the curious case of satoru gojo
pairing â scientist satoru x housewife reader
synopsis : satoru gojo is a nobel-nominated genius with three phds, a devoted wife, and one tiny problem: he's accidentally turned himself into his nineteen-year-old self. now locked out of his own house and mistaken for a very persistent stalker by the love of his life (thatâs you), he has one missionâfix the time machine, reclaim his face, and survive your increasingly violent attempts to defend your marriage from... him.
tags â oneshot, porn with plot, established relationship, domestic fluff, crack treated seriously, age regression/de-aging, identity shenanigans, miscommunication but itâs technically quantum, time travel(?) shenanigans, idiots in love, emotional whiplash, romantic comedy, jealous of himself, satoru gojo is so down bad, penis in vagina sex, kitchen sex, breeding kink, mating press, praise kink, overstimulation, sexual overstimulation, multiple orgasms, multiple sex positions, satoru gojo worships you like a religion, slight size kink, heâs been deprived okay, smut happens after he fixes everything
wc â 20.1k | gen. masterlist | read on ao3?
a/n: yes i wrote this in one day. yes i wrote this instead of focusing on finishing the part two of my apothecary diaries au fic. please donât get your pitchforks out (â âąâ  â âœâ  â âąâ ;â ) if u see i typo, no u donât.
two weeks.
fourteen days of existing as a walking contradictionâa twenty-nine-year-old genius trapped in the lanky, smooth-faced prison of his nineteen-year-old body. satoru adjusts his reading glasses (the same prescription, thankfully, because his eyesight had been terrible since childhood) and stares at your front door like itâs the gates of heaven guarded by the worldâs most beautiful, most stubborn angel.
his hair catches the afternoon light, those fine strands the color of fresh snow that had turned this ethereal shade when he was four and his first chemistry set had gone spectacularly wrong. it had originally been a soft, milk-tea brown, the color of dusty books and early autumn. heâd tried to invent a hair-growth serum for his dad. instead, the mixture combusted, coated his scalp, and bleached every strand into something unnaturally pale. his parents had panicked, thinking heâd poisoned himself. little satoru, meanwhile, had stared into the mirror and grinned with gap-toothed delight.
now, at nineteen-again, it falls across his forehead in soft waves, glowing almost silver in the sunlight. he looks like a walking, talking academic heartthrob from a university romance novelâwhich would be flattering if his own wife didnât look at him like he was an unsightly bug on her kitchen floor.
the irony tastes bitter on his tongue, metallic like blood and regret. heâd spent six years perfecting a device to slow down timeânot for scientific glory or recognition, but because twenty-four hours with you had never felt like enough. heâd wanted to stretch lazy sunday mornings into eternities, to make your sleepy smiles and the way you hummed while making coffee last forever.
instead, heâd accidentally turned himself into a time paradox of the most pathetic variety. a cautionary tale about hubris wrapped in the body of a college freshman.
his phone buzzes somewhere in the basement lab, probably sending another automated message to your device: still working on the temporal displacement project. eating the sandwiches you left. miss you. love you. âsatoru
the ai assistant heâd programmed to keep you from worrying had become his greatest enemy. every perfectly crafted message, every detail programmed to sound exactly like him, was another nail in the coffin of his credibility. heâd been too thorough, too careful, too much of a perfectionist even in his contingency planning.
because here he stands, looking like a college freshman whoâd wandered into the wrong neighborhood, while you believe your husband is safely tucked away in his lab, probably elbow-deep in equations and caffeine addiction.
the thing isâand this is where his pride starts gnawing at his intestines like a particularly vindictive parasiteâhe doesnât want to sneak into his own house. heâs the dr. satoru gojo, for crying out loud. he has three phds, a nobel prize nomination, and enough patents to wallpaper the entire first floor. he shouldnât have to skulk through basement windows like some sort of lovesick cat burglar just to access his own laboratory.
heâs a dignified man of science. he has principles. standards. a reputation to maintain, even if that reputation is currently being dragged through the mud by his own temporal incompetence.
no, heâs going to do this the right way. heâs going to convince you, properly and thoroughly, that he is exactly who he claims to be. heâs going to walk through the front door like a civilized human being, kiss his wife hello, and pretend the last two weeks never happened.
this is a matter of scientific integrity. of personal dignity. ofâ
he rings the doorbell.
the sound of your footsteps approaching makes his heart perform some sort of olympic gymnastics routine, complete with triple axels and a dismount that leaves his stomach somewhere in the vicinity of his ankles. even through the door, he can picture the way you moveâthat particular grace youâve always had, like youâre dancing to music only you can hear. youâre probably wearing one of those sundresses he loves, the ones that make you look like youâve stepped out of a 1950s magazine about perfect wives, except youâre real and warm and you smell like vanilla and clean laundry and home.
the door opens, and satoruâs brain promptly short-circuits.
youâre wearing the yellow dress. the one with tiny white flowers that heâd bought you for your second anniversary because youâd mentioned once, in passing, while distracted by a butterfly in the park, that it reminded you of the field where youâd had your first picnic. heâd remembered that throwaway comment for six months before finding the perfect dress, had it tailored to fit you exactly, had even added those hidden pockets because you always lost your keys.
your hair is pinned back with the butterfly clips heâd made for youâtiny mechanical marvels that flutter their wings when you laugh, solar-powered and calibrated to respond to the specific frequency of your joy. heâd spent three weeks perfecting the mechanism after youâd mentioned liking butterflies. three weeks of delicate gear work and programming, all for the chance to see you smile when the wings moved.
you look at him, and your expression shifts from hopeful to confused to absolutely murderous in the span of three seconds.
âoh, youâve got to be kidding me.â
his heart skips a beat. maybe five. this is the part where he says something clever. this is the part where he charms you back into loving him. this is the part where his superior intellect saves the day andâ
before he can open his mouth to explain, to plead, to grovel at your perfect feet, youâve already produced what looks like a small silver device from somewhere in your dress. the hidden pocket in the seam, specificallyâthe one heâd reinforced with extra stitching because you had a tendency to overstuff it with lip balm and emergency snacks.
the device hums ominously, a sound that sends ice water through his veins because he recognizes it immediately. itâs the personal protection gadget heâd built for you last christmas, after youâd mentioned feeling nervous walking home from your book club in the dark. heâd spent a month perfecting itâa sleek little thing that could stun, disorient, or mildly embarrass an attacker depending on the setting.
and right now, youâre turning the dial past âwarning shotâ and heading straight for âregret your life choices.â
âlisten here, you little creep,â you say, and your voice is deadly sweet, like honey laced with cyanide. the juxtaposition of your floral sundress and the murder in your eyes is somehow the most attractive thing heâs ever seen, which probably says something deeply concerning about his psychology. âi donât know who you think you are, but iâm a married woman. deeply, completely, utterly in love with my husband.â
the way you say âmy husbandâ makes something in his chest crack open like a fault line. thereâs so much pride in your voice, so much fierce devotion, and he wants to bask in it except youâre not talking about him. youâre talking about him, but not him-him. youâre talking about the version of him you actually want to see walking through this door.
âso whatever pathetic attempt at impersonation this is,â you continue, and the weapon in your hand starts glowing a rather alarming shade of blue, âyou can take it and shove it where the sun doesnât shine.â
âwait, wait!â he holds up his hands, noting with growing horror how young they look, how smooth and unmarked by years of lab work. these hands havenât built the music box that plays your wedding song. these fingers havenât spent countless hours crafting the little inventions that make you smile. âi can explain! i know this looks bad, but iâm reallyââ
âsatoru,â you finish, your eyes narrowing dangerously. âyes, i heard your little introduction yesterday. and the week before that. you know what? the name satoru only fits one person in this world, and heâs about a hundred times more attractive, intelligent, and charming than whatever discount walmart version youâre trying to pull off.â
the words hit him like a freight train loaded with emotional devastation and existential dread. discount walmart version. youâhis wife, the love of his life, the woman whoâs seen him drool on his pillow and still kisses him good morningâthink heâs a cheap knockoff of himself.
âmy husband,â you continue, and thereâs that tone again, soft and dreamy and absolutely besotted, âis brilliant beyond measure. heâs kind and funny and makes me laugh every single day. he has these eyes that light up when heâs excited about something, and he gets this little crease between his eyebrows when heâs concentrating. heâs tall and gorgeous and perfect, and you...â you look him up and down with obvious disdain, âare none of those things.â
satoru feels something die inside his chest. possibly his will to live. definitely his ego.
because the thing is, youâre right. he doesnât look like the man you married anymore. he looks like a college student, all gangly limbs and baby fat and skin that hasnât been weathered by years of late nights in the lab. he looks like someone who might ask you for help with his homework, not someone whoâs built you a smart house that anticipates your every need.
âbut i know things!â he says desperately, his voice cracking in a way that makes him want to crawl into a hole and die. âi know about your scar from when you fell off your bike when you were seven! itâs shaped like a crescent moon and you hate it but i think itâs beautiful! i know you cry during dog food commercials but only the ones with golden retrievers! i know you keep our wedding photo in your recipe book, tucked between the pages for chocolate chip cookies and banana bread!â
your expression grows more dangerous with each word, and the weapon in your hand charges up another notch.
âyou sick little stalker,â you hiss, and the venom in your voice could probably strip paint. âhow dare you dig into our private life and try to use our precious memories against me! what kind of pathetic creep researches someoneâs marriage just to play dress-up?â
âiâm not playing dress-up!â he protests, and he knows he sounds pathetic, knows he looks like exactly what you think he isâsome obsessed fan whoâs done way too much homework. âi know about the time you got food poisoning from that seafood place and i held your hair while you threw up! i know you have a freckle shaped like a heart on your left shoulder! i know you sing off-key in the shower but you think you sound like an angel!â
âstop it!â you snap, and your finger hovers over the trigger. âstop trying to soil our beautiful relationship with your creepy research!â
âi know about our first fight!â he rushes on, desperate now, sweat beading on his forehead. âit was about the thermostat because you like the house warm and i run hot! i know you forgave me by leaving little notes in my lab equipment! i know you doodle my name in the margins of your books when youâre daydreaming!â
each piece of intimate knowledge he reveals only seems to make you angrier, and satoru realizes with growing horror that heâs trapped in some sort of emotional paradox. the more he proves he knows you, the more youâre convinced heâs a stranger.
âand i know,â he adds, his voice dropping to something desperate and broken, âthat youâre wearing the perfume i bought you for your birthday. the one that smells like vanilla and jasmine and makes me want to bury my face in your neck and never leave.â
you go very, very still.
âthatâs enough,â you say quietly, and somehow thatâs more terrifying than when you were shouting. âi donât care how much youâve stalked us, how many private details youâve dug up, how perfectly youâve copied his appearance. you are not my husband.â
âbutââ
âmy husband,â you continue, and your voice goes soft and dreamy again, like youâre talking about something holy, âis perfect. heâs brilliant and beautiful and kind, and he loves me exactly as much as i love him. heâs probably in his lab right now, working on something thatâs going to change the world, missing me but dedicated to his research because thatâs who he is. thatâs the man i married.â
the weapon powers up another notch, and satoru is pretty sure itâs no longer set to âstun.â
âand you,â you say, looking him up and down with obvious disgust, âare just some sad little boy with a crush and too much time on your hands. so hereâs whatâs going to happen. youâre going to leave. now. and if i see you anywhere near our house again, iâm going to do something that will require a very good explanation to the police.â
satoru stares at youâreally looks at youâand sees the fierce protectiveness in your eyes, the way youâre guarding not just your home but your marriage, your happiness, your love for a man you think is safely tucked away in his basement lab.
youâre magnificent. terrifying and beautiful and absolutely magnificent.
and youâre about to potentially murder him while defending his honor.
