-MeC-

5 years of resisting the temptations.

You made me feel like I didn't need it, like everything could be solved with you by my side.

But untill then,

I'll comfort myself the only way I know how.

I am always near when you call,

I live my life to please you so,

I'd give my life to not see you go,

I should know by now how these things go,

However, I always hope and pray it won't be so,

I get chosen over, time and time again,

Like the third place trophy dying for a win,

The pain I feel is so unreal. It claws and rips and destroys me within,

I cry while I try to cut the pain out,

I try not to cry and wake the world with my shouts,

This hurts in a way you will never know,

And it's killing me to let you go,

Though I fought to heal in my despair,

All I really want is to not be here.

Or fairytale come true,

All I've ever wanted,

Was to be enough,

And

Mean something to you.