When Life Gives You Lemons
Neighbor!Frank Castle x Sweet!Baker!Reader
Summary: Your neighbor, Frank Castle, helped you with one thing, one time⌠and now youâre attached. Heâs attached. But are either of you going to admit it?Â
Warnings: endearingly awkward reader and Frank, yearning, avoidant!Frank, grumpy x sunshine dynamics (my fave), hurt no comfort, frankâs coming out of retirement & transitioning back to being The Punisher | w/c: ~3400 | requested by anon! | a/n: not sure how I feel about this one lol? feels like it needs part II or somethin idk im open to suggestions.
Youâve heard the fastest way to a manâs heart is food. You just didnât know itâs true.Â
This needs to⌠perfect.Â
Cracking eggs over the side of the stainless steel mixing bowl, the yolks plop down one at a time into the melted butter.Â
A dusting of flour leaves the shape of your own handprint on your pajamas, but itâs collateral.Â
This needs to be perfect. Youâre trying to make it perfect. For Frank. He deserves that, your effort.Â
The scent of warm vanilla and fresh, tangy lemon swirls around the kitchen, carried from the cracked window across the room.Â
This has to be better than the cookies you gave him.Â
And the double dark chocolate chip brownies you happened to make too many of.Â
You zest a lemon rind over the grater, fine shreds flaking like microscopic confetti.Â
And the chocolate chip muffins, after realizing how he loved chocolate and skipped breakfast.Â
And the raspberry scones, testing his palate last week.Â
This⌠this one needs to be exactly like Frank.Â
Itâs been precisely one monthâalmost to the minuteâthat your neighbor, Frank Castle, saved your life by helping you fix your dishwasher.Â
And since then⌠youâve kinda, sorta, no-labels made him your Frank. Your friend. Your bestie. Your grocery-store companion. Which, to be fair, you ramble. Frank shops. Your late night insomnia cure via texting (even though heâs really bad at it). Your every other day phone call to update him on things of zero importance (the birds at the park, the meat at the deli, that girl from work you hate do not like), but he lets you talk, never hangs up, never rushes. He listens, grunts once and awhile to sound his attention...
Yeah⌠your Frank. Frankie.Â
And your thanks, your gift, your sweet treat⌠Well, you want it to be like Frank. Sour, sweet. Mostly tart, undertones of sugar. Handsomeâ oh god, no. No, stop. Stop, brain. So fucking ruggedly handsomeâ you literally squeal at yourself. Itâs shun not delight, ripping your head back-and-forth to shake the pesky thoughts from your head.Â
Hands caked in lemony batter, hair breaking free from the clip from your hours long, elbow-deep prep, you flick a glance over your shoulder at the oven. Temperature climbing, preheating to 350 degrees. Then to the microwave. 8:17a.m.Â
Okay. Perfect. The lemon loaf should be done by eleven, making the hour acceptable to go pester thank stare at your neighbor for his generosity bearded good looks.Â
Attention back the stand mixer, a soft whir of the paddle filling the early morning placidity of your apartment, you finally take a second to breathe. Hands draped over the top of it, you sag, head bowing.Â
Itâs just dessert. A little thank you. Itâs not a big deal, so why are you making it one?Â
âGod, be cool for once in your life. Just calm the fuck down. Iâm not even sure he likes us. I think itâs just⌠tolerating,â you mumble to yourself.Â
Frank's... nice⌠in his own, gruff, Iâd-really-rather-not-be-having-this-conversation type of way. He's not told you directly to fuck off yet. Still nicer than all the other tenants in the complex.
