The Secret Life of Maria

The audacity of me to dream working in New York 🙄

Here we go again, i have an upcoming travel and im feverish 🥵

I wanna learn to swim ☹️

Everyone’s ig stories are boring.

Hey tumblr, I feel bored these past days and i dont understand why. There were unexpected things which happened recently tho, i talked again with this guy i WAS with. We exchanged messages for a few days then i told him yesterday what i currently feel. He didn’t even ask me why or how or anything. He freaking doesnt have any idea how things should be done, damn i will not be the one teaching him that.

Saw a tiktok vid of a juicy beef burger, damn it’s like 10 pm and im craving for it

Year 2016 which is ten years ago, i started doing my therapy. I got diagnosed with clinical depression so i had to take pills and do extra activities just to elevate my serotonin.

It's 10:10 pm and I'm currently listening to Taylor Swift's daylight. Can't help but feel grateful and cute (lol so random). Thinking about the bad things makes me appreciate the good. Happiness radiates within me right now that I keep smiling oh God this is freaking funny. But I guess this is how someone feels when grace is bestowed.

I'm back home from my UAE travel. I became different after this travel, different in a subtle way. The realizations are overwhelming but the person I am now is wiser and gentler. My experience there makes me more appreciative of what I am and what I have. I also feel hopeful of what's to come (even tho my molar tooth is hurting as i type), that as long as I'm alive and healthy I will be able to nurture myself into becoming someone I want - to keep learning new things, to travel and explore new places, to be in an environment where I can grow positively, to educate myself better, to be richer financially and in values, EVERYTHING! So I thank God since He made me capable of doing things as I want to. I may travel alone but never did i feel i was.