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Every time I need moments to be alone, I always go back here. Maybe because it's a familiar place, maybe because my heart feels comfort here and that I don't owe anybody an explanation why I feel these feelings. People may fail to see and I may fail to make them understand, how telling all these things here makes me feel a little better. Maybe because it's like a best friend to me. Maybe it's because this place is like the walls in my room that will just absorb everything that I will say and maybe that's all I ever needed. Or maybe not. Maybe.

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I can’t think of any other ways than starting my summer by celebrating it with this kick-off event of Halo Mobile Clothing last March 14, 2015 at SM City North EDSA Annex. Summer is officially on as Halo welcomed this season with a festival theme which totally fits the fun and excitement brought by the new products that were launched that will allow you to #LetYourStyleSpeak.

Halo put the fun to a lot higher level by making their loyal customers experience the different booths in the event. The booths were enjoyed by group of friends and families which came to the festival of the season. People who went to the event alone never felt lonely because they were able to take a picture with Mr. John Lloyd Cruz in the “HEY, SAY CHEESE” booth.

#HALO Mobile Clothing #Bags #Gadgets #HALO #Halo Summer Festival

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someone: ano na ba relationship status niyo? ako: bawal umasa, dapat happy lang. ang hirap kasi sagutin, kasi wala namang "kami", at not any time soon nakikita ko na magiging kami kasi nga hirap na hirap ako bumwelo para sabihin sa kanya yung nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. ang hirap talaga ng ang combo ng personality mo eh joker x torpe, kasi kapag ganun parang dinaig ko pa yung mga ligaw na kaluluwa sa puro paramdam lang. yung puro pasimple lang, hindi ko masabi nang diretso na " mahal kita, pwede bang malaman kung saan yung bahay niyo tapos mameet na parents mo, sana walang shot gun tatay mo. kasi liligawan kita." (originally, tinype ko na name mo diyan, kaso baka mabasa mo 'to kaya siyempre inedit ko 'tong part na 'to para idelete yun.)

ilang beses ko na sinubukan na sabihin pero hirap na hirap ako, ewan ko nga ba, simpleng bagay pero parang kinaduduwagan ko pa. ayokong umasa pero ano pang magagawa ko, minsan nga ang gulo na kasi parang asang asa na ako. no no no yon, kasi kapag umasa na, dun na masasaktan lalo na kapag di naman pala mutual. sa tingin ko yun yung part na takot ako, inaamin kong takot lang naman talaga ako na baka hindi mo naman pala ako gusto katulad ng pag kagusto ko sayo.

di naman ako nagmamadali kasi ilang months narin tayong ganito, at hindi naman majority ng panahon na yun ay sobrang okay. siguro nga kung pwede lang nagcelebrate pako ng monthsaries kahit hindi pa tayo. hahaha bad trip diba. at pasensiya ka na kung sa tingin ko ganito, na baka masabihan ka ng hindi maganda dahil lang sa ginagawa mo. basta ang alam ko hindi naman kita sinisisi sa nararamdaman ko, kasi ako ang may control ng feelings ko. ako lang 'to. ako palang 'to, wala naman kasing 'tayo'.

baka kasi; masaya ka lang na kausap ako, baka natutuwa ka lang saken, baka kasi madami ka lang time para makausap ako, baka sobrang bait mo lang talaga para imention yung mga bagay na nagagawa ko na hinahangaan mo, baka caring ka lang talaga kaya moko pinapaalalahanan sa mga bagay na wala namang nagpapaalala saken, oo alam ko namang hindi ka 'baka' kasi tao ka, pero baka naman kasi ganito ka sa lahat... na hindi naman 'to special treatment, na wala lang pala lahat 'yun, na hindi naman pala dapat gawing malaking bagay, kasi normal lang naman yun sayo. na natural lang na ganun ka, nakakainis naman kasi dahil sa mga ganung bagay na ginagawa mo, natural mas nagustuhan kita.

#dapat happy lang #jbanoiol

And if ever — just a big what if bubble popping above my head — you decided to come back to me, I would still be here for you. I won’t be so far away. But keep in mind that i’m not the same anymore, just like how much you’ve changed since the day I loved you. Loving you had been my source of happiness for a very long time, and the day you left is the same day when everything crashed in. So please understand that a lot of things have changed. It’s nice to know that I was wrong, saying that I can’t live without you. Because I can. I did. And I will prove that to you every day. Watch me.

#love #sez

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“Sino ba ang may kasalanan sa pagkalaglag ng dahon sa sanga ng puno? Yung gravity ba na hinihila papalayo sa sanga ang dahon? Yun bang dahon dahil bumitaw siya sa pagkakakapit sa sanga? o yun bang sanga dahil hinayaan niyang bumitaw sa pagkakakapit ang dahon?”

Lagi nalang natin problema ang “iwanan”. Ang sakit naman kasi talaga maiwan, lalo na kung hindi mo alam kung ano ang dahilan. Hindi kasi maiintindihan ng ibang tao hangga’t hindi nila nararanasan. Hindi nila alam yung pakiramdam na biglang may taong mawawala sa buhay mo. Sana hindi na kailanganin pang pagdaanan nila yung ganung sitwasyon para lang maintindihan nila na dapat hindi ganun basta basta nang iiwan.

