あの笑顔に会いに行くよ。

song : VOiCE

music & lyrics : ラヴリーP / Lovely-P

translation : hitosukui

切なく降り積もる雪のように眩しすぎて  儚く解けてゆく音のように泣かずにいるよ

Just like the miserable snow piling up, it's too dazzling Just like this fleeting melting sound, I will not cry

何も無いと思っていた けれど実は辛く苦しく  長い階段上り疲れ　やっと会えると思ったのに

I thought it was nothing, but the truth is that it's really painful Tired of ascending those long stairs, I thought I'd meet you at last

もう居ないのね　受け止められず  しかたないから　このsong聴こうか

But you're not here anymore I'm unable to accept it It can't be helped, so Shall we listen to this song?

今何してるの、何したいの　俺はここだ  メッセージ伝えるよ　愛してた　いや、愛してる

What are you doing right now? What do you want to do? I am right here I'll deliver this message: I loved.. no, I love you

何かあると思っていた　身振り手振り意味も無くて

I thought there was something Gestures without any meaning

あの温もりと　あの優しさが  無いのだからもう　このsong聴こうか

That warmth, and that kindness Are no longer here, so Shall we listen to this song?

辛いよ　切ないよ　寂しいよ　苦しいよ　泣きたいよ  ありがとう言う前にごめん　を言わずにあーあ

It's so heart-breaking, so suffocating, so lonely, so painful, I want to cry Saying "thank you" without saying "sorry" before, aah

[SLT]   I'm enduring it, I'm enduring it But my feelings... constantly... There is a place to go home to. But my feelings are... Different, different, different. At last... at last... finally... Finally smiled.

今何してるの、何したいの　俺はここだ  メッセージ伝えるよ　愛してる

What are you doing right now? What do you want to do? I am right here I'll deliver this message: I love you

切なく降り積もる雪のように眩しすぎて  強く生きてゆく花のように幸せになれ

Just like the miserable snow piling up, it's too dazzling Just like a strongly living flower, be happy

[SLT]

song : ブルータウン｜BLUETOWN

music & lyrics : 上北 健 (Kamikita Ken) / KK

translation : hitosukui

人にだけ許された、綴ること、伝えること。 さやさやと過ぎる川の音、青の境界、瞬きの数。 無関心と主張の波。飲まれていく自分の軌跡。 遅くないうち取り返すのさ、大切な人に残せるまで。

Those abilities granted only to humans. Being able to spell, being able to tell The sound of the river passing by, the blue boundary, the number of twinkling. Waves of indifference and assertion. Being drowned in my own trajectory. I will recover it without delay, until I can leave it with important people.

まだ負けられないんだと、来る日も来る日も二本足で立つ。 そんな姿を何処かで見守っている。

"You cannot lose yet"; one day will come, one day will come, I will stand on my two feet. I will be watching over that silhouette from somewhere.

あなたの傍に、ひとつでも笑顔が増えるように。 願いを乗せて、あの風が目指す町。

I hope that by your side, even just a smile appears. I will make this wish, and let it flow to the town the wind aims for.

幸せの形は人それぞれで正解も不正解もない筈だが、 栄光を掴むため、他人を蹴落として上に立つその競争に、 勝った者が幸せを得るのだろうか。

The shape of happiness depends on each person, But in order to seize glory, we must let other people down and stand above them; But in that competition, are the winners really able to acquire happiness?

負けた者は路頭に迷い、時には間違いを繰り返し、 本当に目指すべき人としてたった一つの大事な宿命と、 逃れられない宿命と向き合うことを忘れてしまう。

The ones who were defeated will lose their way, and sometimes repeat their mistakes; They should aim at the one important fate that belongs to humans, But unable to escape from that fate, they end up forgetting to face it.

そんな時は少し、足を休めよう。誰かに寄りかかろう。 それは何も、恥ずかしがることではない。

When that time comes, let's rest our legs a bit. Let's rely on someone. That is not something to feel ashamed of.

手を振り返す。別れが出会いに、続くように。 消えないままで此処に居て、歩みを繋いで欲しい。

I’ll wave goodbye. So that after parting our ways, we can meet again. I want you to stay here as you are, and to hold on to your footsteps.

