|31 years old| |Licensed Esthetician| |Tattoos| |Piercings| |Married 2-29-2020đđ| |Taken 10-31-15 đ| |A lost soul just trying to make her way in this world|
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The world seems to have forgotten you, but it's okay because I haven't. The world seems to think that I should be over this pain, that I should be healed now, that my tears should have dried out for you. I passed my fall semester of college with A's and I know you'd be bragging about it all over social media. I miss you so much I want to scream until my throat is raw and no more sound leaves my mouth. I want this pain to end, I want these to tears to stop and most of all I want you back. People keep asking what I want for Christmas and it's inappropriate to say 'for the grief to end' or ' i want my mom back, I want my best friend to still be alive' so I just smile and say nothing. I often find myself wondering how do you fight the suicidal thoughts when the only reason I ever stayed this long was because of you. Now I'm left to move about the deep sea with no anchor to hold me down. All this is just to say, I miss my mom and nothing is the same but everything is the same all at the same time.
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attention fic authors that want to write for hispanic characters!!18+
if u find urself typing out "bad Spanish" in the warning for ur fic, don't! do research!! it can alienate latino/hispanic/Spanish speaking readers to read incorrect Spanish or to read things along the lines of "they whispered something in Spanish that you wish you could understand," we do understand!
here are some tips for sexy talk in Spanish!!
concha, coĂąo, panocha, cuca, toto â pussy
or at least not really, these are rough, slangy ways to refer to it, like saying your snatch or twat. it's not sexy at all!! in LatAm we don't really use coĂąo to mean pussy tbh it's like saying fuck.
- if u want to say pussy I'd go for more poetic ways to say it!!
- esta flor (this flower), gatita (literally pussy, like little cat), fruits!! (in Spanish obvs) like the connotation that it's something juicy and sweet and sticky is so sexy
- or bypass words entirely and say cosita/cosa which means thing. it sounds bad in english but "que cosa mas linda" is so fucking sexy actually (translates roughly to what a pretty thing)
pene does mean penis but again pene is more vulgar/clinical than sexy, we refer more to actions and talk about the body part rather than name it I think. u can talk about how big it is, how hard, rather than say the word pene
some vocab words/phrases!!
jugoso/jugosa - juicy
mojada/mojadita/mojado/mojadito - wet
mojadisima/o- super wet
que pasĂł - what happened; what's wrong
que pasa - what's happening; what's wrong
que te pasa - what's wrong/up with you (kinda mean)
mierda - shit
coĂąo - fuck
puta - whore, usually used for slut but it kinda means prostitute
duro - hard
lento - slow
suave - gentle
damelo - give it to me (can also be used as fuck me)
tomalo - take it
ya/ no mas, ya. no mas - can be used together or separate, means enough (ya) no more (no mas) eg. "ya, ya, no mas por favor ya"
que cosa/cosita mas linda - what a pretty/pretty little thing (would actually fucking kill me)
por favor - please
boca - mouth
labios - lips
culo - ass
mĂrame - look at me
tĂłcame - touch me
lengua - tongue
sentirte - feel you
quiero - i want
necesito - i need
bello/bella - beautiful
linda/lindo - pretty
dulce - sweet
delicioso - delicious
sabroso - delicious, flavorful
mio - mine (mi used before something to indicate possession, eg. mi culo=my ass)
ay - oh or ugh; whine/moan sound when used in a sexual context, not always sexual! eg. "ay dios(oh god)" can be sexual or nonsexual
hazme el amor - make love to me
pet name 101
obviously your character/s could be from any of 20/22 spanish speaking countries globally and have their own region specific pet names, but here are some I'm familiar with (porfis comentan si saben mas!!)
beba / bebo / bebe - baby
tesoro - treasure [can also be used to refer to genitals! tu tesoro/tesorito]
bebita / bebito - baby in a sweet cutesy way (can also be in a condescending way if ur into thatđ)
mi cielo - my sky/heaven
mi sol - my sun
mi rey / mi reina - my king/queen (doesn't need to be in a worshipping dommy way, we use this so casually)
mi amor - my love
all the mi ____ ones can also be reversed if u find it getting repetitive or just wanna switch up! amor mio, cielo/cielito mio, sol mio, amorcita mia, reina mia
amorcito/a - diminutive of my love
papi/mami - interchangeably mommy/daddy and babygirl/baby boy!! little known fact but this is the most important one to me bc in sub!man character fics I'd love to see papi used in the baby way!!
pobrecito/pobrecita/pobre - poor thing (pobre is gender neutral and is used for any gender!!)
preciosa/precioso - precious
principe/princesa - prince/princess
cosa linda - pretty thing (fem typically)
papĂĄ/mamĂĄâ daddy/mommy, it's like papa/mama(american pronunciation, usually more loving/doting than sexual)
nene â baby(sexy) it means kid
link to another post of mine answering an ask abt degradation specifically!!
Ty for the Spanish tips post. Would you agree what's "not at all sexy" can be a matter of reader preference / writer intent? For example, ro
please message or comment if u have questions or additions !!
if i could request a fic if youre down to write it, but joel feeling conflicted (but turned on) about his urges to breed/knock up the reader, but ultimately cant resist so he gives in, going feral đ tysm if you write this!! âĄâĄâĄ
Pairing:Â Joel Miller x f!reader
warnings:Â unprotected p in v sex, daddy kink, breeding kink, just a tiny bit of choking and Joel being a little rough
You felt so fucking good.