âi know about the night after our second anniversary,â he tries one more time, his voice breaking completely now. âwhen you wore that blue nightgown with the little ribbons, and we danced in the kitchen to that song you love, and then weââ
âthatâs it.â
the blast catches him square in the chest, and suddenly satoru is airborne, flying backward off your porch and landing in the rose bushes heâd planted for your last birthday. the thorns are sharp, but not nearly as sharp as the look youâd given him right before pulling the trigger.
he lies there for a moment, stunned and possibly concussed, staring up at the sky and trying to process what just happened.
through the ringing in his ears, he hears you call out: âmy husband is a genius with 845 patents and the most brilliant mind of our generation! youâre just some sad little boy who probably googled him! stay away from our house, or next time iâm setting this thing to something more permanent!â
the door slams with enough force to rattle the windows.
satoru continues lying in the roses, rose petals in his hair and thorns in his dignity, and tries to comprehend the fact that his own wife just threatened to potentially murder him while defending his honor with the very weapon heâd built to protect her.
somewhere in the distance, a bird chirps. a car drives by. the world continues spinning as if nothing momentous has just occurred.
heâs never been more in love in his entire life. which is probably a sign that he needs therapy. or a lobotomy. possibly both.
he lies there for a moment. processing. his ribs hurt. his pride hurts more. his entire soul aches in a way that is both deeply romantic and profoundly stupid.
âalso!â you shout from the upstairs window, your voice carrying that indignant tone you get when youâre really worked up, âmy husband has better hair! and better posture! and heâs taller! and he knows how to dress himself like an adult instead of a lost college freshman!â
each addition feels like salt in the wound. youâre systematically dismantling every aspect of his nineteen-year-old appearance while praising the twenty-nine-year-old version with the kind of enthusiasm usually reserved for describing paradise.
âand he smells better!â you continue, apparently not done with your character assassination. âlike expensive cologne and coffee and home, not like... like drugstore body spray and desperation!â
satoru sniffs himself reflexively. he doesnât smell like desperation. does he? the drugstore body spray comment is just mean, especially since heâd specifically chosen the brand youâd complimented on a stranger once.
âand his voice!â youâre really getting into it now, leaning out the window with the fervor of someone delivering a sermon. âhis voice is deeper, and smoother, and when he says my name it sounds like music instead of like a squeaky toy!â
he touches his throat self-consciously. his voice had been deeper before the accident, richer, more confident. now he sounds like heâs going through puberty again, all cracks and uncertain intonation.
âand he would never be stupid enough to break into someoneâs house like some kind of delinquent!â you conclude with devastating finality. âmy husband is a gentleman and a scholar and the most wonderful man who ever lived, and youâre just some discount imposter who isnât fit to shine his shoes!â
the window slams shut.
satoru groans. loud and dramatic and entirely justified.
he really shouldâve just built a cloning machine. or left a video message in case of accidental de-aging. or tattooed a note to his own arm. but no, he had to get ambitious. he had to try and invent time-space atmospheric slowdown like a dumbass in love.
he drags himself up from the rosebush, brushing petals and leaves from his shirt. thereâs one stuck in his hair, refusing to leave like it has a vendetta. his reflection in the front window shows a pathetic figure: clothes wrinkled, hair disheveled, a small cut on his cheek from the thorns, and an expression of profound defeat.
this is what rock bottom looks like, apparently. getting ejected from his own home by his own wife while she sings the praises of his other self.
the irony is suffocating. you love him so much that youâd attack anyone who even pretended to be him. your loyalty is absolute, your devotion unwavering, your protective instincts sharp enough to cut glass. itâs everything heâd ever wanted in a partner, everything heâd fallen in love with, turned against him in the cruelest possible way.
he presses his hand to his chest, where the stun device got him. it still tingles, a reminder of your precision, your preparedness, the way youâd defended your marriage without a momentâs hesitation. youâd been magnificent, absolutely magnificent, and heâd been the target.
satoru limps toward the sidewalk, his teenage body protesting every movement. his legs feel too long, his center of gravity all wrong. everything about this borrowed youth feels like wearing an ill-fitting costume to the most important performance of his life.
he looks back at the houseâyour house, his house, the home youâd built togetherâand feels the weight of his isolation settle around him like a heavy coat. inside, youâre probably making dinner, humming that song you always hum when youâre slightly stressed, maybe wondering why the strange boy keeps bothering you when your husband is working so hard in his lab.
the thought of you worrying, of you feeling unsafe in your own home because of his appearance, makes his chest tight with guilt. heâd never wanted to frighten you, never wanted to make you feel threatened or uncomfortable. heâd just wanted to come home.
but this isnât working. two weeks of doorbell rejections, verbal demolitions, and physical removal have made it clear that the direct approach is a spectacular failure. youâre not going to believe him, not when he looks like this, not when every instinct you have is screaming that heâs an imposter.
he understands that you love your husbandâhimâso much that youâll fight off anyone who threatens that love, even if it means breaking your own tender heart to do it. he understands that the depth of your devotion is exactly what makes this situation so impossible.
he also understands that his dignity, his principles, his stubborn refusal to sneak around his own house like a common criminal, has just officially been abandoned in your rose bushes along with his pride.
because two weeks without you is already too long, and the thought of spending even one more night in a hotel room that smells like industrial disinfectant instead of your vanilla perfume makes him want to invent a time machine just so he can go back and slap his past self for being such an arrogant idiot.
science is about adaptation. evolution. knowing when to abandon a failed hypothesis and try a new approach.
tonight, dr. satoru gojo, nobel prize winner and distinguished gentleman of science, is going to break into his own house like a lovesick teenager.
his dignity is already dead anyway. might as well bury it properly.
night falls like a heavy curtain draped by a particularly melodramatic theater director, and satoru crouches in the shadows of his own garden like some sort of discount romeoâif romeo had been a twenty-nine-year-old genius trapped in a nineteen-year-oldâs body and juliet had been his own wife whoâd recently threatened him with what appeared to be a weaponized jewelry box.
the irony tastes like burnt coffee and shattered dreams. heâs spent six years turning this place into fort knoxâs prettier, more technologically advanced cousin, all in the name of protecting you from theoretical dangers that pale in comparison to the very real threat of his own stupidity. motion sensors that could detect a butterflyâs landing, cameras with night vision that would make the military weep with envy, locks that respond to seventeen different biometric markersâand here he is, plotting to break into his own fortress like the worldâs most pathetic cat burglar.
the security system hums softly in the darkness, a technological lullaby heâd programmed himself. every blinking light, every nearly invisible laser grid, every pressure-sensitive tile in the walkwayâhis own paranoid genius, now turned against him like some sort of karmic boomerang wrapped in irony and spite.
he adjusts his reading glasses and studies the house like a general surveying a battlefield. except generals probably donât usually have to factor in the devastating effects of seeing their beloved wearing pajamas into their strategic planning.
the kitchen window. salvation arrives in the form of his own procrastinationâthereâs a loose latch on the kitchen window that heâs been meaning to fix for approximately four months and seventeen days. not that heâs counting. youâd mentioned it in passing on a tuesday morning while making pancakes, your hair still mussed from sleep, wearing that ridiculous apron with the anthropomorphic strawberries that should have looked childish but instead made you look like some sort of domestic goddess descended from mount olympus to bless his unworthy kitchen with your presence.
heâd nodded and made appropriate husband noises about adding it to his mental to-do list, then promptly forgotten because youâd started humming that songâthe one you always hum when youâre happy, the one that sounds like sunshine would if sunshine had a voiceâand his brain had short-circuited somewhere between âfix window latchâ and âmarry this woman again immediately.â
procrastination, it turns out, has never felt so much like divine intervention.
satoru approaches the window with the careful precision of someone who knows exactly how much pressure the old frame can take before it creaks loud enough to wake the neighborsâ dog, which would start a chain reaction of barking that would inevitably lead to you investigating the commotion. his nineteen-year-old fingers work the latch with muscle memory that spans a decadeâapparently some things transcend the space-time continuum, including his intimate knowledge of his own homeâs structural weaknesses.
the window slides open with barely a whisper, and satoru feels a brief moment of triumph thatâs immediately crushed under the weight of what heâs actually doing. breaking and entering. into his own house. to convince his own wife that heâs actually himself.Â
if thereâs a support group for men whoâve been defeated by their own scientific brilliance, heâs definitely going to need the membership information.
he slips through the window with the fluid grace of his temporarily teenage body, and the contrast is jarringâheâd forgotten how easy movement used to be, before years of hunching over microscopes and circuit boards had given him the posture of a question mark and the flexibility of a particularly rigid breadstick. his nineteen-year-old joints donât protest the maneuver, donât crack ominously or require the careful choreography heâs grown accustomed to.
itâs like being a ghost haunting his own life, except ghosts probably donât have to worry about whether their wives will recognize them.
the house settles around him in the darkness, familiar as his own heartbeat. every creak of the floorboards, every sigh of the old ventilation system, every subtle shift of air that speaks of home and safety and belonging. the scent of dinner lingers in the airâsomething with garlic and herbs that makes his stomach growl traitorously, reminding him that nineteen-year-old metabolisms apparently require more fuel than whatever laboratory subsistence heâs been surviving on.
guilt tastes like copper pennies and regret as he imagines you eating alone, probably glancing at the basement door every few minutes, wondering if your husband remembered to eat anything more substantial than the sandwiches youâd left for him. the automated messages from his ai assistant feel like lead weights in his chestâevery perfectly crafted lie, every synthetic expression of love and longing, every digital deception that kept you from worrying while the real satoru stumbled around in a teenage body like some sort of scientific cautionary tale.
his feet hit the kitchen floor with barely a whisper of sound, and for a moment, he allows himself to breathe. step one: infiltration successful. step two: somehow make it to the basement without triggering any of theâ
the lights explode to life like the sun deciding to have a particularly vindictive tantrum.
âgotcha, you little creep.â
and there you are.
standing in the doorway like an avenging angel whoâd decided that white cotton nightgowns were the appropriate battle attire for dealing with home invaders. the nightdressâthe one with the lace trim that heâd bought you for your birthday because youâd mentioned once that you felt pretty in whiteâcatches the harsh kitchen light and transforms you into something ethereal and terrifying in equal measure.
your hair spills over your shoulders in loose waves, the same waves heâs buried his fingers in countless times, that heâs watched catch morning sunlight during lazy weekend mornings when the world consisted of nothing but you and him and the space between heartbeats. but thereâs steel in your posture now, a predatory grace that speaks of skills heâd never suspected, secrets kept with the casual competence of someone whoâs been protecting others while letting them think they were doing the protecting.
satoru opens his mouth to explain, to plead, to throw himself at your mercy and grovel with the desperation of a man whoâs spent two weeks learning exactly how much his life means nothing without you in itâ
your hand moves faster than his genius brain can process, faster than the calculations that usually come as naturally as breathing, faster than any of the combat scenarios heâs ever run through his head during his more paranoid moments.
the karate chop catches him right at the base of his neck with surgical precision, and satoruâs world doesnât just explode into starsâit becomes a supernova of sensation and realization and the most inappropriate surge of attraction heâs ever experienced.
because even as his vision goes blurry around the edges, even as his knees buckle and his carefully planned explanations scatter like startled birds, even as consciousness starts its tactical retreat from the battlefield of his skullâyouâre beautiful.
devastatingly, impossibly, catastrophically beautiful.
heâd known you were deadly, in the abstract way that husbands know their wives are capable of anything. but seeing it, experiencing the controlled violence of someone whoâs spent years learning how to end threats efficiently and effectively, watching the way you move with the fluid confidence of someone whoâs never doubted their ability to protect what mattersâ
itâs like falling in love all over again, except this time itâs happening while his nervous system stages a coup and his equilibrium files for immediate resignation.
the woman heâd married, the one who makes him sandwiches with the crusts cut off because you knows he eats more when food is convenient, the one who leaves little notes in his lab reminding him to drink water and take breaks, the one who hums while doing laundry and always smells like vanilla and clean cotton and homeâyou just incapacitated him with the casual efficiency of someone whoâs been trained to handle much worse threats than lovesick scientists with poor life choices.
and heâs never been more attracted to another human being in his entire existence.
his vision swims, the edges of the world growing soft and fuzzy like someoneâs smeared vaseline on the lens of reality. but even through the haze of imminent unconsciousness, he can see you clearlyâthe slight flush in your cheeks from adrenaline, the way your breathing has quickened just fractionally, the protective fire in your eyes that speaks of love fierce enough to level cities.