あなたの傍に、ひとつでも笑顔が増えるように。 願いを乗せて、あの風が目指す町。

song : メグル (Meguru) / Cycle

music & lyrics : 上北 健 (Kamikita Ken) / KK

translation : hitosukui

閉じて行く扉に間に合わなかった人。 遠回りをしてでも進み行けば、向こう側を目指せる。 

The door shut itself, and you couldn’t make it in time. But if you go around it, even by taking a detour, you can reach the other side.

突き当たりに出会い、俯き嘆いた人。 行き止まりではないと信じ抜けば、次の場所に行ける。 

You went through hardship and grieved deeply. But if you believe that it's not the end, you can move on.

涙が雨になるのなら、涙が川に注ぐなら、 永久に永久に、大地（ほし）が守ってくれるのでしょう。 あなたが落とした分も。

If your tears become the rain, if your tears pour into the river, Forever and always, the Earth will protect you.  Even the part you lost.

絡み合う柵（しがらみ）に独りを受け入れた人。 羽織った布を一枚置いてみれば、それらは解けて行く。 Fed up with complicated bonds, you accepted solitude. But if you try to stop hiding yourself, it will untangle those bonds.

涙が川に注ぐなら、涙が海に続くなら、 永久に永久に、大地（ほし）が守ってくれるのでしょう。 あなたが落とした分も。

If your tears pour into the river, if your tears follow the sea, Forever and always, the Earth will protect you. Even the part you lost.

汚れた感情は残さないように、水は綺麗に溶かしてゆく。 またこの地を濡らすその時に、笑顔でいてくださいと。

In order for this soiled feeling not to remain, I will completely wash it away with water. Thus when you wet this earth again, please keep on smiling.

幾千もの人が、重ねた想いの層。そこから零れた雨は少しだけ、温かかった。

Thousands of people piled up overlapping feelings. But the falling rain from there felt -just a little bit- warm.

涙が海に続くなら、涙が空に還るなら、 永久に永久に、大地（ほし）が守ってくれるのでしょう。 あなたが落とした分も。

If your tears follow the sea, if your tears return to the sky, Forever and always, the Earth will protect you. Even the part you lost.

いつかの悲しかったことも、あの日に覚えた痛みのことも、 流れる未来で、優しく許せる日が必ず待っている。

song :   心分け (Kokorowake) / Share Hearts

music & lyrics :  上北 健 (Kamikita Ken) / KK

translation : hitosukui

ある日私はいなくなって、 代わりに君を生み出しました。 君に心を預けるから、あとは自由に生きてください。

One day I disappeared, And I gave birth to you instead. I will entrust you my heart, so please live as you will.

私は偽物だから、ここにはいられないよ。 言葉には出せないから、黙っていきます。 I am an impostor, therefore I cannot stay here. I can't put it into words, that's why I will keep silent.

二人も要らない。どちらかでいい。 なら私は、名前も要らない。顔も要らない。 明日からは君になりたい。 指の先まで余すこともなく、汚れた君で塗りつぶして。

There is no need for two of us. Either is fine. In that case, I don't need a name nor do I need a face. Starting tomorrow, I want to become you. Without having to spare the tip of your finger, paint it out with the sullied you.

ああ遠い日の記憶。霞む空は白か緑そんな色で、 ガラス窓に顔を寄せて見下ろしたら、 海は黒く黒く、瞳みたい。 吸い込まれそうになる私。 不意に肩を抱き寄せられ、頬がきゅっと赤く染まる。 髪を梳いた指は少し皺の増えた丸い形。 それがとても心地良くて、鼻の奥が熱を帶びた。 ここは私の居場所だと、この人は味方なんだと。

Ahh, a memory of that distant day. The misty sky being white or green; As I brought my face near the window and looked out there, The sea was black, so black, like the pupil of an eye. It felt like I was going to be asborbed. Suddenly you hold my shoulders, and my cheeks are dyed in red. The fingers that combed out my hair have a slightly wrinkled and round shape. That was a really pleasant sensation, and the back of my nose was hot*. "This is where I stand", "This person is my ally.", I realized.

海は黒く黒く深く、何もかもを知ったように。 今の私を迎えている。 今の私を迎えるけど、 まだ消えてはいけないよと、一緒に行けば戻れると。 君が言うの。私の君、君は私。

The sea was black, so black and deep, as if it knew everything. It has come to take the present me away. It is taking me away, but "You can't disappear just yet, if we just go together we could go back.", You said. My version of you; you are me.