I mean, like, criminally fucking good.
Your eyes were closed, your body putty underneath him as he'd drained all the energy out of it with the previous 2 mindblowing orgasms.
All you were left able to do was moan and cry out his name while gripping his strong bicep, even the thighs around his waist were barely hanging on.
That's what Joel Miller did to you. Every single time: He fucked you so good you forgot your own name. Literally.
"that's a good girl" he grunted, drilling into you mercilessly "my good girl" he breathed, his mouth to your ear now "letting me stretch this little pussy- taking me so fucking well"Â
the sound of skin on skin and the squelching of your juices drenching him filled every inch of the room, but all you were able to hear and feel was him.
His cock so deep inside you you could feel it in your belly, his left hand on your waist, gripping tightly, his fingers wrapped around your neck, cutting out your oxygen intake just enough to make every sensation he was providing you with double down. And then finally, all you could hear was his voice, his hoarse, deep voice, traced with lust and malice, grunting and breathing every dirty thing that crossed his mind, until finally... he let one he shouldn't have slip.
Listen, Joel wasn't one to hide anything, in or out of the bedroom, but this... this was too much. It was wrong, and it was filthy and it wasn't something you'd ever talked about, but before he knew it, before his brain could realize it, the words had left his mouth.
"yeah take that-take my cock-Â fuck-Â look at that, you're sucking me in" he groaned, feeling your walls squeeze and squeeze around him "begging to be filled up- this little pussy's begging to be full of my cum" he growled, his hand going to your face now, squeezing your cheeks as you opened your eyes, and to his surprise, moaned even louder, your walls strangling his cock now.
Oh fuck yeah
"You like that?" he mocked, as your legs trembled and your brain felt ready to leak out of your ears "you'd like to be my little cumslut? Just let daddy fill you up again and again? Fuck a baby in you?"Â
You could hear and feel the way the idea was turning him on more and more, his thrusts getting sloppier and his voice getting more strained.
You nodded, half a second away from passing out.
"Good girl" he groaned, his hand on your thing moving to your belly "Fuck-Can't wait to see this all swollen- let everyone know you're mine" he sighed, his sweaty forehead dropping to his "Only mine- That I get to fill you up whenever I please, that you're begging for my cock every night"
Your vision was blurred, and your body felt ready to implode, and you were close, god you were oh so close
"You're gonna come?" he grunted, his hips still working overtime to split you in half "You're gonna milk my cock? take every single drop I give you?"
"yes" you moaned, your voice not even sounding like your own "yes please daddy give it to me"
"what?" he taunted "what do you want sweetheart?"
"y-your cum" you cried "D-deep inside of me daddy"
"f-fuck" he growled, praying to whatever god that would listen to not wake him up if this was a dream "good fucking girl- take it then" he said, as your eyes squeezed shut, a tsunami of pleasure overcoming you as you reached your orgasm "take my cum like the good little girl you are"
And just like that, you did, as he shot every single drop of his spent inside of you, you moaned, watching him do exactly as he said: filling you up to the brim, as he breathed soft that's it, and every single drop babygirl- just like that, until finally, he collapsed on top of you.
he stayed inside you the entire night, the only explanation given, a simple: "Can't let any of it go to waste darlin'"
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Thank you for bringing so much to The Mandalorian as Greef Karga. Your acting and directing contributions will never be forgotten. May you rest in peace.
Tommy Miller would be one of those guys with a TikTok account where he just talks to the camera in his truck on his lunch breaks about, like, where to get the best bbq in Austin and his thoughts on the final season of Game of Thrones and post unwitting thirst traps of him and his brother just pouring concrete in the 108 degree heat. And Joel thinks itâs stupid because of course he does, all he knows about TikTok is that Sarah makes him hold the phone every once in a while while she does some silly little dance, so every time Tommy pulls out that goddamn phone Joel scowls at the camera and then doesnât understand the thousands of comments about bee-keeping age directed at him.
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Summary: when the power goes out in your building Joel is more than happy to let you have his bed, but when his already sore back flares up in the middle of the night heâs given no choice but to share with you. Things play out differently than expected when he wakes up in the morning tangled up with you in between the sheets.
Warnings: SMUT (MDI) 18+ only, slow burn, dead child, dead people and the fire pit, cussing, age gap (reader is in their thirties), alcohol, Joel gets a â¨massage⨠thigh riding, teasing Joel, Dom!Joel, fingering, multiple orgasms, over stimulation, Joel is⌠big, slight breeding kink, raw p in v (wrap it before you tap it), dirty talk.
Joel Miller Master List
Word Count: youâve read my other stories right? This is long, buckle up butter cup.
The worst jobs earn the most money, it was something you were quick to pick up on, and if you wanted to live the best, you had to do the worst.
The burn pit was busier than usual, truck after truck with what seemed like no end in sight. Everything from your hands to your feet ached, clothes covered in the grey ash irritating your lungs, and the smell was unforgiving. Youâve already added your second bandanna, the lack of clean air nearly suffocating.