Neighbors upstairs slept all day, romped all night. Kitty-corner to you, you were lucky enough to know the next Eminem. Wow. Some copy-cat, no-name SoundCloud rapper that literally rewrote Eminemâs songs with his own lyrics and swore heâd never heard of the guy. Around you, the smell of pot day and night. Domestic clashes in neighboring apartments followed by the thunder of police. It isnât a pretty (or safe) side of town⌠but itâs all you can afford. Youâre saving up for something better. Hopefully a small studio unit above a bakery. Your bakery. It just takes time. And this dream? Itâs worth the wait.Â
The only quiet apartment besides yours, though�
Thatâs probably how he heard you fighting with the dishwasher in the first place.Â
Okay. Crying over the dishwasher.Â
Water floods the kitchen, soap suds on the rise up to your ankles. âNo, no, no! Oh please! Please no!â You yellâpleadâwith the machine. That only seems to anger it. It reacts violently. The unit quakes. Steam billows from the seams. Yanking at your own hair, you make a sound of guttural devastation.
It must sound like you're in here pleading for your life, not a kitchen appliance.Â
Then comes the knock at your door. Three hard thumps. Hard enough to be heard, urgent enough to startle you from your flash-flood issue.Â
âY-yeah?â You ask with knitted brows, ripping open a drawer to throw every single hand towel you own onto the ground. âWho is it?âÂ
Please, god, not the landlord seeing the mess. Itâll come straight out of your pocket andâ
âYou, uh... You alright in there?â Gravel muffled by the door. A rough baritone that shoots right through you, retrieving your full attention at the closed door.Â
âUhhhmm⌠define alright?â You answer, scrubbing a towel over the floor with your foot.
âUh. Not in trouble?âÂ
You blink a glance from the door four feet away. To the dishwasher. To your water-logged socks as it regurgitates more detergent.Â
You sigh, rubbing a hand over your forehead. ââŚI think this could be defined as trouble.âÂ
âYeah? Alright. Open the door,â a harsher demand. Not unkind, just⌠weird? Like thereâs a countdown youâre not aware of. Timeâs of the essence, but for what? Itâs trouble, not an emergency.
âWhy the hell would I open the door?â You snort out, mainly to yourself, looking around at the imaginary cameras in your apartment like get a load of this guy. âYouâre a stranger.âÂ
âKnow what? Youâre right.â A snark to his tone like heâd thought about this, thought better of it, and showed up at your doorstep anyway. Now here you are, urging him to leave. âGood luck.âÂ
The heavy thunk of boots retreating. As he leaves, you scurry over.Â
Squish squish squish. Socks flopping wet and heavy as you pad for the door, looking through the peephole.Â
Itâs him, you think, perk up, the hot caveman neighbor.Â
The smallest, hushed gasp parts your mouth, your hands flying to stifle the sound as you look at him through the fish-eye lens. Shoulders broader than you remember in passing. Black tee stretched tight across his back. A long mop of curls at his neck. Bushy beard hiding a face of bones reshaped from too many breaks.Â
Frankâs a man who looks like lifeâs been unkind to him. Itâs usually the case for people that look as worn as he does.Â
Youâre not the type of person to close your door when someone asks in, offers to help. Maybe⌠opening the door, letting him help⌠maybe thatâll do him some good.Â
Just as he goes to close himself in his apartment⌠thereâs two creaking hinges.Â
Through the space youâve made to fit your body in the frame, you catch his double-take in the last two inches of his door shutting.Â
His hand stalls on the knob. His boots scuff to a stop. He looks at youâa flicker of something softly surprised in those dark, wounded dog eyes that cling to you a second too longâand your heart breaks.Â
Thereâs one word to describe how he looks.Â
Not lonely. Not necessarily.Â
ââŚHi,â you say, easing the door open a little more.Â
Reflecting you, Frankâs door opens⌠just a little more. ââŚYou alright?â he asks in a voice that sounds like it hasnât been used in weeks, eyes flicking over your shoulder to gauge.Â
âIâve been better, been betterâŚâ you mumble along, too busy reading the square tension in his shoulders, the discipline bulk of the man hidden in street clothes to remember how you got into this situation. âHow are you?âÂ
His face scrunches a bit. Probably wondering why in the hell youâre asking that after he just overheard you screaming no. âUh. Said you got trouble, huh? What kinda trouble?âÂ
âI mean! A soapy one?â Oh, god. His brows raise. Your faceâs beet red. He doesnât know what the fuck youâre talking about. Why would he? You don't even know.
