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i got that dog in me (whining until I get attention)

Maybe I deserve all the terrible things that happened to me

I'VE ISOLATED MYSELF FOR TOO LONG and now I'm sure people hate me and they're tired of me being this way so what's even the point of me going back?!

Bpd makes me feel like a beaten shelter dog that bites and barks at everything even when I’m being shown genuine kindness

realizing no one will ever love you the way you want to be loved. no one will ever see you how you want to be seen. it's all so fucking useless.

I'm too normal/boring for when I'm masking and I'm too insane for people when I'm not masking

The best medication that could help me with my mental illness?a bullet through my head

everything in life feels so simulated and weird. idk how to describe it. not in a losing touch with reality way. im saying like literally none of this feels real and everything feels incredibly hostile. is everyone already dead or something? like what is going on

I feel so bad when I interact with a person too much like surely they must be getting tired and bored of me, right? They must want to interact with other people too, right? They're getting annoyed by me

a "white boy" is a type of invasive freshwater fish closely related to the common carp

I yearn to be chosen and prioritized for once. I've always existed in the background where I'm eventually forgotten about.