âyou,â his mouth tries to form words, but his tongue feels like itâs been replaced with cotton batting soaked in novocaine. âyouâre...â
âinsane?â you supply helpfully, though your voice carries that particular note of concern that always appears when you think he might be hurt. âscary? criminally strong?â
âperfect,â he manages, and even slurred beyond recognition, the word carries every ounce of wonder and adoration and bone-deep reverence he feels.
you blink, clearly not expecting that response from your supposed stalker, and in that moment of confusion, satoru sees something shift in your expression. a flicker of uncertainty, a crack in the armor of your righteous fury that lets just a hint of the woman he knows peek through.
then the world tilts sideways, his legs forget how to function, and consciousness waves goodbye with all the dignity of a deflating balloon.
satoru surfaces from the depths of unconsciousness like a man drowning in reverse, fighting his way back to a reality that feels suspiciously soft and comfortable for someone whoâd just been neutralized by his own wife.
the mother of all headaches pounds against his skull with the rhythm of a particularly enthusiastic drummer, and somewhere in the distance, birds are chirping with the sort of aggressive cheerfulness that makes him want to invent a device for negotiating with wildlife.
satoru opens his eyes to find himself on the porchâhis porch, their porch, the one with the swing heâd installed because youâd mentioned once that youâd always wanted oneâwith a pillow tucked carefully under his head and a glass of water sitting nearby like a peace offering from the goddess of justified violence.
even while knocking him unconscious for breaking into his own home, youâd made sure he was comfortable.
the pillow smells like youâvanilla and that lavender fabric softener you use and something indefinably warm that heâs never been able to identify but would recognize anywhere. itâs the same scent that clings to his shirts when you do laundry, the same one that fills their bedroom in the mornings, the same one that he associates with safety and belonging and the radical concept that someone might actually love him enough to put up with his particular brand of brilliant stupidity.
he sits up slowly, his head spinning like a carnival ride operated by someone with a grudge against inner ears, and catches sight of a note tucked under the water glass. the handwriting is yoursâneat, precise, with the same careful attention to detail you bring to everything from grocery lists to the birthday cards you make by hand because you say store-bought ones donât carry enough love.
for the headache. next time, try using the front door like a normal stalker. âthe wife of the REAL satoru gojo
despite everythingâthe splitting headache, the existential crisis, the fact that heâs been reduced to breaking into his own home like some sort of romantic criminalâhe smiles. even your passive-aggressive notes are perfect. even when youâre threatening him with bodily harm, youâre taking care of him. even when you think heâs some delusional teenager with stalker tendencies, youâre making sure heâs hydrated and comfortable.
heâs never been more in love, which would be romantic if it werenât so completely pathetic.
the front door opens with the sort of casual grace that suggests youâve been watching him from inside, probably trying to determine whether heâs going to keel over again or attempt another round of breaking and entering. you step out wearing a blue sundress that makes his chest ache with longing so profound it feels like a physical injuryâthe one with tiny white flowers that heâd bought you for your second anniversary because youâd mentioned once that it reminded you of the field where youâd had your first picnic.
youâre carrying a plate of what looks like his favorite cookies, the ones you only make when youâre worried or upset, the ones that involve three different types of chocolate and a recipe you guard more jealously than state secrets. the fact that youâve made them now, for what you think is a complete stranger, speaks to a kindness so fundamental that it makes his throat close up with emotion.
âyouâre awake,â you observe, settling into the porch chair youâd insisted on buying last spring, the one heâd grumbled about because it didnât match the aesthetic heâd carefully planned, the one thatâs now his favorite spot in the world because itâs where you sit in the mornings with your coffee and your terrible romance novels and your complete contentment with the life youâve built together. âgood. i was starting to think iâd hit you too hard.â
thereâs genuine concern in your voice, the same tone you use when heâs working too late and youâre worried heâs going to collapse from exhaustion, and satoru feels his dignityâwhat little remains of itâcrumble into dust. his wife is worried about the wellbeing of someone she thinks is essentially a teenage stalker, because thatâs the kind of person you are. thatâs the kind of heart you have.
he struggles to his feet, swaying slightly as his nineteen-year-old equilibrium files a formal complaint about the abuse itâs recently endured. âyou... you know karate?â
the question comes out slightly accusatory, tinged with the bewilderment of a man discovering that his beloved is capable of violence on a level heâd never imagined. six years of marriage, six years of thinking he knew everything about you, six years of believing he was the protector in this relationshipâ
âamong other things.â you bite into a cookie with the satisfied air of someone whoâs just discovered an interesting new fact about the world, watching him with the expression of someone observing a particularly fascinating specimen under laboratory conditions. âmy husband doesnât know. i like letting him think he needs to protect me. he makes the most adorable gadgets when heâs worried about my safety.â
the casual way you mention keeping an entire martial arts background secret from him makes satoruâs head spin worse than the concussion. not because youâve hidden something from himâeveryone deserves their secrets, their private spaces, their own mysteries to unfold in their own timeâbut because youâve hidden it for the most fundamentally sweet reason imaginable.
youâve been letting him play protector while being perfectly capable of protecting yourself, because you think his overprotectiveness is cute.
he falls in love with you all over again, which seems physically impossible given that heâs been operating at maximum love capacity for the better part of a decade, but apparently the human heart has hidden reserves for discovering new depths of adoration even when you think youâve already catalogued every possible reason to worship someone.
âwhy didnât you tell him?â he asks, genuinely curious despite the circumstances and the growing certainty that heâs about to learn something that will fundamentally reshape his understanding of the woman he married.
your expression softens in the way that always makes his chest tight with emotion, that particular look of fond exasperation mixed with infinite patience that you reserve for discussions of your husbandâs more endearing quirks.
âbecause my satoru gojo is the smartest man alive,â you say, and the pride in your voice makes something warm and golden spread through his chest like sunrise, âbut heâs also a complete idiot when it comes to the people he loves. heâd spend all his time trying to make sure i never had to use those skills instead of appreciating that i can take care of myself. this way, he gets to feel protective, i get beautiful functional jewelry and self-defense gadgets, and everyoneâs happy.â
the way you say his nameâtheir name, his name, the name you chose to take and make your ownâcarries so much love itâs like being hit by lightning made of pure affection. thereâs pride and exasperation and devotion all wrapped up together, the voice of someone who sees all his flaws and brilliant strengths and loves him not despite them but because of the ridiculous, wonderful, impossible whole they create.
âheâs lucky,â satoru says quietly, his voice rough with emotions he canât begin to untangle, âto have someone who understands him so well.â
âhe is,â you agree, and your smile could power entire cities, could fuel space programs, could probably solve half the worldâs energy crisis if properly harnessed. âheâs brilliant and kind and funny, and he makes me laugh every single day. heâs also terrible at remembering to eat when heâs working and has a tendency to forget that normal people need more than three hours of sleep, but heâs perfect. heâs mine.â
satoru has never experienced jealousy of himself before, but it turns out to be a unique form of psychological tortureâlistening to the woman he loves describe him with such complete adoration while being unable to claim that love for himself. itâs like being handed a gift and told you can look but never touch, like being shown paradise through bulletproof glass.
the domesticity of it, the casual way you catalogue his flaws alongside his strengths, the matter-of-fact possessiveness in that final declarationâitâs everything heâs ever wanted and everything he currently canât have, all wrapped up in a blue sundress and served with homemade cookies.
âwhat if,â he tries carefully, his voice pitched to sound like idle curiosity rather than the desperate plea it actually is, âhypothetically, something happened to him? what if he was... changed somehow?â
your expression shifts faster than a summer storm, going from warm affection to arctic fury in the space between heartbeats. the cookie in your hand crumbles slightly from the sudden tension in your grip, chocolate chips scattering like the remains of his dignity.
ânothingâs going to happen to my husband,â you say, and your voice carries the kind of quiet menace that speaks of consequences beyond imagination. âand if someone tried to hurt him, theyâd have to go through me first.â
the protective fire in your eyes makes something primal and deeply satisfied purr in his chest, even as his rational mind catalogs this as yet another example of how thoroughly heâs miscalculated this entire situation. youâd go to war for him. youâd fight gods and demons and the fundamental forces of the universe itself if it meant keeping him safe.
and here he is, the very person youâre trying to protect, being threatened by that same fierce love.
âbut hypotheticallyââ
âno hypotheticals.â you stand up with sharp, efficient movements, smoothing your dress with the same precision you bring to everything, from folding fitted sheets to organizing his lab equipment when heâs too scattered to think straight. âmy husband is in his lab, working on something thatâs going to change the world, because thatâs what he does. and youâre going to stop harassing us, because thatâs what youâre going to do if you want to keep all your limbs attached.â
the dismissal is absolute, final, delivered with the authority of someone whoâs never doubted their ability to follow through on threats. you disappear back into the house like an avenging angel returning to heaven, leaving satoru alone with his thoughts and the growing certainty that dignity is a luxury he can no longer afford.
he sits on the porch stepsâhis own porch steps, in front of his own house, locked out by his own security system and his own wifeâand contemplates the spectacular wreckage of his scientific career. somewhere in that basement, his lifeâs work hums quietly, the temporal displacement device that was supposed to give him more time with you having instead stolen the time he already had.
the irony would be poetic if it werenât so completely devastating.
satoru gojo, holder of 845 patents, winner of seventeen international scientific awards, the man whoâd revolutionized three separate fields before his thirtieth birthdayâreduced to breaking into his own home like a common criminal, only to be defeated by his wifeâs previously unknown martial arts skills and her absolutely justified protective instincts.
heâs given up his dignity, his professional reputation, and apparently his door privileges, all because heâd been too excited about surprising you with a scientific breakthrough to properly test the safety protocols.
note to self: next time he wants to revolutionize temporal mechanics, maybe start with laboratory mice instead of jumping straight to human trials.Â
assuming there is a next time. assuming he can figure out how to convince you that the teenager on your porch is actually your husband without sounding like the worldâs most delusional stalker.
the basement feels very far away suddenly, farther than when heâd been planning his infiltration, farther than the actual physical distance between the porch and the lab where his salvation waits. because now he understands the true scope of his problem: itâs not just about fixing the temporal displacement device.
itâs about rebuilding trust with someone who thinks heâs been safely contained in his laboratory while a dangerous stranger makes increasingly desperate attempts to insert himself into their life.
satoru sighs deeply like a man who has discovered that rock bottom has a basement, and that basement has a sub-basement, and heâs currently spelunking through the geological layers of his own humiliation. the pillow youâd left under his head when you dragged his unconscious body out here mocks him with its floral patternâlittle daisies that seem to whisper pathetic in tiny flower voices.
his dignity lies somewhere in your rose bushes, probably fertilizing the begonias.
he stares hopelessly at his own houseâthe house he designed, built, and has been systematically locked out of by his own security measures. the irony tastes like pennies and poor life choices. somewhere in that house, youâre probably stress-baking again, creating cookies that could end world hunger while muttering about stalkers and the general incompetence of teenage boys who think they can impersonate geniuses.
the truly tragic part is that youâre not wrong. he is a teenage boy trying to impersonate a genius. the fact that he actually is that genius feels like a technicality that the universe is refusing to acknowledge.
satoru stands up, brushing pillow lint off his jeans (when had he started wearing jeans? his twenty-nine-year-old self exclusively wore slacks, but apparently his teenage body had different sartorial opinions). if heâs going to reclaim his life, his wife, and his chronological age, he needs to get into that lab.
the front door is obviously out of the question. youâve made it abundantly clear that any further doorbell-related activities will result in weaponized consequences that his nineteen-year-old body might not survive. the back door is visible from the kitchen window, where youâre probably standing guard like a beautiful, homicidal sentinel.
which leaves him with the architectural equivalent of a hail mary: the basement windows.
he circles the house like a cat burglar whoâs read too many heist novels and not enough actual breaking-and-entering manuals. the basement windows are small, the kind of windows that had seemed like a good idea when he was designing a lab and wanted natural light but not easy access. past-satoru had been worried about corporate espionage, not future-satoru trying to infiltrate his own laboratory while trapped in a temporal paradox of the most embarrassing variety.
