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Used me as an excuse I guess, wow

I'm kind of excited to see you awake though

Reminds me you're still the same you, so

I'll keep taking the blame for these small crimes

Don't worry Bae, I won't tell you're still up at these late times...

Cause you know I know and that's enough

Seeing this, I might just call your bluff

Only to myself though, well, and I guess to you

I'll take the satisfaction for what it's worth, does my knowing satisfy you too?

You get off on the twisted and the steady flow

Of getting caught and interrogated a rush a blow

That's okay though, I like this side

A little savage twist, you try to hide

I'm twisted too, that was our biggest flaw

At the end our demise was a sudden quick draw

You don't miss the chase

The way we carried ourselves

Across tear streaked waves

And raw cut chords

Of screaming voices

Tell me darling

That you were never aroused

By the cold impending doom

The unknown destruction

Building up... Anticipation

Tell me sweetheart

You're not playing now still...

If you told me so...

I wouldn't believe you

Because Dear love...

Your two steps ahead and then three steps behind

Whatever comes of this will come of this

So enjoy the twisted chase

For now...

Eventually

We will rise above

Or drag eachother fast and steady down

That's okay, for now.

I was there too...

I come in and out of that storm all day long

Just don't let it suffocate you

Or make you too proud

Your ego too big

My fingers bumping over each way too apparent ridge

They found their way to your back

As I thought you slept

I trail from shoulder to hip

Feeling goose bumps rise against my fingers

Listening to your breathing steady

Halted, by a sudden glow

Of forbidden words

Unspoken words with someone else

My fingers froze

On a day, normally filled to the brim with voices

A day of love and light

Celebrations and balloons

Do you hear the quiet too?

We could be outside together

Hand cupped gently in hand together

Soaking up the sun together

With all of our family together

Here

But instead

We are just two bodies

In different places

Staring at different walls

Realizing how small we've become

And how loud the quiet

Has become

Hair fractures are found to be any which way

So many thin lines of tare and destruction

That your best doctor

Can't save the limb

The wound was left to long

The cut too deep

The break neglected

Neither time nor aid will fix it

They said.

Time.

One day and the next will be better

These are the promises people make

These are the lies people feed you

The next day I'm always worse

The next day I've lost more hope

I feel a little more abandoned

Time.

I think...

Is solitary confinement

Guilting me to stay