âItâs my dishwasher,â you finally spit out with a nervous laugh. âItâs, uh, doing somethingâŚâ the random gesticulation of your hands, ânot normal⌠As you can see.â And his eyes pan to your saturated feet. âItâs throwing up. Everywhere. Itâs a mess, seriously. I donât think anyoneâs gonna be to fix it. Itâs gonna cost me out the ass, the landlordâs a dick. I mean, you know how he isââ
âYeah, yeah, alright,â his hand goes up to halt your rant. âDishwasher throwinâ up. Got it. Lemme get my tools, yeah? Jusâ⌠holâ on. Stop... all that.âÂ
âYeah,â through a sigh unknotting your shoulders. âOkay. Yeah, thank you. Thank you so much.âÂ
âAinât done anythinâ. Might still cost you out the ass,â Frank grumbles as he walks off, disappearing into his apartment to collect his toolbox.Â
Ten minutes later, thereâs a caveman in your monsoon-zone kitchen, and youâre hovering nine inches from where he kneels on the swamped ground.Â
âSo⌠what do you think it is?â you ask, words catching a pitch in your throat. God. Embarrassing. You clear your throat, arms sinking around yourself to maintain some level of normality.Â
Set up beside the opened washer door, toolbox beside his knees, Frank grunts as he tugs out the rubber door gasket. âDunno.âÂ
âThink itâll be an easy fix?âÂ
âDunno.â Sharp, thinned patience.
âWhy would it be working perfectly fine yesterday and today itâs going haywire?â
âDoll,â a polite edge to ask you to stop asking questions as he rises to wash the liner in the sink. âBeen ten minutes. Ainât figured anythinâ out from âa second ago. Youâll know when I know. âKay?â
As Frank inspects the appliance, his clothes drenched and adhering to his chiseled body like a second skin of unintentional sin, you make more small talk.Â
Which, as it turns out, heâs not very good at.Â
Youâre not good at awkward silences.Â
Well, for him itâs comfortable silence. For you, you feel the need to fill it. Because thereâs a difference between being alone and being lonely.Â
He gets yours. He even repeats it, uses it often, as though he enjoys the taste. Or maybe he hasnât said anyoneâs name in so long heâs practicing with yours.Â
Frank does construction sometimes. Odd jobs, he'd said with a double meaning. Figures, you think, heâs built for it.Â
You relay your job, too. Where itâs at, how long youâve been there. Frank lets you talk. Doesnât seem to mind as long as youâre not stacking questions on him.Â
By the time Frankâs on his back under the sinkâshirt riding up to show a sliver of muscle, a trail of hair going to his beltâyouâre adequately flush.Â
You busy yourself with anything. Restacking the same pile of mail. Wiping the countertop. Adjusting your stand mixer in the far corner of the counter. Anything to keep your eyes where they belong.Â
âGot it,â he finally calls, echoing through the pipes under the cabinets.Â
You straighten, turning to look at him now. âWait, really? You do? What is it?âÂ
Groaning, Frank pulls himself out. Planted on his ass in the overflow on the floor, knees bent up, Frank holds out something⌠concerningly brown with green flecks.Â
âWhat theâŚ?â You lean in closer, head tilted.Â
âHave chicken recently?â he asks, turning the discolored nugget between index and middle fingers.Â
âNot recently⌠maybe two weeks ago?âÂ
âMm. Two week old chickenâs what did it. Clogged the drain pipe. Scrape your plate off next time, hm?âÂ
âEw,â nose crinkled, you step back as he shifts up. âSo it should be good now? No more flooding?âÂ
âShould be. Sâlong âs you clean the shit off your plates.â He tosses the molded chicken chunk into the trash. Heâs taller up close. Much taller. Fills out the space in your kitchen to the point it shrinks.