the window on the east side looks promising. itâs partially hidden by the hydrangea bushes youâd planted last spring, the ones that bloom in impossible shades of blue because youâd somehow convinced them that regular hydrangea colors were beneath their potential. the glass is dirty enough to provide cover, and the latch looks old enough to have the structural integrity of a wet paper bag.
satoru crouches in the dirt, feeling like the worldâs most pathetic ninja. his knees protest against the unfamiliar positionânineteen-year-old joints might be more flexible, but theyâre also apparently more dramatic about being asked to crouch in garden soil.Â
the window latch gives way with the kind of rusty shriek that could wake the dead, the neighbors, and possibly several small woodland creatures. satoru freezes, waiting for the sound of your footsteps, the opening of doors, the general commotion that would signal his discovery and subsequent re-unconsciousness.
nothing.
either you didnât hear it, or youâre currently sharpening something in the kitchen while humming ominously.
he slides the window open with the careful precision of someone who knows exactly how much the old frame can take before it decides to give up on life entirely. the basement yawns below him like the mouth of some scientific purgatory, all shadows and the faint hum of machines heâd built to make the world a better place.
getting through the window requires a level of physical coordination that his nineteen-year-old body possesses but his twenty-nine-year-old dignity abhors. he ends up sliding through headfirst, performing what could generously be called a controlled fall and more accurately described as a graceless tumble that would make circus performers weep.
his feet hit the concrete floor with all the stealth of a bag of hammers being dropped from a significant height.
the basement lab stretches before him like a technological cathedral, all gleaming surfaces and blinking lights that pulse in rhythm with machines whose purposes range from ârevolutionaryâ to âprobably shouldnât exist but here we are anyway.â this is his domain, his kingdom, his sanctuary of scientific achievement and questionable decision-making.
it also feels like coming home and visiting a crime scene simultaneously.
everything is exactly as heâd left it two weeks ago, frozen in the moment when heâd stepped into the temporal field with the confidence of someone who hadnât yet learned that the universe has a twisted sense of humor. the half-finished temporal displacement device sits on the main workbench like an accusation, all smooth curves and innocent blinking lights that belie its capacity for chronological chaos.
coffee cups are scattered around like caffeinated archaeological artifacts, each one marking a different stage of his research. thereâs the mug youâd given him for his birthday with âworldâs okayest scientistâ written in comic sans fontâyour little joke about his ego that he treasures more than his nobel prize nomination. thereâs the plain white cup he uses when heâs really focused, the one with the chip on the handle from when heâd gotten excited about a breakthrough and gestured too enthusiastically. thereâs even the fancy porcelain teacup his mother had given him, which he only uses when heâs feeling particularly pretentious about his discoveries.
each cup tells the story of late nights, early mornings, and the kind of obsessive focus that leads to temporal displacement incidents.
his phone sits on the desk, buzzing intermittently with notifications he canât answer. the screen lights up every few minutes with incoming messages, calls from colleagues, reminders about appointments heâs apparently missing while trapped in his own temporal feedback loop. but itâs the outgoing messages that make his stomach twist into knots that could anchor ships.
the ai assistant is working with the efficiency of a swiss watch and the emotional intelligence of someone who actually knows him. every few hours, it crafts another perfect message to your phone, each one a masterpiece of his writing style mixed with the kind of scientific romanticism that had won your heart six years ago.
making progress on the quantum stabilization matrix. the equations are beautifulâalmost as beautiful as you in that yellow dress this morning. did you eat lunch? âsatoru
breakthrough with the temporal field generators! i think i can increase efficiency by 34%. also, i dreamed about that weekend in kyoto again. we should go back soon. âyour devoted husband
minor setback with the power coupling, but nothing i canât fix. missing your voice. send a voice message please? maybe hum that song you like while i work? it always helps me think. âsatoru
each message is a perfect imitation of his writing style, his habits, his love for you wrapped in scientific progress reports. they capture the way he thinks, the way he speaks, the way he canât seem to separate his work from his adoration of you because everything he creates is somehow inspired by your existence.
no wonder you believe heâs down here, buried in his work, missing you but dedicated to his research. the ai had done its job too well, creating a digital phantom that was more convincing than his actual de-aged presence.
reading them makes him want to punch his past self for being so thorough, so careful, so goddamn good at programming an assistant that could replicate his personality down to the way he signs his messages with scientific terminology and pet names in equal measure.
satoru rolls up his sleeves and approaches his workstation like a penitent approaching an altar.
the labâs security system chirps softly as he moves through the space, sensors tracking his movement with the bored efficiency of technology that recognizes him but doesnât particularly care about his current chronological displacement. red lights blink in sequence along the walls, a heartbeat of recognition that would normally make him feel secure and accomplished.
instead, it feels like the lab is mocking him. oh look, the blinking seems to say, itâs the genius who outsmarted himself into adolescence.
the temporal displacement device looks innocent enough sitting there on the main workbenchâa sleek silver contraption about the size of a microwave, all smooth curves and the kind of blinking lights that movie audiences associate with either miracle cures or impending explosions. heâd been so proud of it when heâd finished the initial design, so excited to show you what heâd been working on for months.
the irony burns like acid in his chest: heâd built a machine to give himself more time with you, and instead, it had stolen the time he already had.
but now, looking at it with the clarity that comes from two weeks of enforced separation and multiple instances of being rendered unconscious by his own wife, he can see exactly what went wrong. the power coupling on the left side shows signs of overheating, the quantum stabilization matrix is operating at 73% efficiency instead of the required 89%, and the temporal field generators are displaying the kind of fluctuation patterns that suggest theyâre one strong breeze away from turning him into quantum soup.
his nineteen-year-old hands remember the work even if they look different doing itâsmoother, unlined, with calluses in different places that speak of a life not yet lived. muscle memory is a beautiful thing, and soon heâs lost in the familiar rhythm of calibration and adjustment, replacing the burnt-out components that had caused the initial malfunction.
the security system continues its soft surveillance, cameras tracking his movement as he works. somewhere in the house above, youâre probably going about your evening routine, maybe reading in the living room chair heâd bought specifically because it makes you look like a goddess of domestic tranquility, maybe taking a bath in the tub heâd designed with jets positioned exactly where you like them.
you think your husband is down here, safely contained in his laboratory, working on equations that could revolutionize temporal mechanics. you have no idea that your husband is actually down here, working on equations that could return him to the age where you might not instinctively try to karate chop him on sight.
hours pass in the peculiar way that time moves when youâre focused on something that requires every neuron in your brain to fire in perfect synchronization. his back aches from hunching over the workbenchâsome things never change, regardless of what decade your spine thinks itâs living in. his eyes water behind his reading glasses, the same prescription heâs had since childhood because apparently temporal displacement doesnât fix astigmatism.
the basement air grows stale and recycled, nothing like the fresh scent of your perfume or the way the house smells when youâre baking. down here, everything smells like ozone and possibility, metal and dreams, the peculiar combination of scents that comes from trying to bend the universe to your will through applied science and stubborn determination.
component by component, equation by equation, he rebuilds what his hubris had broken. the quantum stabilization matrix purrs back to life, its efficiency climbing toward the magic number that means the difference between âsuccessful temporal correctionâ and âdecorating the lab walls with physicist.â the power coupling stops smoking, which he takes as a positive sign, though the bar for success has been dramatically lowered by recent events.
finally, blessedly, after what feels like several geological ages, the device hums to life with the soft blue glow that means everything is working properly. the sound it makes is almost musical, a harmony of frequencies that speaks to the part of his brain that understands how beautiful math can be when itâs applied to impossible problems.
satoru stares at it for a long moment, this machine that had caused so much chaos, so much pain, so much embarrassment. it looks the same as it had two weeks ago, before heâd stepped into it with the confidence of someone who hadnât yet learned that the universe has a deeply personal vendetta against his happiness.
but now itâs fixed. now it can undo what it had done, return him to the chronological age where his wife doesnât look at him like heâs a particularly offensive piece of gum stuck to her shoe.
he takes a deep breath, tasting the metallic tang of possibility and ozone, and steps into the temporal field.
the world bends.
reality stretches like taffy in the hands of a cosmic confectioner whoâs had too much caffeine and not enough sleep. colors bleed into each other, the visible spectrum having what appears to be a nervous breakdown while time folds backward on itself with the sensation of falling upward through a kaleidoscope made of mathematics and regret.
his bones feel like theyâre growing, stretching, settling back into familiar patterns that his muscles remember even if his consciousness is currently experiencing what could best be described as temporal vertigo. his face reshapes itself like clay in the hands of chronology, features aging forward to match the man youâd fallen in love with, married, and spent six years learning to live with.
the sensation is indescribable and entirely uncomfortable, like being turned inside out by time itself while someone plays a symphony written in mathematical equations. his cells remember being twenty-nine, and they rush toward that memory with the enthusiasm of teenagers remembering they have a curfew.
when the light fades and the world stops doing its impression of a funhouse mirror designed by someone with a degree in theoretical physics, satoru catches sight of himself in the polished surface of another machine.
he looks like himself again. twenty-nine years old, tall and lean, with the same pale hair that had turned white when he was four and stayed that way out of what he suspects is pure stubbornness. the same eyes behind the same reading glasses, the same hands that youâve memorized, the same face that youâve kissed goodnight for six years.
the face youâd married, the body youâd mapped with your hands on lazy sunday mornings, the version of himself that you actually wanted to see walking through the door instead of some temporal impostor with the emotional maturity of a teenager and the physical appearance to match.
he runs his hands over his face, feeling the familiar planes and angles, the slight roughness of stubble that his nineteen-year-old self had been too optimistic to grow properly. these are the hands that have held you, touched you, built you impossibly complex gifts that serve no purpose other than making you smile.
satoru straightens his sweater and climbs the basement stairs like a man ascending to heaven, or at least to the ground floor where his wife is probably stress-baking cookies and muttering about the general incompetence of teenagers who think they can impersonate geniuses.
time to go home.
time to reclaim his life, his wife, and his dignityâthough he suspects the dignity might be a lost cause at this point.
the basement door opens onto the kitchen, and the smell of home washes over him like a blessing from the domestic gods: vanilla and cinnamon, the lavender detergent you use on the dish towels, the faint scent of the coffee youâd made this morning before you knew your day would include multiple instances of assault and battery against your own husband.
heâs home. finally, truly, chronologically home.
youâre in the kitchen when he emerges, standing at the stove in that pink dress with the tiny pearl buttons heâs memorized but hasnât seen in two weeks. your hair is twisted into a messy bun secured with one of his prototype hairpinsâthe ones that glow soft blue when youâre stressed. theyâre glowing now, just barely, a testament to how worried youâve been about his prolonged absence from the world above ground.
the wooden spoon moves in lazy circles through whatever youâre cooking, and the scent hits him like a physical forceâgarlic and herbs and that particular blend of spices you use when youâre making his favorite pasta. his stomach clenches with actual hunger for the first time in two weeks, nineteen-year-old metabolism finally giving way to twenty-nine-year-old appreciation for real food.
but itâs the humming that undoes him completely. that soft, unconscious melody you make when you think no oneâs listening, the same tune heâd programmed into his ai messages because heâd been missing it so desperately. hearing it live, unfiltered, coming from your actual throat instead of his memoryâ
satoru doesnât think. doesnât hesitate. doesnât announce himself like a civilized human being.
he launches himself across the kitchen like a man possessed, arms wrapping around your waist from behind, his chest pressing flush against your back as he buries his face in the curve of your neck. you smell like vanilla body lotion and that expensive shampoo he pretends not to notice the cost of, and underneath it all, just you. warm skin and the faint sweetness that clings to your hair, the scent thatâs been haunting him for fourteen endless days.
âsatoru!â you yelp, startled enough that the wooden spoon goes flying, clattering across the counter and leaving a trail of red sauce in its wake. âyou absolute menace, you scared me half to death!â
he makes a sound thatâs half laugh, half sob, tightening his arms around you like you might evaporate if he loosens his grip even slightly. his reading glasses bump against your shoulder as he nuzzles deeper into your neck, and he can feel the butterfly clips in your hair tickling against his temple.
