it’s been a while since i posted on here - over a year - so i just wanted to give you a little update on what’s going on with me. ignore the fact that I’ve been gone a year and still can’t write grammatically correct
i’ll start off with the reason why i left so abruptly: i had a really bad falling out with one of my ex-friends i met on here and it just left me a wreck for the next few months after that. i was blocked on pretty much every social media platform out of thin air on my end and trying to figure things out was useless. everyday i woke up hoping to get a response back like “hey sorry it was all a massive prank!” but it’s been over a year so i think the jig was up a long time ago. i couldn’t go on here anymore because it just hurt seeing them post and in my messages, it just felt awful to be on here. that happened around last may and i spent my entire summer feeling sorry for myself, thinking i was a massive mistake and hoping the next day would be a lot better. i was always stressed out because of it and it racked my brain that i was a bad person.
over time, i got over it. it wasn’t easy that’s for sure, but it used to make my heart sting at the thought of it, but now i feel nothing.
i finished up my last year of community college last fall by starting off with a class about graphic novels - reading, writing, and discussing them. the most interesting ones we read were Persepolis by Marjane Satrapi and Skim by Mariko Tamaki. in that class i fell for a straight guy (lol).
i graduated and got my AA there. i transferred and currently attend a university within my state that rivals a certain purple school..
i did a marathon - TWICE. both were in may; the first time was just to get over that entire mess and to get me out of the house. and it helped! 2 hours of just moving around with a bunch of people trying their hardest was fun and helped out a lot.
I SAW LORDE LIVE… the entirety of this blog was just me praising Pure Heroine and gushing about how much i love her. as much of you know i was eagerly waiting her next album, keeping track of her every move since then; reading tweets, liking every post on instagram, overall excited for her next move. then Melodrama came out and it was a whirlwind. to keep my review short, it was the perfect album at a perfect time. i fell in love with it and at one point, even attached that person to Writer in the Dark since it was SUCH a powerful song to me.
i saw her live in Seattle this past March - on the 1 year anniversary of Liability - and it was insane.. seeing her perform all my favorite songs live (buzzcut and supercut um hello) was so incredible. Green Light was such a strong energy about letting go and the fact that i dance to it live with my best friend was amazing. i love Lorde so much, i truly am a Lorde stan
just this past august i hung out with my tumblr mutuals & friends John @froakie and Stephen @klinklang. i haven’t seen John since 2016 but also documented it on here and i love that boy! i’ve known him since 2013 through me following him for the froakie url (hehe) and we became mutuals and here we are five years later meeting again… it’s a crazy thought.
the same thing goes for Stephen - i met him on here in like 2014 and even challenged him to a smash battle since smash 4 was coming out that year. well i saw him back in March for the first time a few days after the Lorde concert and he’s such a sweet guy. i love him to the moon and back. then this past august we went to PAX West and played Smash Ultimate together (which is super fun! love me some smash). a mind breaking thought is that we played Smash Ultimate together - the newest smash game that hasn’t even officially released - meaning we DID get to play Smash against each other and keeping that promise from years ago… i love that
oh if it isn’t obvious i also got a Nintendo Switch! weird that i didn’t bring it up but yall know how much I ride for Nintendo so i felt odd that i didn’t mention it here. i got my baby last August and loved it ever since. i traded in Mario Kart 8 and BOTW for Splatoon 2 which was a great decision as the former two games are on the new system anyway. it was kind of deja vu/nostalgic-ish? like i got the Wii U along with a digital copy of Splatoon as a graduation gift when i graduated high school two years prior, then i was getting a Nintendo Switch along with a digital copy of Splatoon. relearning the controls to splatoon was also weird but of course i still invest hours into that game.
ALSO: we were in Nintendo’s official video for PAX West (i’m in the Splatoon shirt) and their official tweet (this was fucking crazy to me)
i turned 21 too, which i felt like should be this wild-rager-party of a year but it was honestly kind of the opposite since i realized i don’t drink much/at all. fourlokos are fucked up and flip cup is kinda fun is what i discovered though
since i’ve been off here, i’ve moved onto twitter and let me tell you - it’s so weird because i didn’t plan on moving to that website since i left here and some of my mutuals somehow transferred over without me realizing, like i never advertised my twitter in depth on here and some people found me on there which was crazy.
plug: i hope you all follow me on twitter and know that i am still alive - i recognize most of my mutuals from tumblr so hopefully some will transfer over. instagram plug while i’m at it
i’ve been thinking about this message for a while; what to write, when to write it, when to log back in and post it. tumblr has left me with both good and bad memories so i felt like it should at least have some sincerity to it - for me at least. i turn 22 tomorrow (god i’m old) so i kind of wanted to say goodbye to 21 and just wanted to give everyone an update to where i am, even though 3 people will read this. i got anxious every time i tried writing it out and realizing i did like 2 exciting things so i scrapped it. i waited a while and wrote this out last minute, thinking that it’d be good to come here one last time before i turn a new age tomorrow.
for now, i don’t think i have a reason to come back to the site. it’s fun catching up though and i love all my friends i made through here. thank you all for a good 6 years
janainaart
yousharknotpass
theartofmadeline
dededos
