Oh well, whatever, nevermind

Kopf voller Gedanken, Beine am schwanken. Herz immer offen, meistens besoffen. Blick stets nach unten, in Träume versunken. Sie blicken dich an, du blickst nicht zurück. Fühlst dich allein unter tausend Menschen, diese Welt ist verrückt.

I can´t do this anymore. The truth is I already tried longer than I could bear. It just hurts me, everything hurts me. Everything is too much, everything is too intense, everything is too hurtful. I genuinely can´t take it anymore. I lost people, lost memories, lost myself, lost my feelings. Most of the time I feel numb and that´s funny because once I felt everything too much and I never thought that I’m able too feel nothing. I always thought it only happens to other people when they are hurt so much that their feelings turn off but now it happened to me. I guess I already took more than I could. I know it´s going to hurt a few people when I´m gone but I can´t only live for other people anymore, I‘m doing this since I´m 14 - now I´m 26. Half of my life I only live for other people. I think I´ve tried it long enough. I´m really sorry for everyone who´s going to be hurt but I really really tried. I hope that they´ll know how much I tried.

some friendship breakups are hurting more than romantic breakups