âmissed you,â he mumbles against your skin, the words muffled and desperate. âmissed you so much.â
âmissed me?â your voice pitches higher, indignant and fond in equal measure. âsatoru, youâve been ten feet underground for two weeks! iâve been cooking for you every single day, leaving plates outside your lab door, and what do i find when i check? cold food. stone cold. untouched.â
your hands come up to cover his where theyâre locked around your middle, and even through your scolding, your fingers are gentle as they trace over his knuckles. âwhat have you even been eating? because i know it wasnât my cooking, and if you tell me youâve been surviving on coffee and those horrible protein bars, iâm going toââ
âalso,â you continue without pausing for breath, your voice shifting into that particular tone you get when youâre gearing up for a proper lecture, âyou will not believe the past two weeks iâve had. thereâs someone whoâs been lurking around our house and he who looks like some bizarre teenage version of you?â
satoruâs stomach drops. his grip on you tightens involuntarily, and he feels you notice the tension, your body shifting slightly in his arms.
âheâs been so persistent. yesterday he actually had the audacity to break into our house through the kitchen windowâour kitchen window, satoru, the one with the broken latch you keep forgetting to fix.â your free hand gestures wildly, even though he canât see it from his position behind you. âthankfully, all those self-defense gadgets you made me actually work. that little stun gun you built into my bracelet? absolutely perfect. sent him flying right off our porch.â
the embarrassment hits him like a physical weight. his face burns against your neck, and he has to resist the urge to groan out loud. youâre giving full credit to his inventions, protecting his ego even while describing how youâd defended yourself against him, and the sweetness of it makes his chest ache.
âand the motion sensors you installed last month caught him skulking around the garden at three in the morning,â you continue, oblivious to his mortification. âhonestly, the dedication is almost impressive. stalking behavior aside, you have to admire his commitment to the whole âyoung gojoâ aesthetic. though i have no idea why anyone would want to look like you did in college. you were such a baby-faced disaster back then.â
âi know you know karate,â he blurts out, the words tumbling from his mouth before he can stop them.
you go very still in his arms. the humming stops abruptly.
âwhat?â your voice is carefully neutral, but he can feel the way your shoulders tense, the slight shift in your breathing that means youâre calculating your next move.
âi know you know karate,â he repeats, his face burning hotter against your neck. âyouâve been taking classes since you were twelve. you never told me because you like it when i worry about you enough to make you protection gadgets.â
the silence stretches long enough that he starts to panic. then you let out a long, shaky breath.
âhow could you possibly know that?â your voice is small now, embarrassed in a way that makes him want to wrap you up and apologize for everything. âi never... i was so careful not to...â
your hands try to pull away from his, but he holds on, threading your fingers together. âbecause iâm the boy,â he says quietly. âthe one whoâs been trying to talk to you for two weeks. the one you stunned off the porch and knocked unconscious in our kitchen.â
he feels the exact moment understanding hits you. your entire body goes rigid, and then youâre spinning in his arms so fast he has to step back to avoid a collision with your elbow.
your eyes are wide, your mouth falling open in a perfect âoâ of shock. the blush that spreads across your cheeks is magnificent and mortifying, and he watches you process the implications with the expression of someone whoâs just realized theyâve been caught in the worldâs most embarrassing misunderstanding.
âoh my god,â you whisper, your hands flying up to cover your face. âoh my god, satoru, i am so sorry. i thoughtâwhen he knew things about us, about our private moments, i assumed he was some kind of corporate spy, or maybe a rival scientist whoâd done research on us, orââ
âa stalker,â he supplies gently, reaching up to pull your hands away from your face. âwhich was a completely reasonable assumption, given the circumstances.â
âi called you a discount version of yourself!â your voice cracks with horror. âi told you that you werenât as attractive as my husband! to your face! while you were actually my husband!â
despite everything, satoru canât help but smile at the outrage in your voice. âtechnically, you were defending my honor. it was actually incredibly sweet.â
âsweet?â you squeak, aghast, your palms flattening against his chest like youâre considering shoving him away. but you donât. you stay pressed against him, trembling, overwhelmed.
âi knocked you unconscious with a karate chop!â
âyou have excellent form,â he says solemnly, unable to suppress the tilt of his lips. the memory of you, so fierce, so protective, haunts him in the sweetest wayâa blurred flash of your nightgown fluttering as you moved with such lethal grace. he remembers the precision, the practiced certainty in your strikes, remembers thinking youâd never looked more beautiful than in that moment where you saw him as a threat and chose violence to protect his memory.
it makes his pulse thrum in his throat. it makes him want to sink to his knees and kiss the hand that struck him.
and yet, here you are, groaning, humiliated, burying your face against his chest to escape himâas if heâs not already completely ensnared. his hands settle on your waist, loose but present, fingertips teasing over the soft fabric of your dress, as though reacquainting himself with the privilege of touching you.
he tilts his head, blue eyes gleaming behind his glasses, drinking you in with a reverence that borders on obsession. he catalogues the way you fidget, the way your lashes kiss your cheeks as you refuse to meet his gaze, the heat blooming under your skin.
thereâs a little crease between your eyebrows nowâheâs put it there, just as youâve placed a permanent one on his.
his thumb brushes the edge of your jaw, coaxing you to look at him. âyou kept it from me,â he murmurs, savoring the tremor that passes through you, âbecause you wanted me to keep making you gadgets.â
itâs not a question. he already knows. you told him, so sweetly, so earnestly, when you believed he was a stranger, and he will hold that secret like a pressed flower tucked into the pages of his heart.
âyou think my overprotectiveness is cute?â his voice softens into something breathless, incredulous, dripping with adoration. âyou think itâs cute that i lose sleep making things to keep you safe? that i forget to eat because iâm too busy worrying about you?â
your blush deepens, scorching, and you tug at his shirt like you want to disappear into him. âyou make me the most amazing things when youâre worried about me. and you get this little crease between your eyebrows when youâre focused, and you forget to eat or sleep, but you always remember exactly how i like my coffee, andââ he watches you falter, your words disintegrating into a strangled sound of mortification. âthis is not making me sound less ridiculous. is it?â
âitâs making you sound perfect.â his forehead drops to yours, and he cradles your face like youâre breakable, like youâre the finest piece of machinery heâs ever built.â itâs making you sound like the woman i fell in love withâthe woman whoâs been taking care of me, worrying about me, defending my honor against discount versions of myself.â
his grin sharpens, unable to resist, âand you defended me so well, baby. ânot my husband.â âmy husband is a genius.â âmy husband smells better.â âmy husband has better posture.ââ
he leans in, nipping at your bottom lip, playful, intoxicating. âmy sweet wife. iâve never felt so protected.â
your laugh bursts out of you, watery and full-bodied, your hands rising to cup his cheeks, thumbs brushing over his cheekbones in trembling circles. âi canât believe i spent two weeks beating up my own husband.â
âi canât believe i spent two weeks watching my wife talk about how amazing her husband is while she was actively rejecting me.â his lashes flutter as he leans into your touch, like a cat, like something basking in warmth it had been starved of. âdo you have any idea how confusing that was? i was jealous of myself. i was genuinely, pathetically jealous of the man you married while being the man you married.â
itâs a confession scraped raw from his chest, but youâre laughing properly now, bright and breathless, like youâve been untethered from something heavy. you pepper kisses over his face in rapid, dizzying succession, your lips skating over his brow, his temples, the tip of his nose.
âyouâre such a dork,â you murmur, still cupping his face, like you canât bear to let go of him.
âiâm your dork.â
his voice is rough with want, his pulse tripping over itself as he lets the weight of everything crash into him all at once. his mouth brushes over yours again, lingering, reverent. âand i missed you so much. missed being able to touch you. missed you looking at me like youâre looking at me right now instead of like iâm some creepy teenager with questionable motives.â
âyou are a creepy teenager with questionable motives,â you shoot back, but your words crumble under the softness that creeps into your voice. âyou invented a time machine just so you could spend more time with me.â
âand then immediately wasted two weeks because iâm apparently the only genius in history stupid enough to de-age himself by accident.â
his thumb slides over your bottom lip, unable to resist, unable to stop touching you now that heâs allowed to. his whole body hums with the need to consume you, to drag you inside his bones, to make up for every second heâd lost.
ânot wasted,â you whisper, fierce and tender all at once. ânever wasted. not if it brought you back to me.â
those words detonate inside him, and suddenly the kitchen feels too small, the air too thin. heâs been existing on stolen glances and careful distance for two weeks, watching you from afar, aching with the need to touch you, to kiss you, to prove to himself that youâre real and his and finally within reach again.
âweâve been trying for a baby,â he says hoarsely, the words spilling out before he can stop them. âfor months, and i justâi wasted two weeks, and i canâtâi needââ
you silence him with a kiss, soft and desperate and tasting like the tears youâve both been crying. your hands fist in his shirt, pulling him closer, and he responds by lifting you, setting you on the counter so youâre at eye level, his hands spanning your waist, thumbs tracing circles over the soft fabric of your dress.
âi love you,â you breathe against his mouth. âi love you so much, and iâm so sorry i hurt you, and i missed you, andââ
he kisses you again, deeper this time, pouring two weeks of longing and frustration and desperate love into the contact. you taste like home, like forgiveness, like everything heâs been craving. your legs wrap around his waist, pulling him closer, and he can feel the exact moment you stop thinking and start just feeling, your body melting against his.
his glasses fog up. he doesnât care.
your hair comes loose from its bun, the mechanical clips clattering to the counter, and he tangles his fingers in the silky strands, angling your head to deepen the kiss. you make a soft sound that goes straight through him, and heâs just starting to contemplate the structural integrity of the kitchen counter whenâ
ding.
the oven timer cuts through the moment like a bucket of cold water.
you break apart, both breathing hard, your lips swollen and his hair thoroughly mussed. the pink dress is wrinkled where his hands have been gripping your waist, and thereâs a dazed look in your eyes that makes him want to forget dinner entirely.
âthe pasta,â you say faintly.
âforget the pasta,â he growls, leaning down to press kisses along your neck, finding that spot just below your ear that makes you shiver.
ding. ding. ding.
âitâll burn,â you protest, but your head tilts to give him better access, and your hands are still fisted in his shirt.
he doesnât let you go. not when you say his name, not when you push at his shoulders, not when the oven timer chimes over and over like some petty background character begging for attention in a scene it no longer belongs to.
âdonât mind it,â he breathes against your throat, and it sounds less like a request, more like an instinct, as though there is nothing in this world more irrelevant than a meal when youâre in his arms again.
his lips move along the curve of your neck with reverence, brushing over your pulse, slow at firstâa sweet drag of his mouth, the soft, wet pull of his tongue where your skin is most sensitive. he feels the flutter of your pulse beneath his lips, feels the way your body leans into his as though your bones have decided theyâd rather trust him to hold you upright.
his breathing is uneven, shaky, like heâs on the edge of something heâs been chasing since the day he woke up in that younger body and couldnât touch you the way he needed to. the memory claws at him now, vivid and bitter, that helpless ache of looking like himself and yet being nothing you would want to take in your arms.
you murmur something about the oven again, the protest barely formed, already dissolving into a sigh as he scrapes his teeth lightly along your skin. your hands remain curled in his shirt, not pushing anymore, just clutchingâdesperate, familiar, your fingers twisting into the fabric like youâre scared he might slip away again. his shirt bunches beneath your grip, your nails pressing half-moon shapes into his chest, but he craves the sting of it, the grounding pain of knowing youâre clinging to him, needing him just as much.