âThanks,â you say again, able to fully mean it now. Humbled to quietness by the food in your drain that turned into a full-blown tsunami. âReally⌠Thank you. You⌠didnât have to do that. It was really nice of you and it saved me a lot of trouble.â Pausing, you offer him a little smile. âYou saved me a lot of trouble.âÂ
âAinât nothinâ,â he dismisses, eyes downcast after lingering on the sheepish curl of your lips. âKnock âf you need somethinâ next time. Donâ gotta go on screaminâ like that.âÂ
âYes, sir,â you mumble agreement, throwing down another bath towel from collection on the counter.Â
Toolbox in hand, Frank takes a step for the door. Head down, eyes ahead. Has every intention of leaving without a goodbye. Leaving without a word, for that matter.Â
âHey, wait,â you call, your foot stuttering where you stopped yourself from full on lunging. âYou donât⌠you donât have to go. Right away, I mean. You can stay. For a minute. Right? Let me make you a sandwich or something? I have leftover pot roast in the fridge, if youâre interested. As a thanks.âÂ
âNah,â Frank shakes his head, feet carrying him to the door.Â
Last ditch effort, you make one final offer: ââŚCoffee and cookies? I made homemade chocolate chip ones yesterday. Iâm happy to send you back with some.âÂ
Pulled from your thoughts when the standmixer slows, whining low protest as the batter thickens, you startle back to reality.Â
The clock reads 8:22a.m. The ovenâs up to temp. Â
You take a shot of Diet Coke, wipe the sweat off your forehead with the back of your hand, and slam the can back down.
The batter finds the loaf pan. A sugary drizzle of pastel yellow trickling out, blueberries plopping. A beautiful contrast in sight and smell, but most importantly, taste.Â
Bake the loaf. Shower. Clean yourself up. Make the powdered sugar drizzle and garnish.
The hard part? Slowing your heart before knocking on Frank Castleâs door.Â
Frankâs a sweets guy. Ainât vocal âbout it. Donât go outta his way to get âem. When he does have âem, though? Christ⌠swears anything with sugarâs got healinâ properties.Â
But when Frank answers the door just after eleven and youâre thereâ
Hell, maybe you got healinâ properties too.Â
Your face shifts in real time. Casual expectancy to confusion, giving way to joyful recognition.Â
Frank clocks you in a blink. Cants his head. Hair done nice. Cute little number on. Bright like the sunâs been, warm like the weather. And in both âa your hands⌠a decorative plate. On it? A goddamn masterpiece.Â
His mouth opens, but you beat him. Mutual surprise, different reasons.Â
âYou⌠wow!â the words stumble out of you, caught off guard. âYou⌠shaved. Aaaand⌠got a haircut.â Your eyes soften as they roam Frank. Little smile on your face, color on your cheeks thatâs got him looking at the ceiling. âOh my god, I hardly recognized you. Okay. Okay. Iâm taking this all in⌠big shock here.â
âHeh⌠yeahâŚâ scratching the buzzed hairs on the nape of his neck, words flat. âSâlike a new neighbor⌠âr somethinâ, huh?âÂ
Youâre bad at flirting.Â
ââŚYou look good, Frank.â
Frank dismisses with a halfhearted tut, fingers binding tighter after the doorknob. Keep his cool. Keep his distance. Doorâs open fâyou right now, but heâll close it. Swear to god. The doorâs gotta close.
In his silence, you find some nerve. Eyes down the hall, you think itâs safe to say: âYou look like⌠itâs a weight off you. I⌠like it. I like being able to see more of your face.â
Seeinâ right through him. As always. Frank doesnât bother with an answer. Answersâre dangerous. Means this shit keeps goinâ, like he ainât already starvinâ fâyou these last thirty days.
