rags of language are streaming like weathervanes!

read lolly willowes last week i had really high expectations and although i enjoyed the book it wasn't what i expected. i am also rereading an apprenticeship or the book of pleasures and for whatever reason this time round i am feeling entirely :-0 it's illuminating my world <3 when i have the patience to let it!!

next week they are going to take out two of my wisdom teeth :-/ feeling very fretful about it, i think i have a low pain tolerance. on the plus side perhaps i will be able to turn one of the teeth into an interesting pendant.

great to think “i don’t see it that way” because it means i see it in some other at least semi-distinct way 🐚

falling back in love with playing the harp <3 sensitive unwieldy resonant instrument of my dreams <333

i have had lots of energy and much to be excited about in recent months but i have been thinking a lot over the past couple of weeks about how from my body's perspective, excitement and stress are sort of one and the same .. both raise cortisol and adrenaline levels ..... heartbeat speeds up .... there's an inevitable physical comedown .. and so this sort of physically and emotionally heightened experience of the world is not very sustainable :-/ so as i embark on my mission to be less busy i am also going to try to generally calm down a bit. i love the feeling of wanting to rush and run because i can't wait to do something or see someone or because i am making space for many different experiences within my limited free waking hours ... but you know too much of a good thing etc. etc. !!!!

making a great effort to be less busy. tomorrow i go to a yoga class (a really gentle one) and meet a friend in the afternoon and those are my only plans. on sunday i meet a friend for coffee and the rest of the day is wide open. this weekend i'm looking forward to taking some time to make a delicious lunch, go for a long walk, read my book. go for a cycle maybe but nowhere in particular.