mg diazepam. Tbh im suprised that i even feel anything with this amount but... the chill is activated

Heyyyy i feel like nobody cares about me anyway!!!! God I wish I could get some Vodka rn.

So you turned yet another year older, huh? You get older and keep living. You got married some months ago. What did I do in those past 8 years? I started to get aggression problems. I started feeling isolated and angry. I started to drink, to take drugs, to drink even more. Is it because of you? I dont know. But there is one thing I know for sure - I'm gonna beat the shit outta you. Dont fucking dare to die before I get the revenge for my past self.

No beer left so more coffee. At least i feel great rn.

Skyler, stop ur deunk flirting. Skyler, shaddap...