Hindi daw lahat ng taong nakikilala natin ay permanente sa buhay natin. May iba na dadaan lang kaya dapat ihanda mo yung sarili mo. Kasi kung aasa ka sa kanila baka gumising ka nalang na wala ka nang kayang gawin nang mag-isa. Hindi lahat ng dahon lumalayo sa puno kapag natanggal na sa sanga, yung iba hinihipan pabalik ng hangin at yung iba naman tinatangay sa ibang puno. Sa huli , “pagtanggap” padin ang pinakamabuting solusyon. Wala nang sisihan, wag na. Nangyari na eh. Sa tinagal tagal ko nang narinig yang palaisipan na yan hangang ngayon napapaisip padin ako kung “meron bang may kasalanan?” “sino?”. At isa na yan sa mga pinakahindi ko makakalimutang palaisipan sa buhay ko.

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You don’t know it, do you? How it hard it has been for me since I lost you. That if I could just turn back time, i’d never let you go. It was never easy. Everything just felt like bullshit the day after you walked away. And to be honest, I’ve never felt this miserable about losing someone before. It’s just you who made me feel this way. Your existence gave me so much reasons to love this life I have and now that you’re gone, it feels like you took them away. It’s like i’m back to basics — trying to put every little piece of me that you broke.

#awww so i saw this and yeah #:c

the rain. the thunder. the lightning. i remember it all too well. that night when the sky is sad and won't stop from crying even for a second. and it's you who's on the other line, crying too, because you're afraid of the thunderstorm. you said you needed to hear my voice because it makes you feel a little less scared. that's why i didn't stop talking for the longest time in my life. i've sang 🎶 our favorite song and i was sorry for my voice but you said you love it so i continued. i told you things which made you forget about the thunders and i took your fear away. and said i love yous and "things-will-be-fine-babe" kind of stories. you told me that you're grateful that i was there for you and that you love me so. you even sent me a virtual hug and i swear in that moment i wish i was there to tuck you in my arms.

then you stop crying and the rain stopped from pouring too as the sound of the thunder subsides. and i was happy that you feel better then. whenever it rains, i always remember you.😕 i hate that i still remember you.😢 i even hate it that i hate remembering you. :'( i was there for you not just then but all along. yet you left me. and the day you left is the day i became afraid of thunderstorms. i'm afraid how can somebody whom i loved so much and gave everything that i can to make her feel happy and safe can easily leave me. you don't have any idea how afraid i am. how badly i cry every time i remember everything. it's raining now and the lightning strikes the earth as often as the thunder shouts out your name. and i'm badly frightened. then i realized maybe after all this time, you are my thunderstorm.

#literature #6th #rain #thunderstorm #:(

to everyone who had a bad day and can't sleep yet, those who can't stop to overthink things, those who feels that nobody loves them, who are betrayed, who are tired without any reason at all, may all of us find peace of mind tonight. tomorrow is another chance. good night.

hesezrawr

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If I am ignoring you, I apologize. I become distracted and will focus on one thing a while. Sometimes I’m just emotionally overwhelmed and I have to lay down for a while. I’m not ignoring you because it’s you it’s because life is distracting and hard and so sometimes I just need to stop talking to people and sometimes I do that suddenly.

#YES

trying ballpoint art.

#illustration #work in progress #thedailydoodles #traditional art #HTTYD #tootlhless

BLOGGERS EXPO II JULY 12, 2014 @ De La Salle University - Dasmariñas

Support us! 😊 matabangutak, pilosopogyno, hesezrawr, jmsabariaga, thepaulineanatomy and michael macalaos in Bloggers Expo II. VIP: 100 Php | GEN AD: 50 Php | COMMSOC MEMBERS: 30 Php. I will be there to talk about blogging and doodling. online registration (in order to secure the names for the gate passes in the University) for outsiders will be only until July 6, 2014, 12 midnight. See you there!

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there are those "good days" when you feel happy, contented, and you laugh a lot with your eyes. you tell a lot of stories to your friends, joke about nonsense things, sing stupid songs, dance with your both left feet, draw the weirdest shapes, and make the most out of your time thinking that nothing else matter in this world but your happiness. because you feel good, you forget all your problems -- you're in the best mood ever.

but there are these nights when you don't feel like talking to anyone, and nothing feels worth it anymore. nobody can make you feel any better because you won't let them do so. this is the "i-want-to-break-trophies" kind of night. you know you don't feel fine. and it's okay. no, it's not okay. then you'll start to think that "things-will-get-better" advice is bullshit. and things get confusing. and you don't know what to feel anymore. you'll feel sick but you're not sick, just tired -- or sad.

it's the kind of night when you'll remember everything you thought you've already forgotten. it's like going through those same damn nights after she left. and you can't do anything about it. because feelings are more powerful than your mind. you will remember and it will start to hurt you over again. you will hear the exact words she said right in your face; that she doesn't love you anymore. she. doesn't. want. to. be. with. you. anymore. and it will keep on resounding until pain is all that you're feeling. and in that moment you'd wish you have a chance to change the way things happened that night. that you'd wish she didn't walkaway, you'd wish she loved you enough to make her stay. i don't know :c

#jbanoiol #6th #:c

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“When the scientists of the future show up at my house with robot eyes and they tell me to try them on, I will tell the scientists to screw off, because I do not want to see a world without him.”

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1:54 AM and it’s cold. not because it’s raining, but because you’re not here.

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