Frank just tips his chin a bit. Eyes the plate you carry in question. "This, uh⌠this ainât the regular stuff, huh? Gettinâ all Martha Stewart on me, are ya?â Â
ââŚMinus the serving time in federal prison for fraud.â
Frank huffs. Closest to amused he gets.
You present it with quiet pride. The kind that comes with judgement of givinâ someone your best, your all. The glazed lemon blueberry loaf. Your voice quiets under the weight of the admission, âThis is for... youâŚâÂ
The fuck? Why him? Frank shifts in place, brows cinched down, mouth left open âcause whatâs he supposed to say? Opts for a joke, brush it off. âTryna tell me I need tâgain weight, huh? That what this is?âÂ
Youâre not off the hook. You huff a thin laugh, eyes batting down. âNo, thatâs not what this is⌠Aside from the fact if I donât do something with my hands, I fear I might explodeâŚâ you draw in a steeling breath. ââŚI wanted to⌠do this- make this⌠for⌠you. I know how much you liked the cookies, so⌠thought Iâd try something else. Something a little more intricate, you know? Requires more thought, effort.âÂ
Someone tryinâ. Fâhim. His insides evaporate. Go mushy. You got that effect on him. âUh⌠sure. Yeah. Yeah, alright. Fâyou say soâŚâÂ
You push the plate at his chest.Â
Frank blinks down at it. Feels⌠wrong, takinâ it. Fragile china. Gold-gilded edges. Dainty watercolor flowers circlin' the rim. Loaf cake decorated to the nines. White glaze drizzled over it. Thin slices of lemon and bundles of blueberries on the top, lookinâ picture perfect. And here you are, givinâ it to a guy like him.Â
Frank takes the plate. Uses both hands. Ignores the red-hot spark when his big, rough fingers graze yours in the exchange. Cannotâwill notâdrop it.Â
ââŚHow long this take you?â Frank asks without meeting your eyes, his thumb grazing the embossed print.Â
âNot long,â you lie, smile falling. âWhatâs wrong? Donât you like lemon?âÂ
âNah, nah,â immediate, placating. âLove lemon. Yeah. Christ, proâlly too much.âÂ
Silence. Tense âcause thereâs an expectation to it, yeah. You expectinâ more from him. Him not lettinâ that happen âcause thatâs how this festers into a bigger fuck all Frank never shoulda nosed in.
Youâve learned how to look into Frankâs silences instead of cover them up. Frank knows that, too. Hates it a little. How you look in now instead of away.Â
Hates he cut his hair âcause itâs grocery day tomorrow. Hates he shaved âcause you mentioned two weeks ago you wondered what his full face looked like. Hates he doesnât know what the fuck heâs doinâ, lettinâ a pretty thing like you get close, make him part of your life, and you his.Â
He needs to stop this. Right here. Right goddamn now. Rip the bandaid off. Heâs done worse. Hurtinâ youâd be temporary. Youâd get over it. Move on. Find someone good fâyou. Clean. Some suit-ân-tie, nine-to-five to bake for. Some asshole that deserves it. Frank tries, cominâ out all rough-edged and full of regret.
âLook, sweetheart, we gottaââ
âOofââ Frank grunts, staggers a step back with the plate held outta harm's way. Held outta your way.
