damaged goods

Fuck vulnerability.

The person who seems to be most affected by me being in rehab is the person I last expected. My brother. Apparently he said he hated Christmas this year, when he came to visit he was so visibly upset I didn't even know what to say. His girlfriend got me a gift (a journal) and tbh at first I thought she was doing it just to be nice, but I later realized other than Mike I was the only one she gave a present to. She wanted to show Mike she cared about me too, maybe to be comforting. He got me a stuffed animal to cuddle with at night for Xmas which was honestly the best gift I got from anyone. The fact that he cares so much about his big sister makes me want to cry oh my god I never knew how much he cared. Family matters.

To the creepy guido rich boy hitting on me: Saying I would make a good girlfriend after I help you with a task isn't flattering, it just proves you base a woman's worth on how useful she is to you. So fuck off.

Yes I am still in rehab. Yes I am allowed to go out for a few hours as long as I don't visit anywhere that serves alcohol. No nobody cares about this oh well I'm posting it anyhow.

when you start liking someone: ah fuck