Hero4TheCross

So ignore this I’m having fun mixing Snapchat filters and Instagram filters, I’m probably gonna do this with like all the pictures I took last night #bored #youunderstand #boredom #followｍe #whynot #sorryforthespam (at Harding Nursery, Inc.)

Also here is information you may need to know! https://docs.google.com/document/d/1--OqWopKhWhlb-BSXlbAO-3e42-JivFp2rA5CNNp5Vw

Warnings: I may get clingy. I may start to like you. I may be against what you believe (we can have a civil debate). I may over text in one text or message. Not looking to be roasted but I’m ok if you want to!

No like I tried having relationships from tinder or even just talking. And I get clingy. Literally three days gone and people stop talking to me. This last girl I liked like a fucking lot. She just hit the three day annoyingness and told me to stop talking. But like if you stay clingy is that like a better relationship if both love the clingyness? I’m talking about with like marriage and stuff. I know my brother would never stop texting his now wife and they have been married for like 6 years and they are still clingy to each other. I think no girl just wants that with me. I’m fucking weird. Like all my friends would text their gf all the time. I’m so fucking confused am I just not like a good person? Am I scary or is it the fact I’ve never had a real relationship? Explain to me because I’m clearly a idiot.

I'm 18, I have friends my age. My friends would literally be from f'ing one girl to another the next week. I don't understand how one dude can do this but literally every girl to talk to me is against even talking to me. I have no clue what it is or why, it's just everyone is a hoe but me. Weird to say something like that so boldly but I'm not even close to it. I don't even like talking to girls even as friends (I'm scared I would get attached and something weird would happen) idk what I'm talking about anymore

Snap: Hero4decross Don't care who you are but you'll see my dogs and stupid stories haha!! I'll talk to you probably!! Haha

So I'm in online school, I haven't had a bunch of people to talk to. So like I when I get a friend I get super clingy. So I had this one friend that actually cared for me happened to be a she. So when I was getting cheated on and freaking out she helped. So I got hit clingy and let that be said by accident. So now I'm blocked hahah :/. No friends left haha, no life haha kms

Trust your feelings. Use logic, if they get mad. Tell them to fuck off!! Her snap chat is "niqqa8474" when I confronted her about it she straight up told me to fuck off. I thought we had something. She didn't care. I'm also sure she's racist js. So please tell her to fuck off for me because she blocked me. Remember if she doesn't calm your overthinking she is doing that thing you thought.

So many stories, so many things so wrong!! The reason I'm depressed is because I'm scared for my future. My dream is to have a loving family, someone to spend my life with at least. It's all bad... my "friend" literally hangs out with girls to just fuck... I just want to hang out with ONE person that's my girlfriend. I'm actually getting to meet her on this upcoming weekend(we have been face timing and talking online)!!! I'm just scared because so many stories, so many things!! I've never even had my first kiss and I'm 18. I literally am scared that I'm not something she wants, or something. I'm scared that she'll be like "nah I hate you" (that won't happen). By what I was saying I was grown up on the base of make the girl as happy as possible and than sexual stuff happens way down the road. But like I don't do relationships for sex I do it for me to have someone in my life all the time. I just want my girlfriend but she may think otherwise.