ある日私はいなくなって、 代わりに君を生み出しました。 君が心を分け合うなら、帰る場所がなくても。

One day I disappeared, And I gave birth to you instead. If you share this heart, it's okay even if there is no place to go back to.

二人で行けばどちらでもなく、それが私。 大事な名前、大事な顔、心も全部。 君になりたい私のことも、大切だよ。 汚れた私でも愛して、愛して。

If we both go, it's neither of us; it is me**. A valuable name, a valuable face, heart, everything. The me that is willing to become you is also precious. Even if I'm sullied, love me, please love me.

本物ではなくても、望まれてはいなくても、 今の私が私だと疑う必要もないから。

Even if I'm not the real one, even if I am not wanted, There is no need to doubt that the present me is me.

私が決めることだから、私が決めれば答えだ。

That is something for me to decide, and this is the answer I come up with by making that decision.

song :   笑って咲いて (Waratte Saite) ｜ Smile in Bloom

music & lyrics :  上北 健 (Kamikita Ken) / KK

translation : hitosukui

anata ga sugosu hibi ni arasoi ga okita toki, anata wa sono aite wo kizutsukeru kamo shirenai.

あなたが過ごす日々に争いが起きた時、 あなたはその相手を傷つけるかもしれない。

When a struggle happens on those days you spend, You might hurt that person.

dareka ni naritai kara, jibun ga kirai dakara, dareka wo kizutsukeru no wa totemo kanashii koto deshou.

誰かになりたいから、自分が嫌いだから、 誰かを傷つけるのはとても悲しいことでしょう。

Because you want to become someone, because you hate yourself, It is a very sad thing to hurt someone, isn't it?

mirai to wa hito sorezore fusenmei de, hitoshiku hirogatte yuku no dakara.

未来とは人それぞれ不鮮明で、等しく広がってゆくのだから。

Because the future is indistinct for each person, and spreads equally.

warae, warae. soko wa mada owari de wa nai. nikushimi mo ikari mo, umu koto wa nai. warae, warae. sono toki nokotta tane wa, itsu no hi ni ka hana wo sakaseru deshou.

笑え、笑え。そこはまだ終わりではない。憎しみも怒りも、生むことはない。 笑え、笑え。その時残った種は、いつの日にか花を咲かせるでしょう。

Smile, smile. That is not the end yet. There is no hatred nor anger to be born. Smile, smile. Someday, a flower will bloom from the seed remaining from that time.

imasara to omou koto naigashiro ni shinai de, arasoi atta sono hito ni omoi wo tsutae ni yukou.

今更と思うこと蔑ろにしないで、 争い合ったその人に想いを伝えに行こう。

Do not despair and think it's too late, Let's go tell our feelings to that person who fought.

juu nen saki mo taiyou wa noboru. sodatte iku anata no kokoro. nan sou ni mo orikasanatte, hikari no todoka naku natta basho. zutto ikizuite, ne wo hatte, kizuite moraeru toki wo tada matteiru.

十年先も太陽は昇る。育って行くあなたの心。 何層にも折り重なって、光の届かなくなった場所。 ずっと息づいて、根を張って、 気付いてもらえる時をただ待っている。

The sun rises ten years from now. Your heart is growing up. In a place covered in layers, where the light became unable to reach. Struggling to breathe, rooted, Just waiting for the moment you'll be noticed.

warae, warae. anata ga kakaeta mono ga, sore dake de zenbu wa kieyashinai kedo. warae, warae. anata ga waratte ireba, tomoni seou hito wa hanarenai kara.

笑え、笑え。あなたが抱えたものが、それだけで全部は消えやしないけど。 笑え、笑え。あなたが笑っていれば、共に背負う人は離れないから。

Smile, smile. The things that you held won't all vanish. Smile, smile. If you smile, the person by your side won't leave you.

warae, warae. soko wa mada owari de wa nai. nikushimi mo ikari mo, umu koto wa nai. warae, warae. sono toki nokotta tane wa, itsu no hi ni ka hana wo sakaseru deshou.

笑え、笑え。そこはまだ終わりではない。憎しみも怒りも、生むことはない。 笑え、笑え。その時残った種は、いつの日にか花を咲かせるでしょう。

Smile, smile. That is not the end yet. There is no hatred nor anger to be born. Smile, smile. Someday, a flower will bloom from the seed remaining from that time.

sore wa utsukushiku irozuku anata no iro. itsumademo karenai anata no iro.

