Thanks for the tags @green-socks and @shealwaysreads

LAST SONG: Thunderstruck by ACDC (Monday morning, first day back at school after the winter holidays, had to get two teenagers out of bed at 7am... needed a song with some punch.)

CURRENTLY WATCHING: I don't watch very much TV. At all. My friends start conversations with "Have you seen..." and then they look at me and go "No, of course you haven't." However, they are genuinely surprised and delighted when I *have* seen something, because they know I can talk about it. A lot. So last thing I watched was HR* with a group of friends as four of them had never seen it so we made it a social occasion.

CURRENT OBSESSION: Still deep in the trenches of Top Gun Maverick (I know, I know). I have written over 1M words in the last three years for this particular fandom, and it will tip over 1.5M by the end of the year.

CURRENTLY READING: I just finished John Rich and the Big Picture yesterday by Ngozi Uzuka and am also reading Mrs Victoria buys a Brothel by Talhi Briones.

CURRENTLY WORKING ON: Ten different TGM WIPs and two Glee WIPs which I still poke at occasionally. I also have a patchwork quilt I am hoping to finish piecing together this weekend so I can get it quilted and then FINISHED for the baby's first birthday.

CURRENTLY WEARING: I am at work, so I am wearing black dress pants and a beige woolen top with large sketchy flowers drawn on it?

LAST GOOGLE SEARCH: This was for Tongariro National Park, not because I needed to know about it, but wanted an info link to send someone else.

FAVORITE FLOWER: Roses and sunflowers. I really love flowers. Dahlias and freesias, azaleas, tulips and daffodils... the pops of colour always make me smile.

Zero-pressure tags, but also I am curious and nosey - if you have already done it feel free to point it out to me so I can read it:

@sunmontuewrites thank you for the tag <3

LAST SONG: The Unforgiven II

CURRENTLY WATCHING: House of the Dragon and I’m totally trying (and failing) to catch up with it so I can watch the new season in real time. Also started Six (about SEAL team six)

CURRANT OBSESSION: also still deep in Top Gun Maverick trenches. Recently I was thinking how that’s my longest uninterrupted hyper fixation of my young life. And got addicted to cornflakes chocolate and my kindle.

CURRENTLY READING: Since I got my kindle I’ve been reading a lot. 1. I’m trying to get through ACOTAR but it’s really hard for me to get into it cause it reminds me of twilight to much. 2. Musicophilia by Oliver Sacks, it’s amazing big recommendation 3. Reading through and practicing Arban’s complete conservatory method for Trumpet 4. last but not least what ever fic I stumble upon to relax my brain from all the other reading, currently a reread of When we get around to talking about it by COMPACFLT

CURRENTLY WORKING ON: Getting better on trumpet, I have a few fic ideas I’m trying to get on paper (fingers crossed any of them see the light of day), getting my physical health in order

CURRENTLY WEARING: black pajama set

LAST GOOGLE SEARCH: phone number for the local food joint

FAVORITE FLOWER: this particular Echinopsis chamaecereus hybrid (mom and I collect cacti)

No pressure tagging:

Last song: Jealous type by Doja Cat

Currently watching: Suleiman the magnificent (I am a sucker for historical dramas that are too over the top)

Current obsession: Mmm... Writing some Mahmić dating headcanons (Idc how weird it is! I need it in my life!!!)

Currently reading: Letters from Sarajevo ( documenting the letter exchanges between a daughter and her family during the siege of Sarajevo and her POV as someone who was in America at the time) and Da Vinci's code

Currently working on: Getting more sleep than I did in the past six months. Also working on getting rid of some of my make up

Currently wearing: Pink pajamas with cat prints!

Last google search: Pedri holding the World Cup trophy

Favorite flower: PINK TULIPS!!

Thanks for the tags @green-socks and @shealwaysreads

LAST SONG: Thunderstruck by ACDC (Monday morning, first day back at school after the winter holidays, had to get two teenagers out of bed at 7am... needed a song with some punch.)