I'm the type of dude that would cry over one of my friends relationships if any of them broke up for something like one of the people cheating. Doesn't matter who or why. No I would be sad for my friend I would be sad for both. A relationship is something that's post to be long, something that means a lot. Nether one should see someone behind the others back! My point of this part is just a relationship is something that should be valued again. All over the internet you hear people just being hoes with side hoes and what not. No one should ever try to push there way in between someone else's relationship. No it hasn't happened to me but I get sad even reading stories of it. There shouldn't ever be a thing called open relationships either it's either you guys don't want each other or not!! You should get jealous of who ever you're dating if someone hits on them. I my self will always work to improve my self for my girlfriend only! Not for someone else to ever look at! Now to the overthinking topic, this is dangerous and if you get depressed at night like me and like 70% of the people I know. If you have nothing else to do at night and all your doing is waiting for a reply from you someone (for me my girlfriend) you're probably going to start thinking, your doing nothing else and you get stuck on something like the possibility that she no longer likes you (I chose that because I have that problem) don't start putting together things don't recall a memory, do none of this stuff!! Remember what she told you what she was doing and start thinking about that, like my girlfriend says that her grandparents need her help a lot but she also goes to sleep early. So if she doesn't message me maybe she's either still helping or asleep!! Always think positive!! Clingy and being annoying topic now. If you get clingy and you know you are, if you are. Tell the person last thing you want is to get in a relationship and get clingy than suddenly she got annoyed of you (happened to me many times) and when I mean clingy don't call your self clingy if you wait 5 hours to reply. The clingy I'm talking about is accidentally send 3 messages when they don't reply in 5 minutes than sending a sorry message, than you may of thought it was a good idea to say "sorry for sending sorry" I'm with you on this all the way I mean girls don't like don't like clingy from dudes but apparently my girlfriend is fine with it!! So find your self a girl that's ok with that!! But don't overthink you annoyed her!! So this is my favorite topic, treat each other how you want to be. This can be thought of for everything but it's needed for a good relationship. I personally want to spend my day making my girl feel as happy as I can possibly make her. Sure that's not much because I'm not an impressive guy! But I want to try everything in my power to help with it! I find it joyful to do it to because seeing her happy makes me happy. So it doesn't matter if she doesn't try back because it should happen naturally!! Relationships need constant work!! So I have one more topic, it's more of a personal one but here. I was sending out streaks on Snapchat this morning, I felt guilty. It was a recording of my 808 canz showing the bass of the song "go f*ck yourself" by two feet, for anyone that knows that song knows the bass is amazing! Well anyways I was selecting the people to send it to. I realized that I had a bunch of girls in that's list. I don't talk to them I just send streaks because why not. I felt guilty because I was sending someone something that's not my girlfriend. You may be thinking oh that's because you might like them or something. No not even close, it's because I was still had communication with them and I get jealous of my girlfriend texting a dude! I just think I love my girlfriend that I felt bad because of sending out streaks or I'm just that weird. So is it weird to have passion for relationships this day in age? Have some people just kinda not care about it? I'm I weird clearly I am if you read it all and think it's all bad! But if you happen to feel the same and like this post, like it!! Sorry for the sloppy sentences and probably miss spelling I've been kinda stressed out from overthinking all night haha I didn't even follow my own advice haha!!

When texting and you get asked "what are you up to" or "what are you doing" don't reply with "nothing, how about you?". You want to have a conversation, literally anything can spark from explaining stuff. I know for sure well that you're breathing and doing something! That's either sitting standing or laying down. Maybe you're even doing something and just don't realize it. Playing games on your phone what kind? Or maybe writing, what are you writing about?!? Another thing if you're bored of a conversation with someone straight tell them.

So for this past week I've been trying to live stream on twitch. Let me tell you, if you have a mac and want to stream on twitch using Elgato gaming, don't. I started on Monday and I wasn't able to reach a single server. All I had was a blank or it saying "item 1" with the error 400 on start up. So I looked it up and there website said to remove browser cache sand remove the account from the program, and then restart your computer. Log back in on the program. Didn't work. Same "item 1" so I look up "item 1 elgato gaming twitch server" and 4 other people ran in to the same problem. All mac users. So I contact customer support and they email me to do the same before but hold down command when selecting twitch and hold down control when you hit log in. Nothing happened nothing changed. Elgato broke there own program when updating. It works just fine on 2.0 but when you update to 2.5 you aren't going to live stream on twitch. All the other options to live stream on are super bad or pointless to live stream on.

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now we get to the second part of the title and that is “Not a credit Farm!!” I really isn’t you want credits go run Sechura the dark sector right below it. its a defense. do that please don’t make the team leave the endo farm because you think its a grate idea to ruin peoples run. or just play solo. so you don’t bring people how are trying to max out there mods with you, or go play Akkad on eris please.