âYouâre slowinâ down.â The man beside you notes, Texan accent laces his words as he crosses his arms over his chest, voice gruff from being here as long as you have.
âComing from the man who has taken a water break every thirty minutes.â You snip back, lighthearted in your accusation, looking over to find your âcoworkerâ, Joel Miller, tilting his head, brown eyes glaring under salt and pepper eyebrows. He points to the truck behind you, silently telling you to get moving.
You smile even though he canât see it and turn on your heel, heading for the last body, but your cheeky attitude slips away. You swallow thickly, eyes scanning over the hooded and bound body. They are small in stature, an old cartoon character printed on the back of their white, clean shirt. They look so out of place on the blood and mud stained truck bed.
Only a child.
Joel is quick to notice your sudden hesitation, his own small smile falling as he follows your gaze.
âIâll get âem.â
âNo, itâs fine.â You stomp down your emotions, scooping the kid up, to light and frail, and walk them over to the fire. You whisper a prayer, like youâve done with every child before and toss him over the wall. Soot blows up into the air, orange and red embers dancing among the cloud and youâre forced to pry your gaze away as the flame swallows their body.
âLast one!â A driver yells, the screeching of the reverse alarm cutting through the air. Relief washes over you, closing your eyes momentarily, the day was almost done.
âSon of a bitch.â You turn then, Joelâs looking at the truck in disbelief and when your attention lands on the man in the bed your jaw physically drops open.
The man before you is a literal beast, his height alone impressive but the muscle on him makes you thankful you never ran into him when he was alive.
Had to of been some kind of enforcer.
âHey, yo, can we like get a horse or something? This guys fucking huge!â You call out to the truck driver who only sneers before disappearing back into the cab.
âItâs fine, Iâve got it.â Joel shushes you, steeping up and dragging the guy by his thighs closer to the edge of the bed, huffing and grunting looking for the best leverage point.
You laugh slightly, steeping back. âSure, whatever you say cowboy, heâs all yours.â You cross your arms, excited to see how this pans out as Joel tries to position the hulk. To your surprise heâs able to lift the guy onto his shoulder with a strained groan. âOooo okay, youâve been working out.â You let out a sharp whistle, his eyes glancing to yours as he stumbles for the fire, giving you a playful wink.
The banter is cut short with his next step though when he cries out in pain, nearly crumbling under the weight as something in his back spasms. You rush forward, grabbing onto the body, helping carry him the rest of the way and over the wall.
âFuck!â Joel barks, face pinched as he hunches over, hand pressing into his back.
âWhat happened?â
âMy back⌠Iâm fine. â He grits out between clenched teeth, sucking in a few breaths before trying to straighten up.
Someone blows a whistle, signaling the end of the day and people start to rush past you both for the pay out line, ignoring Joelâs insistent cussing.
You offer your shoulder for him to lean on but he waves away your concern, telling you he just needs a minute to collect himself before you both make your way to get your ration cards.
Instead of signing up for another shift you decide to give yourself the next two days off, hoping to sleep as much as you can before hitting the next work period hard. You walk off to the side, waiting patiently for Joel out of habit as he goes down the list, rubbing at his spine.
Being this far from the fire you realize how cold it is, the setting sun the only indication that itâs about to get colder, and you know spring is still a few months away.
You glance to Joel as he haggles with the enforcer, probably over the shortened pay. Over the last five years you and Joel have worked together on numerous jobs, and heâs never shy to insist the right pay for the services you both provide. Though at first never coordinated, you both realized how effortlessly you worked with the other, always fast and to the point with whatever resources given, both searching for the most money.
You recall noticing him when you arrived at your first job at this QZ, his hair a little less grey back then but eyes just as intense. It wasnât until your fifth job did you say something to him after catching him watching you for the first hour of your shift at the pit.
With whatever confidence you had, youâd walked right up to him, hands on your hips and chin tilted up with a sarcastic smile. âDoes my stalker have a name?â
The notion had been so wildly outlandish that after he stared at you for a minute, mouth open and eyebrows raise, he barked out a laugh. A true belly laugh that had everyone turning their heads in shock and confusion.
It was the talk of the job.
Some new girl got the old grump to laugh.
From that moment on Joel decided to stick close by, your fiery attitude attracting him just as much as your smarts. He taught you how to play the system, which officers were more lenient than others, and when he grew to trust you he began taking you on contraband runs. You picked up on the trade quickly, surprising him when you started going out on your own and Joel knew heâd chosen well.
Joel now limps over, pulling you from your thoughts. âYa know I have this stuff that can help with that.â You state, turning and walking with him towards your apartments.
âGot some icy hot, Iâll be fine.â
â20 year old icyhot? Yeah that most definitely will do the trick.â Your sarcasm isnât lost on him as he glares done at you. You raise your hands in surrender, walking the rest of the way in silence as the street bustles with life around you.
Parting ways at your building you watch for a moment as Joel limps along, shaking his head back and forth, a clear sign heâs talking to himself. You snort, grabbing for the door handle only to have it ripped away, your next door neighbor nearly knocking into you as she storms from the building.
