I met somone last month who was really cool, and who really liked me: they asked me out because they thought I was cute.
We went on (4) dates, which were my first romantic irl dates in 14 years; they were the first times I felt like a proper human being, with blood and bones and warmth and everything. I had my first orgasm around another person with them; they're the first person to give me a birthday date (in the park, where we had a picnic and flew kites). I wanted to tell them "I ❤️❤️❤️❤️ you".
They told me they know they can't be with someone into ageplay, and that our romantic relationship must end. What they don't know is that this is my end. I would have gone to the ends of the earth with her, but now I understand that I just need to be gone from the earth, that this is the end.
I haven't eaten since Wednesday, 4/9, my birthday. I ate leftovers from our picnic and I think that sounds like a great last meal to me: I'd like to keep it that way for as long as possible. I've stopped drinking water and taking diuretics: at least then I can stop shedding tears.
💌To my final You(s):
🐠I'm sorry I ruined something important, again.🐠
❤️Please remember it's about the memories we make, not the memories we lose; in that way, ABC always lives in/fo(u)r D❤️
🌌💕😘🐦And, to my one and only Bird: I'll always love you Bird-let: I hope now you can be finally free of my burdens and get to fly far without my worries🐦😘💕🌌
💜👩❤️💋👨👩❤️💋👩And to my last people in the world, all the people on this blog,👩❤️💋👩👩❤️💋👨
I'm so sorry to let this community down; please do your best to remember the happy, innocent life I tried to bring to the world through here. Please use whatever hope I had, where you can when you need it as you do.
Or don't, it's ok either way. You are all such special people: please keep finding each other and filling the cracks (or, cribs) of emptiness in the lives of others. I'm so proud to have been a little: I brought my littletude into every aspect of my life and it was the most rewarding choice I ever made. I regret nothing: bringing my authentic, open, naive self to the world was brave and it gave me opportunities I never would have dreamed of. It's unfortunate the world (in *so, so, so* many more ways, convergent on now, then just Her) hurt me for understanding who I was, but it's more fortunate that I (and we) finally did find my(/our)self(s). Please remember:
"Life is about the memories we make (in the times we're bounded by), not the memories we lose (by the bounds of our time)."
I love you all from the depths of my soul.💜
💔Here's to being forever free from being broken and free from the pain of breaking,💔
😘Love,😘
Ally
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