それは美しく色づくあなたの色。いつまでも枯れないあなたの色。

That is the beautiful, changing color of yours. That forever unwithering color of yours.

warae, warae. soko kara mata hajimeyou. warae, warae. owari ni mukete hajimeyou.

笑え、笑え。そこからまた始めよう。 笑え、笑え。終わりに向けて始めよう。

song :   月が綺麗 (Tsuki Ga Kirei) / The Moon is Beautiful

music & lyrics :  上北 健 (Kamikita Ken) / KK

translation : hitosukui

hitori shizumu. minamo ga tooku natte iku ni tsurete, kanashii kotoba kikoe naku naru. sono mama riyuu mo imi mo sutesatte naku naritai noni, kesenai no wa, kimi no koe.

一人沈む。水面が遠くなっていくにつれて、 悲しい言葉聞こえなくなる。 そのまま理由も意味も捨て去って無くなりたいのに、 消せないのは、君の声。 

Feeling depressed on my own. As the surface of the water becomes distant, I can't hear sad words anymore. Even though I want to stay that way and abandon both reasons & meaning, the one thing I can't erase is your voice.

boku wa koko datte, koko ni iru tte sakebu. todokanai omoi wo. imi ga shiritakute, ima mo shirenakute, mukau saki wa shikai furyou da. soredemo byoudou ni mukanshin na sekai de, kimi wo sagashite iku no sa. iki ga kurushiku natte miageta sora, tsuki ga kirei datta.

僕はここだって、ここにいるって叫ぶ。届かない想いを。 意味が知りたくて、今も知れなくて、向かう先は視界不良だ。 それでも平等に無関心な世界で、君を探していくのさ。 息が苦しくなって見上げた空、月が綺麗だった。 

"I am here", I say, "I am right here", I shout. The feelings that won't be delivered. I want to know the significance, I may not know it now, and I'm facing forward with a poor vision. Even so, in this World equally indifferent, I'm going on a journey to look for you. As my breathing became painful I looked up at the sky, and the Moon was beautiful.

hito ga kieta yoru no kousaten, seishoku tou no retsu, yogoreta hibi o furikaeri aruku. sakamichi wo korogatte itta no wa nan datta n darou na. kangaete iru uchi ni, wasurete wa ikenai koto, wasurenu you ni.

人が消えた夜の交差点、青色灯の列、 汚れた日々を振り返り歩く。 坂道を転がっていったのは何だったんだろうな。 考えているうちに、忘れてはいけないこと、忘れぬように。 

People disappeared at the night's intersection, and at the blue light, I walk as I look back at those soiled days. What was it that went rolling down that hill road, I wonder. I think about the things I must not forget, in order not to forget.

umare ochita sono toki, dareka no nukumori wo shitte, ni hon no ashi de tatta toki, oozora no takasa wo shitta. ano hito ni homerareta toki, kitai no me no kowasa wo shitte, tanin to kuraberareta toki, kodoku no annei wo shitta.

生れ落ちたその時、誰かの温もりを知って、 二本の足で立った時、大空の高さを知った。 あの人に褒められた時、期待の眼の怖さを知って、 他人と比べられた時、孤独の安寧を知った。 

The moment I was born, coming to know someone's warmth, The moment I stood on my two feet, I became aware of the majesty of the sky. The moment I was praised by that person, coming to know the fear of their expectations, The moment I was compared to other people, I learnt the tranquility of loneliness.

soredemo kizutsuita toki ni, seoi kirenai koto wo shitte, kanashikute susume nai toki wa, dareka no nukumori ga hoshii. daremo ga sou yatte dekite iru. tameratte shimau koto wa nai kara.

それでも傷付いた時に、背負いきれないことを知って、 悲しくて進めない時は、誰かの温もりが欲しい。 誰もがそうやって出来ている。 躊躇ってしまうことはないから。

Even so, the moment I was hurt, learning that I can't carry this burden, When I feel sad and can't go forward, I want to feel someone's warmth. Everyone is capable of doing so. Because there is no need to hesitate.

koe ni shiyou.

声にしよう。 

Let's voice it out.

boku wa koko datte, koko ni iru tte sakebu. todoketai omoi wo. imi ga shiritakute, ima mo shirenakute, mukau saki wa shikai furyou da. soredemo byoudou ni mukanshin na sekai wa, toki ni yasashiku mo aru sa. iki ga kurushiku natte miageta sora, tsuki ga kirei datta.