âWoah, Joanne, maybe next time you can just run me over and we will call it a day.â You snap, glaring as she turns at the sound of your voice, sheâs the buildings âmanagerâ, a lose term for someone who takes your money and doesnât fix a damn thing unless it involves her apartment directly.
Not much has changed since the end of the world.
âThe entire building is out! Iâm trying to get someone to fix it!â Her wrinkled face is red with anger, greying hair disheveled like sheâd been pulling at the roots all day.
âWait what?â
She rolls her eyes, exasperation clipping her words. âThere was construction going on next door and they clipped a line or something. No lights, no heat, no fucking water to the entire building.â She turns on her heel, not bothering for what you have to say next and stomps down the road.
You throw your hands up in frustration, groaning at the sky, mentally cursing whatever was out there when a thought comes to mind. You bite your lip, weighing out your options before you are rushing down the street in search of Joel.
Luck seems to finally be on your side as you round the street corner, finding him leaning against a light post, talking to a man you recognize but canât place with a name.
Jogging over the shaggy haired manâs eyes flicker to you, his posture becoming rigid before he quickly dismissing himself. Joel turns, expecting an officer or worse, and his expression softens as you slow to a stop beside him. âHeya Sunshine.â
When Joel decided to take you in, he made it very clear to others that ran around in the same under ground circles that you were not to be fucked with, being one of the few in his inner circle gave you a type of immunity not so sparingly given out.
âHey⌠shit⌠my power is out.â
âDid ya forget to pay?â Heâs mocking you only slightly, concern still underlining his tone.
âNo, itâs the whole building, Joanne said someone must have cut a wire or something⌠I was wondering if maybe⌠weâll Iâm still covered in all thisâŚâ You hesitate, hoping he will fill in the gap as you gesture to yourself but he only stares. Joel always made you use your words. âI was wondering if I could borrow your shower, Iâll be super quick, I swear.â
Joel nods, looking down the road towards his building. âYeah, shouldnât be a problem, give me about an hour to soak my back first and then you can come over.â Youâre washed with relief, throwing your arms around his neck in a tight hug, catching him by surprise.
âThank you, thank you so much!â Before he can reply youâre sprinting down the street and around the corner, he stares after you blinking slowly before looking around, a blush staining his cheeks.
*~*~*~*~*~*
Having only been to Joel's apartment a handful of times, it took you longer than you would of liked to admit to find his door, and there may have been the help of an elderly man along the way.
This time though, as the door opens, Joel is on the other side. His greying hair slicked back and still damp, heâs dressed in a long sleeve shirt with matching black sweats. âWell, donât you clean up nice.â You make a point to look him over as you step into his apartment, breathing in the warm air.
Joel only snorts. âYeah, sure. Bathrooms that way, should still be plenty of hot water, I rigged my heater a few months back.â
You smile at that, âWhat a naughty boy you are, Joel Miller.â You wink following his direction, closing yourself in the bathroom.
Joel leans against his front door for a moment, appreciating this side of you that is rare to see, as much back and forth as you two give each other at work you personality blossoms when itâs just you and him. And damn was it flirtatious. Some way or another youâve kept a spark of life through the last 20 years that has Joel hooked like an addict, even if he could never bring himself to say so.
In the bathroom youâre pulling out your bath products, setting them next to his and the contrast of them makes you laugh a little. Pinks and purples next to dull grays and blues. You have the fleeting thought to look for something special just for Joel on your next run as you twist the shower nob. The pipes groan before sputtering to life, you wait until the waters just a little to hot before undressing and stepping in. You hiss involuntarily, skin blushing under the heat before you relax.
This was the hottest shower youâd had in years and you might just have to start lying about your power being out to get more of this. You allow yourself to relax for a moment longer before you begin to wash away the day.
*~*~*~*~*~*
You emerge thirty minutes later, steam following behind you, youâre dressed in your better winter clothes, but even thatâs a stretch. Your sweater hangs on your frame, three sizes to big and moth eaten, your sweatpants in much the same condition.
Joel glances up at you from his rickety table, two mix match glasses and a bottle in front of him. âIs one of those for me?â He simply pours you a shot, sliding the glass across the table as you take your seat, curling your legs up under yourself. You lift the amber liquid in cheers, Joel mimicking your actions as you down the shot. It burns your taste buds, dropping into your stomach like a lead weight.
Coughing you turn the glass over, face scrunched in disgust making Joel laugh as he pours himself another. âCanât handle your liquor?â
âWas never much of a drinker before all of this, havenât acquired the taste just yet.â You manage to wheeze out, rubbing at your chest where it still burns. âThank you again, it would have really sucked to of gone to bed still covered in that shit.â
Joel stands, chair scrapping across the floorboards. âDonât mention it. Seriously. Donât need the whole building knowing Iâm giving out free showers.â He gathers the glasses and takes them to the small sink, before opening his fridge, âHow do you plan on staying warm tonight?â
âUm, probably throw on a extra layer and pray I wake up with all my toes.â You drum a rhythm on the table, watching him as he pulls a container from the fridge, grabbing two forks and walking over to you.