CURRENTLY WATCHING: I don't watch very much TV. At all. My friends start conversations with "Have you seen..." and then they look at me and go "No, of course you haven't." However, they are genuinely surprised and delighted when I *have* seen something, because they know I can talk about it. A lot. So last thing I watched was HR* with a group of friends as four of them had never seen it so we made it a social occasion.

CURRENT OBSESSION: Still deep in the trenches of Top Gun Maverick (I know, I know). I have written over 1M words in the last three years for this particular fandom, and it will tip over 1.5M by the end of the year.

CURRENTLY READING: I just finished John Rich and the Big Picture yesterday by Ngozi Uzuka and am also reading Mrs Victoria buys a Brothel by Talhi Briones.

CURRENTLY WORKING ON: Ten different TGM WIPs and two Glee WIPs which I still poke at occasionally. I also have a patchwork quilt I am hoping to finish piecing together this weekend so I can get it quilted and then FINISHED for the baby's first birthday.

CURRENTLY WEARING: I am at work, so I am wearing black dress pants and a beige woolen top with large sketchy flowers drawn on it?

LAST GOOGLE SEARCH: This was for Tongariro National Park, not because I needed to know about it, but wanted an info link to send someone else.

FAVORITE FLOWER: Roses and sunflowers. I really love flowers. Dahlias and freesias, azaleas, tulips and daffodils... the pops of colour always make me smile.

Zero-pressure tags, but also I am curious and nosey - if you have already done it feel free to point it out to me so I can read it:

@sunmontuewrites thank you for the tag <3

LAST SONG: The Unforgiven II

CURRENTLY WATCHING: House of the Dragon and I’m totally trying (and failing) to catch up with it so I can watch the new season in real time. Also started Six (about SEAL team six)

CURRANT OBSESSION: also still deep in Top Gun Maverick trenches. Recently I was thinking how that’s my longest uninterrupted hyper fixation of my young life. And got addicted to cornflakes chocolate and my kindle.

CURRENTLY READING: Since I got my kindle I’ve been reading a lot. 1. I’m trying to get through ACOTAR but it’s really hard for me to get into it cause it reminds me of twilight to much. 2. Musicophilia by Oliver Sacks, it’s amazing big recommendation 3. Reading through and practicing Arban’s complete conservatory method for Trumpet 4. last but not least what ever fic I stumble upon to relax my brain from all the other reading, currently a reread of When we get around to talking about it by COMPACFLT

CURRENTLY WORKING ON: Getting better on trumpet, I have a few fic ideas I’m trying to get on paper (fingers crossed any of them see the light of day), getting my physical health in order

CURRENTLY WEARING: black pajama set

LAST GOOGLE SEARCH: phone number for the local food joint

FAVORITE FLOWER: this particular Echinopsis chamaecereus hybrid (mom and I collect cacti)

No pressure tagging:

*At the other side of the 118*

Not only that he’s growing into himself, his looks (this is his most attractive season, argue with the wall) and his personality

But he’s also finding his place in the world, of course he’s known for the longest that he was supposed to be a firefighter but I mean with Theo

Eddie is so attracted to the way Buck functions as a parent (on top of physical attraction, ofc) and that he’s kinda just stupidly in love with every part of him

Eddie’s always seen this with buck and Chris but since Theo is so young he see’s it even more, especially the playfulness! And there’s nothing I can really say that encompasses how much love Eddie feels for Buck especially in moments when it’s just them and Theo and Buck is showing Eddie something new he taught Theo or just balancing talking to Eddie and playing with Theo at the same time because Theo is too important to him to just ignore.

And let’s not even get into the way he dresses now, Eddie definitely loves DILF Buck 👀

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

It shows that we are conditioned from a young age to believe that if we don't do what is expected of us, that it is a personal failing, regardless of if those expectations are actually achievable without inflicting harm upon ourselves.