âit wonât burn,â he murmurs against your skin, his tongue following the line of your collarbone, his glasses slipping slightly down the bridge of his nose. âitâs a timed self-shut. i programmed it myself. knew this might happen. knew i wouldnât be able to let you go.â
he pushes his glasses up with a quick, practiced nudge of his wrist, never pulling his mouth too far from your skin. he needs to see you. needs to see every part of you. his hands are too busy, too greedy, sliding up the sides of your dress, pushing the soft fabric higher and higher until his fingertips brush the bare skin of your thighs. the dress pools around his wrists as though the fabric is surrendering to him, letting him through.
he feels you shudder when his thumbs trace slow, possessive circles just beneath the hem. he slides his hands further, the cotton dragging over your skin as if the dress itself is a barrier heâs grown to despise. âbeen thinking about this for two weeks. touching you. feeling you. not some memoryâyou. this body.â
the tremble in your breath is sharp, palpable, sinking into his bones. your voice hitches when he catches your earlobe between his teeth, when he sucks lightly, as if tasting something he already knows belongs to him. his hands splay wide over your thighs, his touch more sure, more demanding now as though every second he isnât inside you is unbearable. his fingertips trail along the curve of your legs, memorizing the heat and texture of your skin with the same focus he gives his researchâmeticulous, thorough, consumed by the need to understand everything.
he pushes his glasses up again, quick and automatic, the weight of them a familiar anchor as his vision sharpens, as though seeing you this clearly makes the need inside him all the more unbearable. he tilts his head just enough to see your lashes flutter, to watch your lips part around his name, and the sight burns into him with perfect clarity.
when his hands find your waist again, he isnât gentle. his grip is firm, grounding, as though if he doesnât hold you tight enough, you might vanish all over again. he tugs you back against him, hips flush to yours, and he canât suppress the groan that punches out of him when he feels how warm you are, even through his jeans.
the heat of you burns into him, through the thin fabric, the kind of contact that makes his head spin. his cock twitches against the rough denim, aching, pulsing, a frustration thatâs been building since the second he lost the chance to touch you properly.
âyouâre not gonna let me feed you first?â you manage, but the breathless curl in your voice betrays you.
âyouâre feeding me now,â he says, dragging his hands to your hips and grinding against you, slow and deliberate, a filthy drag of friction that has you gasping into his shoulder. heâs gone two weeks without thisâwithout your heat, without your weight against him, without the sweetness of your mouth pressed to his.
his mouth captures yours again, the kiss messy and open-mouthed, his tongue chasing yours as though he might starve if he stops. he canât get enough of you, canât bear the distance, canât stand the thought of pulling away, not even to breathe.
âbut dinnerââ
âitâs fine,â he murmurs, almost a laugh. âitâll shut off on its own. you canât burn anything while iâm loving you. made sure of it.â
his mouth moves lower, down the line of your throat, tasting the salt on your skin, the way you shiver when he noses along the curve of your shoulder. he kisses the delicate dip where your neck meets your shoulder, over and over, as though he could mark you with nothing but his mouth.
his hand slides beneath your dress again, impatient now, pushing your panties aside without ceremony. his fingertips graze your folds, and he sucks in a breath through his teethâwet, already, and his chest tightens with something ugly and possessive because youâve missed him just as much. the feel of you, the heat, the slick glide of his fingers dragging through your arousalâit short-circuits something in him. his jaw clenches, his breath stutters, and he presses his forehead to your shoulder to anchor himself.
âfuck, baby,â he whispers, his voice breaking apart, âlook at you. missed me that much? couldnât wait?â
his touch lingers there, gentle for a moment, tracing, teasing, his middle finger dipping to circle where youâre already aching for him. his other arm curls around your waist, holding you firm against him when your knees nearly give out. he rubs slow circles until youâre grinding into his hand, chasing the friction like you canât stand the distance anymore. youâre warm and soft and trembling under his touch, your hips rolling helplessly, your breath hitching every time he circles just a little harder.
âsatoru,â you whimper, half a plea, half a warning, but youâre already folding into him, already falling apart.
ââm here now,â he murmurs, guiding you to turn around, pressing your hands to the countertop, his body crowding you from behind. âiâm right here. gonna take care of you. gonna fuck you just like you need.â
he kisses your shoulder, slow and lingering, as though tasting your skin could imprint you deeper into him. the curve of your spine rises beneath his mouth, the faint tremble under his lips pulling something raw and animal out of him. he presses into you, his chest solid to your back, his hands smoothing over the fabric of your dress as if his touch alone could brand you as his, as if holding you like this might anchor him to this moment forever.
his jeans rasp against the softness of your thighs, each rock of his hips a little rougher, a little more desperate as he grinds against you. the friction is maddening. it makes him hiss through his teeth, makes his fingers dig into your waist like he needs to memorize the shape of you beneath his palms. when he reaches for his belt, itâs with the shaky impatience of a man on the edge of breaking. the buckle fights him, the leather dragging through the loops in a way that feels insufferably slow, and his breathing stutters, uneven, desperate.
âhurry,â you pant, your voice wrecked and pleading, your hips grinding back against him in small, frantic circles. âplease, satoru, please⊠i need you now.â
he lets out a low curse when he finally frees himself, the tip of his cock dragging through your slick folds with a helpless groan as though even that brief touch is too much, too good, too long overdue. âfuck, baby, youâre soaked,â he breathes, half-crazed, his chest pressed tight to your back. âmissed me this much, huh?â
âmissed everything,â you gasp, your hands fisting around the edge of the counter, nails digging into the wood. âmissed you. your voice, your hands⊠your cock. please, please donât tease.â
he doesnât wait. he canât. he pushes into you in one, long, slow thrust, inch by aching inch, feeling you stretch and give around him, until heâs seated as deep as you can take him. the tight, wet squeeze of you makes his breath falter, a shudder wracking his frame, his body folding over you as his hands scramble for your waist, clutching like youâre the only tether left holding him to the earth.
âfuck⊠so full,â you whimper, your voice breaking on a gasp. âgod, satoru⊠so good⊠i needed this⊠i needed you.â
he adjusts his glasses with a quick, shaky push, his vision sharpening just in time to burn the sight of you into memoryâthe delicate arch of your spine, the way your fingers clench around the countertop, the way your hips fit perfectly in his hands like you were carved just for him. the view sears itself into him, and the weight of it nearly drives him to the edge.
âshit⊠you feel like home,â he rasps, his voice fraying at the edges, his hands tightening until his knuckles ache. he pulls out slow, savoring the sweet, unbearable friction that drags along every nerve in his cock, only to slam back in with a force that steals his breath. again. and again. a steady, greedy pace that grows frantic under the pressure of his need.
the wet slap of skin against skin fills the kitchen, tangled with his ragged breathing and the soft, gasping sounds you make beneath him, each one sinking into him, winding tighter and tighter inside his ribs.
âoh, fuck, satoruâŠâ you cry out, each thrust knocking the air from your lungs, your body meeting his with a desperate rhythm. âdonât stop⊠please, donât stop⊠you feel so good, so deep⊠i canât think⊠i canât think when youâre fucking me like this.â
he leans over you, his chest pressed to your back, his breath hot and ragged against your ear as he drives into you with desperate force. his lips brush over the shell of your ear, trailing kisses down your neck as though his mouth canât bear to leave your skin for more than a second. he mutters your name between each kiss, like a mantra, like it might steady him.
âyouâre mine,â he pants, his words shivering with the strain of holding himself together. he kisses along your shoulder, his pace only faltering when his hips grind deep, seeking more, always more. âiâm not wasting another second, baby. iâm gonna⊠fuck, iâm gonna⊠iâm gonna make you feel me for days.â
âi already do,â you sob, your head tipping back against his shoulder, tears blurring your vision as you clutch his hand where it grips your waist. âyouâre everywhere⊠youâre all i can feel⊠all i want⊠please, satoru, please donât stopâŠâ
his hand snakes between your thighs, his fingers circling your clit with practiced pressure, coaxing you to squeeze around him, to shatter for him. âcome on, baby⊠let me feel you⊠let me feel you fall apart for me.â
âsatoru⊠satoru, please, iâm so close⊠fuck⊠fuck⊠donât stop, i need⊠i needâŠâ
he groans low in his throat when your walls pulse around him, his body bucking forward like the sensation has stolen the air from his lungs. his other hand glides over your stomach, over the dip of your waist, greedy for the heat of your skin beneath the thin barrier of your dress. he wants to memorize every inch of you, wants to claim you in ways his body canât quite articulate.
he buries his face in the curve of your neck, his lips brushing against the frantic pulse at your throat, his nose pressed against your skin as he breathes you in like oxygen. âtalk to me,â he breathes, desperate, hoarse, the words scraping out like they cost him. âtell me you missed me. tell me iâm the only one who gets to touch you like this. tell me youâre mine.â
âyours,â you cry out, wrecked and breathless. âiâve always been yours⊠satoru, fuck⊠youâre the only one⊠i missed you⊠i missed you so much⊠i canât⊠i canât do this without you⊠please, donât let me go.â
âfuck, youâre so good for me,â he groans, the sound ragged and raw, and he ruts into you harder, the snap of his hips relentless as he chases you both toward the inevitable edge. âyouâre perfect⊠fuck, baby, youâre perfect.â
âiâm⊠iâm coming⊠satoru, please⊠iâmââ
he doesnât stop. he canât. not until he feels you clench around him, feels you fall apart, your body trembling as you come, your voice cracking on his name like itâs a prayer youâve been holding in for days. the sensation of you pulsing around him, pulling him deeper, drags a broken groan from his chest, and only then does he finally let go.
he thrusts deep, emptying himself inside you with a raw, gasping sound, his entire body shivering with the force of it. his release comes in thick waves, like his body refuses to let you go, like itâs been waiting for this, for you, to finally come home to him.
âdonât⊠donât pull out,â you whimper, your voice small and trembling, your hands covering his where he grips your hips. âplease, i want⊠i want to feel you⊠please, satoru⊠please stayâŠâ
he doesnât pull out. not yet. he stays there, his chest heaving against your back, his hips pressing tight to yours, as though his body could fuse to yours if he just holds on long enough. his hand slides over your stomach, his thumb brushing the fabric of your dress, his heart thundering against your spine. he wants to stay connected, to keep his body wrapped around you until the heat subsides, until the trembling quiets.
he kisses you there, the soft curve of your shoulder, his lips dragging lazy, reverent paths over your skin, savoring the tremble still coursing through you. âgonna keep you like this,â he murmurs, his voice low, thick with something that sounds almost reverent. âgonna keep you full, baby. not wasting anything.â
his hands rub slow, soothing circles into your hips, but his cock still twitches inside you, the heat of you pulling him under all over again. he presses his mouth to your spine, trailing soft, possessive kisses up to the back of your neck, his body vibrating with the hum of restless energy that refuses to ebb. itâs not enough. itâll never be enough. he wants to keep going until the lines between you blur completely, until you forget where he ends and you begin.
he leans in, his voice breathless but steady now, a vow he lays against your skin. âthisâŠâ he pants, rolling his hips slowly, deliberately, still buried deep inside you, âthis is just the start. not letting you go. not for the rest of the night.â
âdonât let go,â you whisper, arching back into him, your fingers sliding over his as though you might trap him there. âdonât stop⊠please, satoru⊠donât stopâŠâ
his grip tightens, grounding you to him like heâs afraid you might dissolve between his fingers. âbaby, you donât even know how much iâve missed you yet.â
he rolls his hips again, savoring the drag, savoring the stretch, savoring the way you arch back into him like youâre already craving more. itâs a promiseâa warningâthat he isnât stopping any time soon. his hands smooth over your sides, up to your ribs, coaxing more sounds from you, coaxing more of you to open for him. his lips hover just behind your ear, his breath brushing warm against your skin as he begins to move again, slowly building the next wave, chasing the next collapse.
he hums against you, pleased, almost smug, as you tremble beneath him. âlet me make up for lost time, baby. iâm not done. not even close.â
âpleaseâŠâ itâs the only thing you can form nowâbroken, breathless. your hands tremble as you try to hold onto him, your fingers sliding helplessly against his shirt like you might fall apart without the anchor of his touch.
he tilts his head just enough to kiss the hinge of your jaw, his pace unhurried but determined. âiâve got you,â he murmurs, his voice soft even as his body hums with something feral. âall night, baby. all night to love you, to fill you, to put our baby right where it belongs.â
he pulls out with a sharp, deliberate drag, leaving you clenching around nothing, and without giving you a moment to protest, he hauls you up, one arm locking under your thighs, the other cradling your back. you cling to him instinctively, barely able to breathe as he carries you to the bedroom, his grip rough, his breathing uneven, his jaw clenched tight with restraint heâs barely holding onto.
he drops you onto the bed, his hands instantly on you, yanking your dress up over your head in one swift, tearing motion, discarding it somewhere behind him. his glasses slip lower on his nose, his blue eyes molten and sharp behind the lenses, devouring the sight of youâmessy, flushed, gasping. you reach for him, your lips parted, your throat working around the desperate sound that tumbles outâa soft, helpless âpleaseâŠâ
his hands slam your wrists to the mattress, his body caging you in, his cock thick and heavy as he grinds against your soaked entrance. âshh, baby,â he whispers, his voice trembling as he tries to gentle himself. âiâve got you. youâre not going anywhere. iâm gonna take care of you.â
he refuses to take off his glasses. he wants to see everythingâevery tear that slips from your lashes, every tremble in your lips, every mindless sound that breaks from your throat. his gaze stays locked on you, even as his cock pushes inside you in one deep, devastating thrust.