You attentions stays on the container as he drags his chair closer, setting it on the table. Inside is beef and rice and your stomach grumbles at the sight of it. Your eyes jump to Joel and he give you a smile, handing you a fork. âEat.â
You know not to look a gifted horse in the mouth, splitting the container down the middle and enjoying the cold food as much as you enjoy the comfortable silence.
Joel suddenly lifts his head, sniffing the air before turning his gaze on you, stopping you mid bite to stare back.
âWhat?â
âDo I smell⌠cookies?â
Your face lights up with a grin. âOh yeah, I was baking in the bathroom.â He doesnât look amused and it adds to your enjoyment. âSugar cookies, specifically. You have your contraband, and I have mine.â
Contraband consisting of feminine products youâve scored over the last few years, keeping nearly 70 other women fairly stocked and your pockets lined.
âWhere ya hiding them? Under this?â He plucks at your shirt, distaste written across his face making you laugh, a sound Joel likes a little to much.
âWouldnât you like to know, Miller.â You raise your eyebrows suggestively earning an eye-roll, his foot nudging your chair.
He slides you the rest of his food as he stands. âYou can sleep here for tonight, Iâll take the couch.â Heâs talking over his shoulder as he walks into his joined bedroom, leaving you to shovel the rest of the food into your mouth.
âWait⌠your back, you should really sleep in your own bed Joel.â You can hear drawers opening and closing before a soft grunt of satisfaction as Joel finds whatever it is he is looking for. âI really donât want to inconvenience you any further.â
âIt ainât an inconvenience, and my backs fine, the icy hot did the trick, just like I said it would.â He comes back into view carrying a very large red button down flannel, tossing to you. Itâs thick, the fabric soft to the touch and smells clean with an underlying musk thatâs unmistakably Joel. âThatâll keep you warm, a lot better than what youâve got on now.â
âReally? Are you-.â
âDonât argue with me. I wouldnât have offered if I didnât want to. Okay?â
A light blush tints your cheeks, glancing up at him through your lashes with a sweet smile that has his stomach tightening. âThank you Joel.â
âYouâre welcome.â He rejoins you at the table, watching you pick at a loose thread on the shirt.
Maybe itâs the fact you donât know much about Joel, or maybe itâs the fact that this is the very first time youâve been alone with him, no one else in the room, no traders. Curiosity sparks and itâs a hard flame to put out.
âDo you⌠are there things you miss about before?â
He glanced at you, your eyes still trained on the garment. âWhat do you mean?â
âWell like⌠I use to do kickboxing, I miss that a lot⌠I miss going on coffee dates with my girlfriends⌠things like that.â You shrug, refusing to meet his gaze incase he thought this was silly, ridiculous even. You were never good at small talk.
Joel is silent for a moment longer, biting at his lip. âI miss football with my brother.â
You smile. âTommy right? My daddy loved football, he wasnât going anywhere on Sunday night.â You laugh softly, resting your chin on your knee. âI miss mall Chinese food, they always loaded up so much on those plates and I could never finish it.â
âThat was about the only thing I liked at the mall, we didnât go there much though. I miss my guitar, I donât even know if I could play it now if I remembered any songsâŚâ Joel chuckles, âI loved the SNL show, tv in general I loved to stay up at night withâŚâ His voice fades off, fist clenched slightly out of your peripherals and though you donât know much you know at some point during the start of everything he had lost a child.
Clearing your throat you jump to change topics. âDo you like wine?â You lock eyes with him then, his expression a little more retreated.
âI havenât found one Iâm a huge fan of, but I never turn down a glass.â
Your smile does that thing to his stomach again and he canât stop his gaze falling to your lips for the briefest of seconds. âWell good, thereâs this lady I trade with in my building and she makes wine. Iâll have to bring you a bottle one night.â
The corner of his mouth twitches up, âtrying to wine and dine me, Sunshine?â A blush creeps up your cheeks turning your smile sheepish.
âMaybe, only if you pay for dinner.â
Joel scoffs, the ease returning to his features as he tilts his head to the side. Your heart hammers a little faster under his gaze. âWhat a cheap date you are.â He mumbles softly, resting his elbows on the table leaning his head against interlocked hands.
âThe cheapest.â You breath back, mirroring his posture. He smiles warmly butterflyâs erupting under your skin giving you that giddy school girl feeling that takes your breath away and turns your brain too mush..
âIâll look forward to it then.â
*~*~*~*~*~*
Youâd only been asleep a few hours when your name reaches your ears, startling you awake. You sit up mattress squeaking under your weight as you peer into the darkness.
âJ-Joel?â
His sleep riddled voice bounces back to you. âI need help.â Instantly your scrambling out of bed, flipping on a light as you round the wall to find Joel looking up at you from where he lay on the couch, red faced and defeated.
âWhatâs wrong?â
âI canât get up⌠I gotta take a piss.â Joel hasnât felt this level of embarrassment since throwing his back out working with his brother and had to be carried down to the hospital. The feeling only digging deeper as he watches your face fall padding over to him, extending your hands.
âI told you to sleep in your own bed, Joel.â You abolish gently, pulling him to his feet. His grip tightens on your arms, hissing as his back straightens out, taking the moment to get his bearings before he releases you, grumbling something under his breath and limping to the restroom.
