Iâm obsessed with the ambiguity in what Shane says to Yuna when they talk outside. Like the words he chooses are very specific but they encompass SO MUCH. âI tried really hard but I just canât help it and Iâm sorryâ is simply the most insane and heartbreaking line ever Iâm so not normal about this..
âI tried really hard but I just canât help itâ I tried to not be gay. I tried for it to be women (even with the perfect woman). I really really tried for it to not be Ilya. I tried for it to be anyone else. I tried for it to be no one at all. I tried for it to not matter. I tried to just focus on what was supposed to matter. I tried to make hockey the only thing that mattered. I tried to keep this thing separate. I tried to not have it mess anything up. I tried to put the pieces back together. I tried to not break anything in the first place.
âAnd Iâm sorry.â Iâm sorry I didnât tell you. Iâm sorry I had this thing to tell you. Iâm sorry I couldnât fix it. Iâm sorry it had to be this way. Iâm sorry it got to this point. Iâm sorry I couldnât not let it get to this point. Iâm sorry you found out this way. Iâm sorry you had to find out at all. Iâm sorry Iâm not who you thought I was. Iâm sorry I canât be who you wanted me to be. Iâm sorry Iâm not who I wanted to be. Iâm sorry this is all so messed up. Iâm sorry Iâm so messed up. Iâm sorry I couldnât fix it. Iâm sorry my trying wasnât enough.
Like are you FUCKING KIDDING ME???? Anyways I donât care. Whatever Jacob Tierney I literally donât care leave me aloneâŚ..