In a rush of limbs and your weight, you fling yourself at Frank. Launch into him like you got to before you lose the nerve.Â
Your arms wind around his neck, your body fit against his. And you just⌠cling. Not initiatinâ nothinâ, just⌠hugginâ on him like you need someone to do this to you. Â
Frank⌠stands there. Both arms stiff, unreciprocated in the blindsiding affection. Feels the air get knocked outta his lungs, body malfunctioninâ âcause it ainât felt somethinâ like thisâsomethinâ warmâsince 2015. Since his kids, Mariaâ
His brain shorts out. Disconnects from his body. Leaves him shakinâ, involuntary response.Â
Itâs pent up. How you hug him. Kinda hugs he got when he came home from overseas, first time seeinâ his wife and kids in months, a year.Â
His eyes zigzag over your shoulder, breath stalling in his chest.Â
You donât seem to notice. Maybe you donât care. Fuck if he knows. You press your face into the crook of his neck and hold. He lets you. Lets you take what you want, need, what the fuck ever. Itâs yours. Heâsâ
âI donât know how to say thanks very well,â you whisper, eyes screwed shut as you hang on a little longer. âDoing things is⌠easier. So⌠sorry. Just trying to say⌠thank you, Frank. For everything. Itâs been a lot less lonely with you around. You donât know what yo- it means to me.âÂ
Sunshine of his lifeâs in his arms (tryna be, anyway), apologizinâ like sheâs the one thatâs broken. Meanwhile heâs shortinâ out over a goddamn pound cake.Â
You pull back before Frank can put his arms around you. You slink off. Drift back. Drop eye contact.Â
âAaaand that was weird, wasnât it?â you whisper, shame not allowinâ your voice any higher.Â
âNah,â Frank says, nose scrunched as he gives little shakes of his head. âAll good.âÂ
âYouâre not a hugger, are you?â A glance up from your lashes, smile unsure. Pained.Â
Frank meets your look head-on. Blunt in his honesty, an apology in the words, dark eyes softened like butter. âAinât sure what the hell I am, sweetheart.âÂ
But he feels it. Your absence. Body warm where yours was. Tryinâ desperately to memorize how you felt, why you said you did it, how he felt while he had you.Â
In the second lapse of silence, fleetinâ looks, a foot carries you back.Â
You're leavinâ. Leavinâ this asshole here with a cake thing you spent too much goddamn time on fâFrank to tell you to scram. He fuckinâ canât. Not like this. Not after that. Canât say shit, throat closed around his bullshit excuses, jaw buckled down so hard his teeth ache.
âOkay, wellâŚâ you drift, every bit of excitement you had out the door now. Gone. âCause of him. Fuck. âIâve gotta go. Got some errands to run. Enjoy the loaf, okay? I hope itâs good.âÂ
âSâgonna be good,â Frank pushes out too quick, too terse, pissed at his own ineptitude. He stands in the goddamn doorway like a fuckinâ idiot while you walk away, not even knowinâ his heartâs rippinâ at the goddamn seams every step you take.
You hum a chuckle, hand on the stairwell exit bar. âOnly one way to find out, right?âÂ
You stop at the sound of his voice, shoe scuff echoinâ in the hall. You peer back, a spark of that goddamn hope lightinâ your face back up. âYeah?â Anticipative lift to your brows, spark renewed in your eyes.
ââŚBe careful,â he gruffs, eyes flitting anywhere but you. Canâtâwonâtâsee that fuckinâ look in your eyes like youâre hopinâ he asks you fâmore. âAlright?â He nods at the door. The outside world. Where youâre goinâ and he ainât. âOut there. Errands.â
One last little smile. Hurt in the flimsy curve of your mouth. âYeah⌠sure. Okay. Always... Bye, Frankie.âÂ
No bye from Frank. Just another curt nod, watchinâ you walk away, his knuckles white around the plate.Â
Shadows rotate over the walls âtil thereâs no sun left.
Frank hasnât moved. Barely blinked. Eyes glassy and distant, honed in on the lemon blueberry loaf for guidance on what the fuck to do next.
Pent up at the kitchen counter on a barstool. One hand wrapped around his fist, pressed against his mouth. Thinks if he moves it, gives himself room to speak, heâll do something he canât take back. Yell. Throw shit. Walk straight to your door.
You brought the cake at eleven.
Digital numbers on the stove say eleven again.
Twelve hours later. All heâs done is sit.
He could make you hate him.
Break the plate, break your heart.
What heâll do is leave it.
Find a way to forget about it.
Let trouble clock a few cheap shots to his head.
Forget the fuckinâ cake. Forget the grocery run tomorrow.
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