僕はここだって、ここにいるって叫ぶ。届けたい想いを。 意味が知りたくて、今も知れなくて、向かう先は視界不良だ。 それでも平等に無関心な世界は、時に優しくもあるさ。 息が苦しくなって見上げた空、月が綺麗だった。 

"I am here", I say, "I am right here", I shout. The feelings I want to deliver. I want to know the significance, I may not know it now, and I'm facing forward with a poor vision. Even so, in this World equally indifferent, sometimes there is also kindness. As my breathing became painful I looked up at the sky, and the Moon was beautiful.

marude wakatta ka no you ni, tsuki ga kirei datta.

まるで分かったかのように、月が綺麗だった。 

song :  ゆらぎ (Yuragi) / Fluctuations

music & lyrics :  上北 健 (Kamikita Ken) / KK

translation : hitosukui

kimi no koe ga naiteiru you na ki ga shita dakedo nande sonna ni waratteru no kana kyou mo dareka ni shiawase ga kubararetarou ka kimi wa sou itte, waratte naite irunda

I had a feeling your voice was crying.

But I wonder why you are smiling?

Today again, happiness has been dealt (distributed) to someone.

You are saying this, crying while smiling.

hito wa mata hoshii mono wo ubaiatte me ga kuranda hontou wo miushinatta sore wo dare ga kachi aru to kimeta mono ka imi wo motaseta nisemono da

People are still blinded by the things they want and struggle for.

Losing sight of the truth.

Deciding whether someone is valuable or not,

That person is a meaningless imposter.

konna sekai ja teki mo mikata mo inai sa dakara kimi wa naiteru n darou hitori naiteru n darou itsudatte tasukete no kotoba nado muda to tsuibuyaita kotoba kizuite yo boku no kimochi wo

In this kind of World, there aren’t any enemy or ally,

That’s why you are crying. Alone, you are crying.

“Words of help and such are always a waste”, you muttered those words.

Please notice them, my feelings.

kimi ga kirai na hibi no koto, mukuwaretai to negatte iru koto shitteru yo wakatteru yo sore wo koutei shitai kimi ni shiawase wo moratteiru dareka ga soba ni iru tte koto wasurenaide

The things about every day you hate, the things you hope to be rewarded for,

I know them. I understand.

I want to affirm it.

The fact that there’s someone next to you receiving happiness because of you,

Don’t forget it.

kimi no koe ga naiteru you na ki ga shita are kara mata namida wa misenai mama kyou mo dokoka ni shiawase ga suterareta n darou na hitomi ga yadosu hikari wa nai

I had a feeling your voice was crying.

Just like then, your tears are still not showing.

Today again, happiness has been thrown away somewhere.

The light in your eyes is not here.

shiranai ma ni kimerareta koufukudo wo hito wa muchuu de oikake mawashite mawari wo miyou to mo shinai sore nara hito no tame ikiru munashisa wo kimi ga nageite mo sore wo oroka da, nante ienai yo

The scale of happiness that is decided while you’re not aware of it,

People are running in circles in a daze, without even trying to look around.

If that’s the case, even you are pitying people’s empty life.

Things like “That’s stupid”, you can’t say that.

boku no koe wa naiteru mama nano kana todokanai to zutto mae shitteita yo itsuka kimi ga boku no jikan tadori tsuitara konna uta wo nokoshite oku yo

I wonder if my voice is crying right now.

“It’s not reaching you”, I always knew that long ago.

One day, when you catch up to my time, until you arrive,

I’ll keep that song safe. (I’ll leave that song here.)

kimi ga kiratta hibi no koto mukuwaretai to negatte ita koto shitteru yo wakatteru yo sore wo koutei shita yo kimi ni shiawase wo moratteiru dareka ga soba ni iru tte koto tsutaetakute

The things about every day you hated, the things you hoped to be rewarded for,

I know them. I understand.

I wanted to affirm that.

I wanted to tell you that there’s someone next to you receiving happiness because of you.

kimi ga aragatta hibi ga, ima mo boku wo ikashite iru koto shitte hoshii wakatte hoshii sore wa yuru ga nai akashi da kimi no shiawase wo negatte iru boku ga koko ni ita tte koto wasurenaide

The days you were fighting against to, the fact that even now, they are keeping me alive,

I want you to know that. I want you to understand.

That’s an irrefutable evidence.

The fact that I was here, wishing for your happiness,

Don’t forget it. Please don’t forget it.