âyouâre mine,â he breathes, voice ragged, the words shivering apart as he bottoms out inside you. he can feel your walls flutter around him, clenching as though your body is desperate to hold him in, to keep him there. your body jolts beneath him, legs wrapping instinctively around his waist, dragging him deeper. your moan punches out, breathless, pleading, the only thing you seem capable of now. your hands cling to him, fingers clawing at his shirt like youâre trying to root yourself to him, as if the only thing anchoring you to the world is the brutal drag of his cock inside you.
his glasses slip slightly down his nose, fogging at the edges, but he refuses to push them up. he needs to see you, needs to burn every detail into his memoryâthe way your eyes glaze over, the tremble in your lips, the tear that slips from the corner of your eye. he wants to remember this: the raw, unguarded way you fall apart for him, the mindless way you beg him, the frantic rise and fall of your chest as you gasp for breath.
he drives into you again, harder, faster, each brutal thrust forcing the breath from your lungs, forcing more of those broken, needy noises out of you. the sound of skin slapping against skin echoes in the room, tangled with the ragged rhythm of his breathing and the choked cries that tumble from your lips. your hands scramble at his arms, your nails clawing into his sleeves, but you canât find the words anymore. all thatâs left is âpleaseâŠâ and the sobs that fall apart between the sharp snaps of his hips.
âi know, baby,â he pants, his breath hot and frantic against your skin, his voice frayed with restraint thatâs slipping fast. âi know what you need. you need me to fuck my baby into you, right? need me to keep you so full you canât think of anything else? need me to fill you until itâs all you can feel?â
âpleaseâŠâ it spills from your throat again, almost a cry, your body tightening around him as though your own muscles are begging him to stay.
âiâll give it to you,â he promises, soft, reverent, though the brutal rhythm of his hips betrays him. âiâll make you a mama, baby. gonna make sure you canât hold anything but me. gonna make sure youâre mine forever.â
he shifts, pulling your knees up to your chest, folding you underneath him, locking you into a perfect mating press. the angle punches another sob from you, your back arching, your legs trembling around his ribs. he presses his chest to yours, his mouth dragging over your ear, your jaw, his voice trembling with sweetness that contrasts the feral rhythm of his body.
âyouâre doing so good, baby,â he breathes, kissing your temple, tasting the salt of your tears. âtaking me so well. you want it, donât you? want me to fill you? wanna be round with my baby? wanna feel me every time you move?â
your answer is a mindless moan, another tear slipping from the corner of your eye, your lips barely able to shape the one word thatâs left in you: âtoru...â
he hums against your skin, his cock grinding impossibly deeper. âthatâs it, sweet girl. iâll fill you up⊠keep you so full you wonât even remember what it feels like to be empty. iâll make sure youâre carrying me by the time iâm done. iâll fuck you so deep that my baby wonât have anywhere else to go.â
his hips slam into you harder, faster, sharp and bruising. you sob beneath him, clutching him, helpless against the rhythm thatâs shaking you apart. his voice stays painfully soft, cradling you through it. ânot wasting a single drop. iâm gonna fuck you until youâre mine. until youâre pregnant. until thereâs nothing left but me inside you.â
âwant itâŠâ
his mouth crashes over yours, swallowing your cries, his kiss frantic, messy, desperate. youâre shaking under him, the overstimulation shredding your mind, your body trembling violently, your sobs trapped against his tongue as you beg him wordlessly to keep going, to never stop.
âthatâs it,â he whispers, his voice breaking as he chases his release. âthatâs it, baby. take it. take it all. take everything i give you.â
he folds you even tighter, pressing so deep you can feel him in places you didnât know could ache. your orgasm crashes over you again, sharp and blinding, your body convulsing around him, your voice lost to the desperate gasp that splits from your lips. and he breaks with you, thrusting deep as he spills inside you, his cock pulsing hard with every grind, his breath faltering, his voice catching as he pants, âgonna make you mine⊠gonna make you a mama⊠gonna keep you full⊠keep you right here⊠where you belong.â
but he doesnât stop.
he keeps grinding, his cock still thick, twitching inside you, his hands trembling where they hold your legs open, determined to keep every drop right where it belongs.
ânot done,â he breathes, kissing your cheek, your temple, his voice sweet and low, shaking with the weight of how much he still wants you. ânot done with you yet, baby. not until i know. not until iâm sure. not until youâre really mine.â
he rolls his hips again, deliberately, drawing out the stretch, dragging out the feeling, coaxing more choked gasps from you. your body arches weakly into him, clinging, helpless to do anything but take him.
âshh, sweet girl, iâve got you. iâll give you everything. iâll fill you over and over until you canât hold anything but me. iâll give you so much youâll feel me dripping down your thighs when i finally let you go.â
he drags his cock out slowly, savoring the sensation, just to slam back in, forcing another sharp cry from you, your legs trembling where they bracket his ribs.
âyou feel so good like this,â he murmurs, his words melting against your skin. âso good and warm and perfect. iâm gonna keep going, baby. you can take it, right? youâll let me, wonât you? youâll let me make you mine, over and over, until thereâs no space left for anything else?â
a needy whine is all you can give him now, but itâs all he needs.
he smiles against your cheek, soft and breathless, his glasses slipping lower as he kisses you again, his lips trembling against yours. âi know, baby. i know. iâll take care of everything. iâll make sure our baby takes. iâll make sure youâre mine⊠iâll make sure youâre full. iâll keep going until you canât think about anything but meâŠâ
his pace builds again, steady, deep, his hands stroking your sides, his voice staying low, unbearably tender as he destroys you beneath him.
âiâll give you all of me, sweet girl,â he promises, his voice cracking even as he drives for more. âall of me. again and again. until youâre carrying me⊠until youâre round with our baby. until you canât breathe without thinking about me inside you.â
he shifts his weight, dragging his cock out just enough to thrust deep again, coaxing more desperate cries from you, his breathing rough as his chest brushes yours, his glasses fogged and slipping. his hands tremble where they hold you open, where they keep you pinned beneath him, where they swear to never let you go, as if letting go would unravel him entirely.
âiâll fill you until you canât take anymore,â he whispers, his voice raw, his lips dragging along your jaw, his breath hot and uneven. âiâll give you so much youâll feel me for days, baby. youâll feel me dripping out of you every time you stand, every time you move. youâll feel me inside you every second, every breath, every heartbeat. there wonât be a moment youâre not full of me.â
he slows down just enough to let you breathe, just enough to kiss you, just enough to hear the soft, breathy whimpers that melt into his skin. his glasses are crooked, fogged, his hair clinging to his forehead in damp strands. his lips brush yours, tasting of desperation, tasting of love, tasting of the ache heâs carried through endless nights, his body pressed flush against yours as if he could sink into you, as if he could live inside you if he tried hard enough.
âbaby,â he pants, voice trembling, his hand brushing your cheek, lingering there, âroll over for me, yeah? wanna see you all pretty on your hands and knees, wanna see your ass all messy for me, wanna watch you fall apart just for me.â
his words make you shudder beneath him, make your thighs twitch, but you listen, your limbs shaky as you roll over, his hands never leaving you, his palms gliding down your waist, over your hips, steady, grounding, helping you position yourself just right. he murmurs soft praises as he lines you up, kisses pressed to the nape of your neck, to the soft curve of your shoulder, to the swell of your back as you settle on all fours, your face buried in the pillows, your breath already ragged.
âthatâs it, pretty girl,â he croons, his voice thick with awe, his eyes roving over your trembling form like he canât believe youâre his. âlook at you, taking me so well. made for me, baby, yeah? your body was made for me, just to take me, just to fall apart on my cock.â
his hand slips between your thighs, his long fingers gathering your slick, coating them generously before pressing two inside you alongside his cock, working you open, stretching you around him until the burn makes you sob into the sheets, makes your hips jerk helplessly, makes you whine from the fullness, from how stuffed you are, the overwhelming stretch making tears prick at your lashes.
your knuckles turn white where you grip the sheets, trembling under the weight of him, under the delicious ache of him, your breath hitching with every slow curl of his fingers inside you. your thighs twitch, thighs spread obediently despite the tremble overtaking them, your skin fever-hot where his palms ground you in place.
his other hand steadies your hips, thumb tracing slow, grounding circles against your skin, his palm firm, his grip sinking into the plush of your waist like heâs afraid youâll float away if he loosens it even for a second. his hair clings to his forehead in damp, clumpy strands, his cheeks flushed a lovely pink, his glasses slipping lower on his nose, fogged to uselessness but still perched stubbornly there, framing the feverish glint in his eyes.
his lips brush kisses to the curve of your spine, down to the small of your back, each press soft and lingering, like heâs tethering you to him with every touch, like he needs to brand himself into you, to make you feel him everywhere, in every breath, in every heartbeat.
âshh, youâre doing so good,â he breathes, his voice trembling with restraint, placing a tender kiss to the dip of your waist. âso good for me, baby. youâre perfect, yâknow that? so perfect when youâre stuffed full of me. i love watching you stretch around me, love feeling you clench when iâm this deep inside you. itâs like your body was made to hold me. you were made to be mine.â
he slides his fingers out slowly, savoring the slick sound, savoring the way your walls flutter around him like youâre begging him to fill you again. your thighs tremble, your hips rocking back in search of him, your breath shuddering as you whine, pitiful and overwhelmed, lips parted, drooling onto the pillow.
the needy arch of your spine makes his chest squeeze, makes his cock throb painfully, makes him press flush against you as he grinds back in, deep and unhurried, pushing as far as he can go, his pace slow but devastating, each thrust a deliberate drag against every sensitive spot that makes you gasp, makes you sob into the pillows.
âthatâs it, baby,â he groans, his head falling forward, his damp fringe sticking to his temple, his glasses slipping to the very tip of his nose before he finally pushes them off and tosses them blindly aside. âevery time i fuck you like this, you just take me so good, like youâre meant to. you were made to take me, werenât you? made to fall apart on my cock, yeah?â
his kisses grow more feverish, his lips dragging across your shoulders, the plane of your back, his tongue flicking along the salt of your skin as he grinds deeper, sinking lower with each thrust, each snap of his hips making you whine, making your hands claw weakly at the sheets. he listens to every gasp, every cry, every broken plea you bury into the pillows, savoring the tremble of your thighs, the collapse of your arms, the desperate way you push back into him, chasing the delicious pressure.
then he leans over, his chest pressing against your back until his lips find yours, capturing you in a desperate, clumsy kiss. itâs messy, wet, more panting and whining than kissing, but he drinks every sound from your lips like heâs starving, like he canât bear to be separated from any part of you. his tongue traces yours, coaxing you into the kiss even as his hips grind into you harder, even as your knees threaten to buckle beneath him, your soft whimpers muffled against his mouth.