You sigh, going to your duffle bag and rummaging through its contents before you finally come across a small bottle of chamomile and lavender.
Joel comes out a few minutes later, eyes trained on the floor. âSorry.â
âHey itâs okay, I tore my shoulder apart when I was in highschool and could hardly use it for a year. Had to have people help me all the time.â You try to sympathize with his situation, your expression soft and warm as his eyes find yours. âBut, luck for you, I think you only pulled a muscle. And I have something to help with that.â You lift the little bottle shaking its contents.
Joel eyes it suspiciously, crossing his arms over his chest, âI ainât taken that.â
You scoff, grabbing his bicep, pulling him towards his bed. âYou donât take it, now lay down and lift up your shirt.â
Joel turns on you, looking horrified like youâve grown two heads all of a sudden. âExcuse me?â
âJust trust me.â You pull him again, squeezing his arm, Joel hesitates, glancing from the bed then down at himself. âI use to be a message therapist. Iâve seen a thousand naked backs, yours isnât going to be any different.â You encourage, smiling at him as he glances your way.
Sighing Joel relents, kneels onto the bed, pulling his shirt over his head and laying down, folding his arms under his head.
Okay.
Maybe you were wrong.
Joelâs back is defined, scars littering in various stages of time, some more purple compared to others. Shaking your head you swallow your sudden nerves, kneeling beside him. You open the bottle, the smell instantly filling the room and dump it into the palm of your hand, the oil slipping between your fingers, soaking your sweats and you curse silently, setting the bottle onto the night stand.
âTell me where it hurts the most.â You instruct, rubbing your hands together to warm the oil before placing them on Joelâs lower back, his hips twitching slightly at the sudden contact.
âA little to the right.â His skin is warm and he hums softly under your touch, shifting his shoulders and head, wishing he could see your face. âThere.â You set to work, finding the knot in his muscle and kneading the area, digging your thumbs and palms into his flesh.
Joel groans, long and drawn out and a thrill works itâs way down your spine at the sound, âTo much?â Your voice is softer than you initially intended it to be, much to sensual sounding.
Itâs just a back rub. Nothing more, be more professional.
He shakes his head, his body relaxing fully. âYou werenât lying.â Heâs muffled slightly by the pillow but you can hear his smile.
âYeah I went to school and everything. Itâs like riding a bike, you just never forget.â
âGet an A from me darlinâ.â Your heart swells with his praise, staying quiet as you continue messaging his back, traveling up to his shoulders and back down to his hips, the silence interrupted occasionally by a soft grunt or groan coming from Joel.
Itâs only when he goes quiet, his breath turning even and deep do you stop, whispering his name. When he doesnât reply you ease away and into the restroom, washing your hands and shedding your oil soaked pants.
Joelâs soft snores are all that can be heard as you stand at the foot of the bed, chewing on your lower lip trying to decide what to do from here. The couch is now free, but there is only one blanket, which is now trapped under Joel. There are enough pillows to maybe set one between you both, make a little barrier of sortsâŚ
Would Joel be mad if he woke up in the same bed as you? You shift your weight from one foot to the other, mind racing with every possible reason as to why he would be mad, before you finally take a deep breath and tiptoe to the other side.
Without giving yourself time to talk yourself out of it you climb under the covers, setting a pillow in between you, praying that Joel wonât be upset in the morning as you drift off.
*~*~*~*~*~*
Joel wakes up slowly, conciseness coming to him little by little with the early morning sun lighting the room. Heâs warm, body heavy and mind sluggish from what has possibly been his best sleep in years. Selfishly he wants to hold onto it a little longer, screw whatever he thought he needed to get done today and bury himself back into his dreamless sleep.
Itâs only when he shifts, his chin bumping something firm, does he feel the weight on him. Blinking slowly he lifts his head, looking down to find himself tangled up with you. Your head is resting on his shoulder, leg slung over his hip while his own is slotted between your thighs, and youâve seemed to have lost your pants; Joel being granted a perfect view of your black panties that hide little to the imagination.
And all of the sudden heâs overly aware of you, of how soft your waist is under his callused palm, of how you still smell of sugar cookies and lavender, of the little puffs of air leaving you full lips ghosting across his neck. Then there is how his flannel has morphed to your curves, twisted around your body showing the pudge of your stomach and his blood is rushing somewhere⌠South.
All he can think about is how damn good you look wearing only his clothing. Joelâs heart rate picks up, his fingers drifting to your hair on their own, carding themselves through the soft strands, âSunshine.â
You hum in your sleep, grip tightening around him as you nuzzle closer, lips brushing the column of his throat making him hold his breath as you settle again.
Iâm going to hell.
Itâs all he can think, his body so readily responding to you and youâre not even aware of it. Youâre in your thirtyâs for fucks sakes he shouldnât even be considering this⌠butâŚ
Tentatively, his grip tightens on your hair, pulling your head back so he can finally see your face. You look so peaceful, your features soft and delicate in your sleep he almost hates to ruin it. Almost.
âHoney ⌠sweet girl wake up.â Joelâs voice is firmer, cutting into your sleep, rousing you with a small grumble.
âWhatâŚâ You voice is horse, rolling your head to the side as you yawn, sleep holding on tight.
