I’murdad

FROM KG TO LB:

30 kg = 66 lbs

31 kg = 68,2 lbs

32 kg = 70,4 lbs

33 kg = 72,6 lbs

34 kg = 74,8 lbs

35 kg = 77 lbs

36 kg = 79,2 lbs

37 kg = 81,4 lbs

38 kg = 83,6 lbs

39 kg = 85,8 lbs

40 kg = 88 lbs

41 kg = 90,2 lbs

42 kg = 92,4 lbs

43 kg = 94,6 lbs

44 kg = 96,8 lbs

45 kg = 99 lbs

46 kg = 101,2 lbs

47 kg = 103,4 lbs

48 kg = 105,6 lbs

49 kg = 107,8 lbs

50 kg = 110 lbs

51 kg = 112,2 lbs

52 kg = 114,4 lbs

53 kg = 116,6 lbs

54 kg = 118,8 lbs

55 kg = 121 lbs

56 kg = 123,2 lbs

57 kg = 125,4 lbs

58 kg = 127,6 lbs

59 kg = 129,8 lbs

60 kg = 132 lbs

61 kg = 134,2 lbs

62 kg = 136,4 lbs

63 kg = 138,6 lbs

64 kg = 140,8 lbs

65 kg = 143 lbs

66 kg = 145,2 lbs

67 kg = 147,4 lbs

68 kg = 149,6 lbs

69 kg = 151,8 lbs

70 kg = 154 lbs

71 kg = 156,2 lbs

72 kg = 158,4 lbs

73 kg = 160,6 lbs

74 kg = 162,8 lbs

75 kg = 165 lbs

76 kg = 167,2 lbs

77 kg = 169,4 lbs

78 kg = 171,6 lbs

79 kg = 173,8 lbs

80 kg = 176 lbs

81 kg = 178,2 lbs

82 kg = 180,4 lbs

83 kg = 182,6 lbs

84 kg = 184,8 lbs

85 kg = 187 lbs

86 kg = 189,2 lbs

87 kg = 191,4 lbs

88 kg = 193,6 lbs

89 kg = 195,8 lbs

90 kg = 198 lbs

91 kg = 200,2 lbs

92 kg = 202,4 lbs

93 kg = 204,6 lbs

94 kg = 206,8 lbs

95 kg = 209 lbs

96 kg = 211,2 lbs

97 kg = 213,4 lbs

98 kg = 215,6 lbs

99 kg = 217,8 lbs

I can feel my arms getting bigger, my fingertips slowly getting further apart from each other until all I could grab onto was the fat that hangs off from my arm. I can feel my legs getting bigger, thighs stretching wide until I could feel the fat that rubbed off each other as I sat, as I walked, as I stood. I can feel my stomach getting bigger, what once I thought was just bloating turned to fat spilling out of my jeans.

I should have not let myself go.

I can feel my fingers getting bigger, surrounded by fat stopping my rings from fitting in. I can feel my feet getting bigger, my once perfect fit shoes becoming tighter. I can feel my face getting bigger, face covered with fat making my nose look bigger than before, hiding my cheekbones and my once-prominent eyes.

I should have not let myself go.

I can feel myself getting bigger, my once old loose clothes getting fit, even tighter on my body. I can feel myself getting larger, drowning in the fat that I kept on eating and eating, losing myself in the process.

They mean drink water, take your vitamins, don’t overwork yourself on a fast day, don’t push your body farther than it can go

-reblog if your ask box is open-

🍣 What’s your favorite food?

🍍Food you hate the most.

🍕Do you like to watch mukbang videos when hungry?

🧀 Favorite mukbang YouTube channel.

🍦Do you purg3?

🍺 Do you like alcoholic drinks?

🫐 What was the last meal you had?

🍫 How long have you been struggling with Eds?

🍎 What is your ‘skinny girl dream?’

🥑 Do you take any laxatives?

🍔 Top 3 people whose bodies are your dream goal.

🍑 2 0cal drinks.

🥝 2 safe foods.

🧋 Top 3 favorite accounts.

☕️ Do your friends know about your ED?

🧊 What do you do when fasting becomes too hard?

🥓 Have you ever been hospitalized because of your ED?

🥞 What’s your GW?

I'm sorry if I help fuel your ed

I'm sorry if this account is one of the reasons you have an ed

In sorry if you looked on my page out of curiosity then stumbled down the rabbit hole

I'm sorry if my page influenced your ed in anyway

But let me say something

It might be too late for those people but please I'm BEGGING you if you don't have an ed and are at the "curiosity" stage let me tell you the saying "Curiousity Killed the Cat" has never rang more true, so LEAVE. I'm not asking you nicely I'm telling you FUCKING LEAVE.

I don't care if I seem rude to you, get the fuck off tumblr RIGHT NOW. I ignored these when I saw them and I regret it this disorder is one of the WORST things that happened to me, you know anorexia is the most deadly mental illness ? If you don't recover you will DIE.

I want to scream through my phone, I am so fucking angry, I don't want to influence any eating disorders !!!

As the sister of a recovered anorexic being their family member is horrible, seeing someone slowly deteriorate, hearing the fights escalate, not knowing when you would see them for the last time, wondering why they won't eat this. When I was 8, my parents FORBADE ME FROM WAKING MY BIG SISTER UP IN FEAR I WOULD SEE HER DEAD BODY. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ?! THEY THOUGHT A CHILD, A BABY, WOULD SEE THE PERSON SHE LOOKS UP TO DEAD.

THIS ILLNESS IS NO JOKE, NOT A SKINNY DISNEY FAST PASS, NOT A CUTE QUIRK, IT'S DEADLY.

And as an anorexic let me tell you, it's even worse. You will cry in front of the mirror, pinch your "fat" until it's red, shower in the dark, the scale will be your best friend and worse enemy, you will hate yourself so much more, you will MISS FOOD, you will miss being able to eat fries or pizza or spring rolls or crisps or potatoes, you may be thinking "I'll still let myself eat them from time to time" NO YOU WON'T, you will probably have a breakdown when you have them on your plate, you might purge, you might starve for the next day or more. Your personality will dissolve, you will be constantly angry and irritable.

Oh and also, if you have siblings or cousins I would like to inform you that people are more likely to have an ed if a family member had one and I KNOW you care about your family. (I am not accusing any one of purposefully influencing family members it's just for information)

“Tony eats 1200 calories a day of energy drinks and chocolates and weighs in at 6 stone”

Me: *eating 500 calories a day of protein and veggies and gaining weight*