Empty Space

I fall asleep with the ghosts of every drink I ever swallowed or every cigarette I ever smoked and every love I ever lost

Your absence has made me start talking to God in the middle of the night. I reread your letter almost every day, still unsure of who was wrong. You left me alone after I trusted you not to. I needed you to be on my side when I was fighting my demons. And I don't know how, but I forgave you for leaving, for making me fight all alone. I'm much stronger than you.

your world and my world

I'm on my way to fully realizing that I deserve love and happiness. It's not necessary for you to join me now, but it'd sure be nice if you did. I don't have time to wait for you. Come now, if you are, for I must be going. The car is running, my sweetheart.

     so why can’t we?

You don’t have to say the right thing Just don’t say the wrong thing Please.

Hello, all. Would any else care for a drink? Just me?

I can’t share my happiness with you because I don’t have any myself. I can’t buy you things because I don’t have a job and still need to eat. I’m living for you because I want to die for anything else. Right now it’s all about me and what I can’t be But it should be about you and all you can do. I guess I’m telling you to leave. You could be happy out there without me.

To remedy this, I have decided to stop bracing myself for the impact.