âItâs just me.â He canât stop himself, seeing the length of your neck exposed like that, he leans down, gently kissing the delicate skin and you gasp, body tensing slightly. âJust me.â His thigh shifts up, pressing between your own and he can feel the heat radiating off of you through his sweatpants and it makes him feral.
âW-Ah⌠what are you doing?â You whimper, eyes pinching shut, fingers digging into his ribs as he finds that soft spot just under your ear earning another small gasp.
âRepaying you⌠For last night.â His grip on your hair disappears, finding your hip and rolling you onto your back. Your eyes snap open, breath trapped in your throat at the intense look of lust etched into Joelâs face. Now that you can fully see him your stomach tightens, need zipping down your spine as your eyes drink him in.
Just like his back his chest is defined, shoulders broad with a light dusting of hair that runs down to his stomach, and just past the waistband of his sweats where you can clearly see the outline of hisâŚ
You swallow audible, causing Joel to snort. Your eyes dart back to his and you swear you can feel your body melting with the fire in his gaze. He dips his face closer, bumping his nose against yours and smiles as you nervously squirm, thighs clenching around his where it still rests pressed against your mound.
âThis okay?â As he speaks his lips just barely touch your own and you already feel your thoughts emptying out one by one as you nod slowly, eyes never leaving his own. âTell me, need to hear your sweet voice.â
âTh-this is okay.â
With that heâs on you, restraint snapping as he finally kisses you, rough and hungry and desperate. Teeth, tongue and spit, forcing a moan from your throat with the intensity of it all, that Joel is all too happy to swallow up. His thigh presses in closer, your hips bucking involuntarily, dragging a moan from low in his chest.
Your hands slide up to his shoulders, gripping anything you can find for leverage as he sinks you into the mattress, drowning you in the covers, the pillows, and him.
Arousal consumes you, sparking in your stomach and traveling through your veins making you light headed, having not felt this type of high in many, many years. You grind yourself up against his thigh, your slick wetting your panties and soon creating a darker spot on his sweats.
You moan as he pulls away, attacking your neck again and pulling at your shirt, trying to expose whatever skin he can. âJ-Joel⌠m⌠whatâs.. whatâs gotten into you?â Your losing your breath, the hand he isnât propping himself up with traveling over your body, down your thigh, up your side, fingers sliding along the other side of your throat making goosebumps raise the hairs on your skin.
âJust want you, been wanting you since I laid eyes on you.â He admits, your face flushing with heat. âDâya know how many times Iâve fucked my hand thinking about you? All laid out and pretty on my cock.â A filthy moan leaves your lips, grinding against his thigh to relieve the ache building between your legs.
Joel sits back, both hands finding your hips, encouraging your movements. âThatâs right sweet girl, just like that.â You whine into the air, hands dropping to the bed gripping the sheets. He stares down at you, lust darkening his brown eyes as you grind against him. âMake all those pretty sounds for me, itâs just us.â
You nod, chasing after your building pleasure, breathy moans falling from your lips. Joel ruts against the back of your thigh, hands bruising your hips in the most delicious way. âJ-Joel⌠need more⌠pleaseâŚâ Your clit throbs painfully, the angle youâre at restricting you from rubbing it how you want against his thigh.
âSo greedy, go ahead play with yourself baby, wanna see you cum on my thigh before I fuck you, senseless.â Your fingers find your clit and rub harsh circles through the damp fabric of your panties, flying to that familiar peak, teetering right on the edge as you moan his name, hips frantic, but you need more, you want more.
Joel coos softly, enjoying your struggle. The pinched look, the wobble of your lips, as you search for that last little something. âI know you can do it baby, cum for me. Show me how good you can be and soak my thigh.â His words are your tipping point, sending you spiraling into that void of dark bliss as your orgasm rips through you.
The noises that leave your delicate throat consume Joel, and heâs whispering soft praises that you donât hear, watching your legs tremble and hand still. âThere it is, did so good for me baby.â You go limp underneath him, chest heaving with each shuddering breath, eyes shut and mind to far gone.
âLet me get this off of you.â He takes his time, slowing down to let you ride your bliss, undoing each button of the flannel. âSit up.â You hardly have to, just lifting your shoulders and head before he throws the flannel across the room and youâre sunk back into the pillows.
Your panties and his sweats follow shortly after. His lips back on you, kissing between your breasts his beard scratching your skin in the most delirious way. âJoelâŚâ
But his fingers are finding your slick heat, a groan reverberating through his chest and into yours. âSo fucking wet, you liked that baby? Like getting yourself off on my thigh?â Warm embarrassment fills your belly, reigniting that fire. You nod slowly, keeping your eyes shut to avoid his intense gaze. âYou getting shy on me now? Just a second ago you were fucking my leg.â He smiles against your skin watching the red tinting your cheeks grow darker, turning your away from him.