âdonât hide from me, pretty girl,â he murmurs between kisses, his breath hot against your lips, his voice honey-sweet and reverent even as he rocks into you deeper. âwanna hear you, wanna feel you, wanna kiss you while you fall apart on me. every sound you make is mine. every little sob, every little plea, mine.â
he chases your orgasm with grinding thrusts, with soft praises that melt into your skin, with kisses that sear into you, that drag along the curve of your spine, that brand you as his. his hands roam across your waist, your sides, your belly, squeezing and caressing as if memorizing the softness of you. and when you come, when your body clamps down around him like a vice, when you tremble and sob against his mouth, he doesnât stop. he swallows every desperate sound, his pace never faltering, his grip on your hips tightening as he drives through the aftershocks, pulling even more cries from your swollen lips.
âyou can take it,â he pants, fucking you through the tremors, his voice shaking with the force of his own unraveling. âyouâre doing so good, baby, youâre perfect, youâre perfect, fuck, youâre made for me. made to take me, yeah? you can give me another, canât you? just one more, pretty girl. just one more.â
his hips snap forward harder, more erratic, his sleeper build fully activated as his fingers dig bruises into your waist, as he holds you steady even as your arms give out, even as you collapse onto the bed, your cheek mashed against the pillow, your body trembling with every rough, desperate thrust. your breath hiccups, your body limp, overstimulated, but he keeps going, keeps coaxing more from you with each deep grind, dragging out your high until your thighs shake uncontrollably.
but he doesnât stop. his grip doesnât falter. his praises donât cease.
he kisses the sweat-slick skin of your back, he whispers against your shoulder, he keeps telling you how good you are, how you were made for him, how heâll fill you until youâre overflowing, until youâre leaking with him, until you canât hold it all, until you feel him dripping down your thighs, until itâs all you can feel.
âso good, baby, youâre so good,â he breathes, his voice cracking on the edges, as if your name is the only thing keeping him tethered to this moment. âmy sweet girl, my pretty baby, taking me so well. fuck, youâre made for me, youâre perfect.â
he chases his own end with frantic, desperate thrusts, with the wet, obscene slap of skin against skin, with the ragged breath of a man who has no intention of stopping until heâs poured every last drop of himself into you. his fingers flex against your waist, his lips never leaving you, his rhythm a frantic, beautiful mess, his voice breaking with every curse, every sweet nothing he pours into your skin.
and when he finally shatters, when his body tenses and he spills inside you, he groans your name like a prayer, like a curse, like a plea, his hands trembling where they clutch you, his kisses never stopping, his words still tumbling in a broken, reverent stream.
âso good, baby, youâre so good, youâre mine, youâre mine, youâre mine. gonna keep you like this, gonna keep you full, just like this, just like youâre meant to be. wanna see it drip down those pretty thighs.â
his body finally stills, but his hands never leave you, his lips never stop pressing soft, lingering kisses to your back, to your shoulders, to your waist, holding you close as if you might slip away if he lets go.
he stays inside you, buried to the hilt, his breathing shaky, his heart hammering wildly against your spine, his hair clinging to his damp forehead, his cheeks flushed and glowing, his arms curling around your middle to hold you tight, to anchor himself to you, to prolong this feeling of being so deeply connected.
he whispers to you softly now, praises spilling between kisses, his touch gentle but insistent, a man desperate to stay connected, to stay tethered to you in every way he can. his fingertips trace slow, lazy circles against your belly, memorizing the feel of your skin, of your warmth, the little trembles that still ripple through you.
âiâll fill you up again,â he promises, his voice hoarse and full of love. âiâll give you more, baby. you can take it. you always take me so well. iâll keep you like this all night if you let me. just wanna keep you close, keep you mine.â
slowly, he shifts, carefully pulling out, his breath catching at the sight of his spend slipping out of you, leaving a glistening trail along your thighs. he groans softly, pressing a kiss to your lower back, savoring the tremble that runs through you. his thumb brushes over the mark he left there, tracing lazy circles as if to soothe the ache, as if to seal his touch into your skin.
he gently turns you over, cradling your waist, lifting you like you weigh nothing, his strong arms wrapping around you as if youâre something precious. he sits himself at the edge of the bed with you settled in his lap, your shaky thighs straddling him, your chest pressed to his, your breath still hitching as you try to find your footing in the aftermath, your arms barely strong enough to wrap around his shoulders.
his cock, still heavy, still hard, nudges against your entrance, and he shudders at the heat, at the way your body clings to him instinctively, like you never want to let him go. his hands slide over your hips, steadying you, his thumbs brushing slow circles into your skin, his touch reverent, patient, as if savoring the weight of you in his lap.
âcome on, pretty girl,â he murmurs, his breath hot against your lips, his voice thick with sweetness and filth, his cerulean eyes glazed with adoration and hunger. âsit on me, yeah? just like this. let me keep you full a little longer. let me feel you, just a little more.â
he guides you down onto him, slow and patient, his large hands warm and steady on your waist as he lowers you inch by inch, savoring the sweet stretch, savoring the tremble that overtakes you as he fills you again, deeper this time, more deliberate, until his hips meet yours with a satisfying press.
your breath hitches, a sharp whimper escaping you, your head falling heavily to his shoulder as you struggle to accommodate him, your body straining around the overwhelming stretch, your fingers digging desperately into the firm muscles of his shoulders, clinging to him like youâll drown without him.
his breath stutters at the heat of you, at how impossibly tight you are despite how many times heâs already filled you tonight. his pale hair clings damp to his temple, the ends curling from sweat, his cheeks flushed a tender pink, his lips parted and trembling as he exhales shaky, desperate breaths against your ear. his lashes flutter, his throat bobs with every ragged swallow, his entire frame taut, his biceps trembling where they hold you steady, straining to keep his composure, to keep his pace slow, to savor every second inside you.
his hands never leave you, one sliding to cradle your waist, the other splaying wide across your trembling back, as if to press you closer, to anchor you to him, to mold you to his body, to ensure that not even a breath of space separates you. he peppers kisses along your temple, the shell of your ear, your hairline, your jaw, his lips soft but insistent, his voice a low, reverent murmur that vibrates against your skin, as though heâs reciting a prayer only you can hear.
âlook at you, baby,â he breathes, pulling back just enough to cradle your cheek in his palm, his thumb brushing away the stray tear that slips down your flushed skin. his ocean eyes are hazy, glassy with tenderness, with something so raw it tightens his throat and makes his breath stutter. âfuck, youâre so pretty when youâre falling apart for me. gonna let me keep you here all night, right? yeah? just like this, full of me. canât let you go. donât want to.â
his other hand curls into the nape of your neck, fingers threading through the damp strands of your hair, guiding your forehead to his, breath mingling, lips brushing as he steals soft, lingering kisses between his words, as if he canât stop, as if heâs starving for you, as if kissing you is the only way he can breathe.
you can only whimper in response, the weight of him, the stretch of him, too much and not enough, your body trembling with the need to give him more, to feel him deeper, to be good for him, to make him proud, to belong to him.
his hands slide back to your waist, his grip steady but gentle as he begins to guide you, controlling your pace, moving you over him in slow, agonizing rolls. his thumbs draw slow, grounding circles into your heated skin, coaxing you to move, to ride him, to fall apart for him again. each time you rock your hips, you shudder, your breath catching on a sob, but he holds you steady, keeps you grounded, murmuring sweet words against your skin.
âshh, iâve got you, baby. youâre doing so good,â he praises, pressing his forehead to yours, his breath shaky, his lips brushing yours between soft, trembling kisses. his silver lashes flutter with every slight tremble of his hips beneath you, his whole body trembling with restraint, with devotion, with the overwhelming need to stay inside you, to keep you close, to never let you go.
âyou can do it, pretty girl,â he whispers, his voice low and rough, savoring every inch, every trembling grind of your hips. âjust like that. take your time. iâve got you. youâre mine. my sweet girl. let me take care of you. let me feel you just a little more.â
your thighs quiver, your movements sluggish and shaky, your whole body threatening to collapse from how sensitive you are, but he holds you, supports you, his hands never faltering as he coaxes you through it, guiding you with soft murmurs, with kisses pressed between your brows, against your fluttering eyelids, against the damp corner of your mouth. his hands roam your back, your ribs, your hips, memorizing the tremble of your skin, the heat of your body, the way you melt so completely into his lap, pliant and sweet.
he watches you, breathless, overwhelmed by how perfect you are, by how much he wants to keep you like this, forever tethered to him, wrapped around him, so utterly his. he savors the little gasps you give him, the soft hiccups in your breath, the desperate way you cling to him even when your body begs for rest, even when you sob softly into his shoulder, overwhelmed but unable to stop, unwilling to pull away.
when you finally falter, too sensitive, too overwhelmed to keep going, your movements slowing to weak, trembling shifts of your hips, he wraps his arms tightly around your waist and takes over, holding you close, keeping you flush against his chest as he grinds up into you in slow, deliberate rolls of his hips, savoring the sweet friction, savoring the little broken sounds you spill against his skin.
his pace is gentle but insistent, dragging sweet friction between your bodies, pulling broken moans from your lips, savoring the way you clutch at him, your fingers knotting in his damp hair, your head buried in his neck like heâs the only thing keeping you whole, the only place you feel safe, the only place you want to be. he feels your nails dig into his skin, your body trembling in his hold, but you donât pull away. you press closer.
âthatâs it, baby, iâve got you,â he breathes, his voice cracking, trembling with the force of his own need, his own love. âjust let me take care of you. just hold on to me. weâll come together, okay? just like this. iâve got you. iâve always got you.â
his forehead presses to yours again, his lips parting to steal soft, desperate kisses, his hands trembling where they clutch you, his chest heaving as he rolls his hips deeper, slower, grinding against every sensitive spot inside you, savoring the desperate whines you spill against his mouth, savoring how you melt completely in his arms.
his voice is little more than a whisper now, ragged and broken, his praises melting into your skin as he rocks into you, chasing the edge with you pressed so sweetly against him, his breathing erratic, his kisses clumsy and endless.
âcome with me, baby,â he pleads, his voice thick with love, with need, with desperation, his lips brushing yours as his hands tighten around your waist. âplease. just like this. i need to feel you. i need you. just like this. donât let go.â
you fall apart in his arms, your sobs trembling against his lips, your fingers tangling desperately in his hair as you cling to him, as you come so sweetly, so completely, your body shuddering in his hold, your thighs twitching, your hips stuttering as you grind against him, desperate to draw out the bliss.
he follows soon after, groaning your name like itâs a prayer, like itâs the only word he knows, his hips stuttering as he pours into you, as he holds you impossibly closer, as if he could fuse you to him, as if he could keep you here forever.
when you finally go limp in his arms, when your soft, exhausted breath fans against his neck, he holds you there, cradling you against his chest, his fingers stroking soothing lines along your spine. his hands slide to your thighs, rubbing slow circles, grounding you, savoring the weight of you in his lap, the softness of you, the way you fit so perfectly in his hold, the way you feel like home.
he presses soft kisses to your temple, to your hairline, to your shoulder, his breath warm against your skin, his lips tender and slow, as if he could never kiss you enough, as if he could never hold you long enough.
âso good, baby,â he whispers, his voice thick with tenderness. âmy pretty girl. my sweet girl. we can stay like this, yeah? just like this. just you and me. i donât need anything else.â
he buries his face in the crook of your neck, his breathing finally beginning to steady, his arms curling tighter around you, his whole body relaxing, melting into you as though he could sink into your skin and stay there forever.
you nod weakly, nuzzling into his neck, your lashes damp, your body pliant and warm against him. your arms loop lazily around his shoulders, fingers brushing the nape of his neck, and he presses one last kiss to your temple, one last kiss to your hairline, and he smiles against your skin, utterly content, utterly in love.
neither of you move. neither of you speak. youâre both too tired, too soft, too wrapped in each other to care about anything else, not even the cold dinner waiting in the kitchen.
âweâll eat later,â he hums, his lips curling against your skin, his voice warm, tender, content. âjust wanna stay here a little longer. just wanna keep you close. thatâs all i need.â
his arms tighten around you as he buries his face in your shoulder, breathing you in, his body melting into yours, savoring the weight, the warmth, the softness of having you so completely, so entirely his.
















