River

to white folks, this is a time for you to celebrate as well, but things are far from over. reach out to your poc and trans friends, particularly your black and trans friends, and check on them and make sure they feel safe. DO NOT STOP DONATING TO PAYPALS AND GOFUNDMES. CONTINUE SHARING RESOURCES AND INFORMATION. CONTINUE PARTICIPATING IN COMMUNITY AID. electing biden did not simultaneously wipe out the issues many marginalized communities are facing. YOUR PART IN THIS IS NOT OVER BECAUSE THIS FIGHT IS NOT OVER. continue spreading

to succinctly sum up the energy we need to cultivate going forward:

I have an important thing to announce

Scroll past and i’ll lose every single bit of respect I ever had/would have for you, and say goodbye to possibly ever talking to me. This is the blog I have with most followers and I know people see my posts a lot here. Someone very important to me is thinking about killing themselves (and has been for quite some time), they’re a great friend of mine, I won’t be naming them. They were questioning if they should have a One Note One Day post so I offered to make one, and here it is. They’re going through a really hard time and life really isn’t doing it for them, but I don’t want them to go, I care for them a lot. This is really important. 

Tagging blogs that I think will hopefully reblog and spread this. Please, I don’t want them to go, and other friends of theirs don’t want them to either.

a small sammy drabble.

[ might add more later, idk- mostly just a lil insight piece abt miss sam <3 ]

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Growing up, Sammy was taught to be quiet.

It wasn't inherent-- not like the generic "ladies should be seen and not heard" that was thrust down the throat of every girl she ever knew whether they knew it or not. It was of the more subtle kind; the kind that was perhaps more self-taught than Sammy would like to admit.

She also grew up praised for being an old soul, mature beyond her years. The quiet could be called a side-effect of that. With maturity came quiet, Sammy learned; the aversion to anything and everything that could be even somewhat coined as immature, because somewhere along the line acting her own age had become the most frightful thing in the world.

There were no petty screaming matches. No "i hate you"s yelled emptily at dad or mom in times of high tension. No slammed doors. Just patient, careful explanations, many spoken through tears as Sammy tried her best not to seem young.

Sammy is "naturally quiet"— but it's a wonder how much of that is her true nature, introverted and thoughtful and anxious, and how much of it is still leftover from years of instilled silence.

She is quiet still. Never slams doors, never yells, never fights, no fire when she angers, only tears.

But sometimes-- sometimes Sammy wants to be loud.

Sometimes she feels like the world is moving too slow- or maybe she is moving too fast. There's too much inside of her, too much sharp, too much noise, and she feels like she's humming. She wonders if it, too, is leftovers from years without.

It isn't her normal fidgeting; she's washing the dishes and she's moving a plate to the drying rack and moves her hand a little too fast and suddenly her whole body aches to just throw it across the room, watch, hear, feel it shatter against the wall. She wants to tear something. She wants to pull her hair out. She wants to slam a door. She wants to slam a thousand doors, until her hands are raw and bleeding and her ears are ringing and she's trembling head to toe from all the noise.

Even then, she isn't sure it would be enough.

Sammy hates it. She hates the feeling of being so overwhelmed inside, of craving loud like it's some sick drug.

After she told the members about it they started offering themselves as help (and Jihyun said he understood, too; said he feels it, too). Whenever she feels like that, they let her hold onto them and just squeeze them until they break.

1. We would miss you. 2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again… 19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don’t even know you and I love you. 57. I don’t even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. You’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you’re proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate 94. Sherlock season three. 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen

IF that isn’t enough:

1Life: 91-78930-78930 (24X7) [email protected]

Aasra: 91-22-27546669 (24X7) [email protected]

Vandrevala Foundation: 1860-266-2345 / 1800-233-3330 (24X7) [email protected]

SUMAITRI: 91-11-23389090 (Mon-Fri 2pm to 10pm and Sat-Sun 10 am to 10pm) [email protected]

Sneha India: 91-44-2464 0050 / 91-44-2464 0060 (24X7) [email protected]

1. tomorrow w the election results, realize that many votes were mailed in and will be counted until the end of november (x). tomorrow will not have a definitive winner. it’ll be a projection. it seems that a lot of mail in ballots are democratic party votes, so keep your head up unless there’s some kind of massive landslide.