âJ-Joel donât⌠Donât be mean.â
âNot beinâ mean.â Two thick fingers are suddenly sinking into you, a shrill cry retching itself from your throat. âJust given ya what ya want.â Your brain turns to mush with each pump of his fingers, hands scrambling to find any perches, a set of nails digging into his shoulder, the other tugging at the sheets. âFuck⌠youâre so tight, gotta get you ready for me.â
His thumb finds your clit, working the bundle of nerves making moans echo through the room. Those thick fingers press against that gummy spot inside you that makes your hips stutter, your moans a little louder and he smiles in triumph, teeth nipping your breast watching the skin bloom with red marks. âSâthat the spot?â
âMmhmmâŚâ it takes everything you have just to hum out an answer, mouth hanging open, thighs trembling as youâre brought back to orgasm, again. Climbing that mountain, no running it, to your tipping point.
âCan feel you squeezing my fingers baby, you gonna cum again so soon?â Joel doesnât need your reply, even if you could give him one, your hips rocking to meet the rhythm heâs set. He doesnât ease up, watching you come undone below him with a few more expert swipes of his thumb across your throbbing clit.
You make him feel young again, his body thrumming with pure, carnal lust. Something he hasnât felt in years as he draws his slick coated fingers to his mouth, tasting you for what, hopefully, will be the first time of many. âMmm⌠So sweet baby, I could spend hours just eating you.â
You whine pathetically, shaking your head back and forth, hair clinging to your face with sweat. âC-canâtâŚâ Joel shakes his head, laughing darkly before tapping your cheek with the pads of his fingers.
âLook at me, Sunshine.â The timber in his voice makes you obey instinctively, finding his steady gaze. He grips your chin, fingers pressing into your cheeks making your lips pout comically. âI know youâve got one more in ya, I need to feel your cunt squeeze my cock. Think you can do that for me? Hmm?â
Joel shifts closer as he speaks, settling himself between your shaking thighs. His cock brushes against your puffy lips drawing a small whine from the back of your throat. You nod, Joel letting go of your checks as arousal washes through you once more, almost painfully so, as he rocks forward, the underside of his cock slipping easily through your damp folds, coating himself in your cream.
He hunkers over you, forcing your legs wider and rests on one elbow as he guides his cock to your opening, nudging in. âRelax darlinâ, donât wanna hurt you.â
Before you can even comprehend what is being said Joel thrusts forward, sinking in a few inches with a grovel moan. Your toes curl, eyes squeezing shut with a whine, the stretch hurting in a way you never want to stop.
âF-fuck Joel⌠s-so big.â A hand slips into his hair, tugging harshly causing him to gasp, a wicked smile pulling at his lips.
âYou havenât seen nothin yet, little girl.â He pins you to the mattress with his weight, thrusting until heâs fully seated inside you, heavy balls pressed to your ass. Your pussy squeezes him tightly, pain mixing with the pleasure intoxicatingly. Heâs big, bigger than any man youâd been with in years, and as he pulls out only to thrust back in, the head of his cock kisses your cervix.
âOooooh fuuuck!â You cling to his shoulders, his neck, his back, legs locking around his middle; anywhere to pull him closer as his pace evens out, fucking into you roughly. The old bed squeaks, headboard tapping the wall and above it all are the sounds leaving your lips to mix with his.
âFeel so good baby⌠been dreaming about this pussy.â Joel huffs out between thrusts, pressing his forehead to yours. The farther he slips into his arousal the thicker his accent gets, words dripping onto your nerves like honey.
âWanted you to⌠so long Joel .â You pant, rocking your hips to match what heâs giving you. That glorious pressure building again in your body, cunt fluttering around his cock. âDonât stop⌠oh fuck please donât stop.â You can feel every ridge and vein rubbing along your walls in just the right way, his mushroom head bullying that sweet spot making your eyes roll.
âNot gonna stop, baby. Not gonna stop.â Joel groans, one hand gripping your waist to steady himself as he bullies his cock into you.
Your fingers slip between your bodies, finding your clit with a soft moan, rubbing tight circles. âIâm⌠im gonna cumâŚâ you whine against his lips, noses bumping, breathing each others air.
âCome on then⌠cum on my cock baby, let me feel it.â Joel knows he wonât last much longer his thrust starting to turn sloppy. âFuck⌠wanna fuck you full of me, watch it drip out. Youâd like that wouldnât you? Let everyone know who fucked you so good huh?â You thighs squeeze his hips in response to far gone to acknowledge him as you topple over the edge, crying his name as the pleasure blinds you momentarily.
Joel cusses burying his face in the side of your neck, your cunt sucking him in . âFuck baby, fuck baby, fuck!â He pulls back, cock twitching and jets of cum landing on your stomach and abused lips. He fists himself, grunting against your shoulder as he comes down, body relaxing and dopamine flowing through him.
âJ-JoelâŚâ You breath, feeling his weight more and more.
âMâ SorryâŚâ He whispers, rolling himself onto his back, your stiff legs dropping to the mattress. Youâre both panting wildly, chests heaving and sweat coating your skin.
You blink at the ceiling slowly, the neurons in your brain starting to fire again. âWellâŚâ A small laugh bubbles out of you, Joel lazily looking over at you confused. âIâve never been woken up like that before.â
Joel scoffs loudly and your giggle turns into a full laugh, lifting your head to look down at yourself. âDo I at least get a rag?â
âBetter, ya can come get in the shower with me.â Joel groans as he sits up, giving you his hand. âGonna need another one of those messages after that.â