HOUSE CAVITY

I've been thinking a lot about Pillion which I saw recently and I always go to Tumblr for thoughts and analysis, but I feel like I don't contribute much these days, so here's me adding my bit which I told my friends in theater and was apparently so entertaining that a stranger stayed behind to listen and thanked me for saying so, anyway: Something I really liked was the subtle ways that the movie highlighted Ray's fear of intimacy. At first it can be easily mistaken as him assuring his dominant position over Colin, but there's a big pivot during the camping trip. When the two of them have sex, there's crazy power play antics going on as Colin acts bratty and Ray tries to put him in his place, but it really comes to a head when they start having sex. The moment Colin acts, pushing into Ray, showing his desire to fuck, Ray waffles for a second before he tries to be more domineering. When Colin responds positively to that and tries to meet him instead of fawning back into a submissive state, Ray again struggles, but pushes even harder. This incredibly telegraphs how later after when Colin kisses him and we see that moment of just sheer terror on Ray's face. He not only wasn't expecting that sort of action from Colin (one where he leads), but he's horrified by how he reacted to it. He wanted it. He pushes for deeper kiss and more than one and the realization that he could be put in submission, both emotionally and physically since Colin is on top, is his worst case scenario. He is obsessed with the power dynamic, obvious as he wants to be a 24/7 dom, but also it protects him. He wants to keep distance, this isn't a relationship, "that's not what this is," and sensing that the only way he can truly satisfy Colin, his bottom, is by giving into that emotion... he high tails it out of there.