im not valid

happy easter (:

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i ate nothing, cuz yknow i’m cool like that, but i took the dog on a walk

cal: -40

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lunch

• two pieces of toast with cinnamon butter - 200 cal

• ginger sprite - 130 cal

weep whomp that’s all i ate

so here we go:

height: 5’0

current weight: 105.5

goal weight: 95

ultimate goal weight: 90

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last year i had severe anorexia, and i was so small and i loved it

now i’m ‘recovering’ and getting fat

i hate it

if i dont text you first, we won’t talk all day.

if we don’t talk all day, you don’t care

if you don’t care, it proves you don’t love me

if you don’t love me, i was right all along

if i was right all along, you lied to me

you promised you’d never lie to me.

my girlfriend broke up with me on my birthday.

i fell in love with someone, we never dated because they were dating someone else.. but they took my virginity

tried to have a new relationship, ended horribly as of three minutes ago.

corona has me more depressed then ever.

if i was just mute.. none of my problems would exist.

i’d be happy, because it’s my mouth that makes me get into these situations, my words that make others hate me... so if i said nothing... i’d finally be happy..

i’m jealous of those people who have someone that care, like a friend or a family member