2. voter intimidation is real and i would expect it to be pretty bad at the polls tomorrow. if you experience or witness voter intimidation, please call 1-866-our-vote (1-866-687-8683) to report it. this number calls the national voter protection hotline and they can send federal investigators as well as local law enforcement to help. it’s a good practice to record any voter intimidation that you see at the polls and write your account and report it to local law enforcement, the ACLU, local news, etc. save this evidence in a place that you will not lose it and cc yourself on any emails you send to ensure you do not lose it too.

2a. if possible, vote with a friend or family member.

3. if you are uncertain about your voter status, have not gotten a response that your mail-in ballot has been processed, or if you are booted from the polling line for xyz reasons, please make sure you grab a provisional ballot. idaho, minnesota, and new hampshire unfortunately do not do provisional ballots, but all other 47 states do. as per the linked website, it is a federal law in these states to give voters provisional ballots. quote, “If an individual declares that such individual is a registered voter in the jurisdiction in which the individual desires to vote and that the individual is eligible to vote in an election for Federal office, but the name of the individual does not appear on the official list of eligible voters for the polling place or an election official asserts that the individual is not eligible to vote, such individual shall be permitted to cast a provisional ballot….” if your state gives them and you cannot vote regularly, get one of these!

4. if you live in a large city and expect lines, make sure you dress for the weather and bring a snack or two!

5. some states will allow you to declare an emergency ballot if you are sick on election day. if you’re feeling under the weather, check if your state will allow you to have one.

6. here are the tips the CDC has for voting during the pandemic so that you can protect yourself at the polls.

7. TIME magazine has a really great q&a article for other questions you may have tomorrow!

8. please take care of yourself. avoid social media and the news if you need too. hang out with people in your bubble and try to do something to distract yourself if you’re worried about the results!

title. the birthday live. 2020

summary. vinny does a vlive for his birthday!

main characters. vincent kim

mentions. addy of allure ( @allurexox ), kiersey of aid, aid in general ( @aidbh , @vividlabel )

warnings. none~!

notes. the bday poster is here!

“Hello.” Vinny smiles waving at the camera, “I’m at my manager's house. Because I have to- my ankle is broken and I can’t be trusted to walk around my apartment.” he says, learning forward slightly, reading the vlive comments.

“Happy birthday” he reads, “thank you! I’m twenty four. Isn’t that crazy?”

Vinny goes slightly off screen before coming back and showing guitar to the vlive, “my step dad got me this.” he starts, “my last one broke when I moved into my apartment in January but now I have a new one!” he smiles.

“What have you done for your birthday this year? What’s your favorite birthday so far?” he reads, “I haven’t done really anything because of the pandemic but my mom and step dad and my siblings called me earlier! It’s been good so far!” he smiles, “my favorite birthday? The year I got a drum set! I think I was ten.”

“What's your favorite song that you've created so far?” he reads, “Hm, I don’t know. I really like all my songs but I think Last Autumn! It was my first collaboration with any of aid!” he nods, “Or Mayday! That was my first collab with any of Allure! I had a ton of fun making both songs. Kiersey and Addy are really nice.”

“Would you bitch slap Donald Trump for free or do I have to pay? I’m sorry? I don’t think I can answer that.” he laughs nervously, “I think I’d get in trouble.” he added, “Oh my goodness, so many weird questions just came in,” he laughs.

“What’s your favorite color of the alphabet? Yes or no? What? That’s such a weird question. Would I eat a couch for 50 mil? Oh my gosh.” he laughs, “No, I’d do it for 500 million though.”

“Who is the person that you would turn to and trust the most? Um, I think my step dad. We’ve gotten pretty close lately.”

“You guys ask so many weird questions! I like it!” he smiles, “What made you decide to become an idol? Any inspirations?” he reads, “What made me want to be an idol?” he repated, “Well, it was a lot of things but I guess the main reason was I saw SHINee preform and I was like ‘hey, that seems fun,’ and I auditioned for Cube like three years later.”

Vinny spent the better half of an hour answering the the questions before having to end the live.