henry ledore of jiraiblr!

(last updated: 7/1/26)

hello! my name is ellie or wish, and i'm henry ledore IRL! i'm the ego or main self in my self-collective: you can find our more about me here! it's so nice to meet you <3

this is a jirai (lifestyle) and whimsy twee (aesthetic) blog! i've been in mental health recovery for the past year now, but i've been relapsing a bit recently (urges to SH, disordered eating, etc.), so jiraiblogging is a way for me to cope... i'm sorry if i make anyone uncomfortable, but be forewarned that many of my posts will be uncomfortable ones! please unfollow/block me at any time if my blog hurts you in any way...

some more about me:

{they/them}

{nonbinary lesbian}

{bodily 20 years old}

{born 6/15/2006}

{cat therian/petre/agere}

{fictionkin}

{diagnosed: adhd, asd, gad, mdd, ocd, stpd}

{undiagnosed: bpd, npd}

{previously known as @/serendipity-sys, @/sayakas-wish)

{main blog/interacts from: @henryledorable}

(userbox by @/landminerui </3)

tag list:

#make a wish! <- posts in general

#wish granted! <- ask responses

#[character]posting <- posts about [character]

keep yourself safe everyone, and i hope you all have a great day <3

i genuinely don't know if i should keep bothering to post to this sideblog. i barely get any attention on my posts and anyway i don't think being on jiraiblr is particularly healthy for me? shrug. i might just move back to my main blog...

i can rest assured that i'm the one and only henry ledore whimsy twee futch lesbian jirai. there are no others

looks myself in the eye. yeah of course you're not gonna be a prototypical jirai you're literally a futch lesbian

i've been trying to post something about different types of androgyny for the past hour and it keeps turning out wrong. i think there's something ironic or poetic in that

folks irl are always telling me i'm a wonderful person with a lot going for me! i suppose i should appreciate that more and be happy with the attention i get, no? but still it's never enough for me :') i want to know i'm people's favorite... i want special treatment... cuz i only feel worth anything at all when i'm better than everyone else... (this is one of the main reasons why i think i might have NPD...)

i think i just had the gayest dream i've had in a while... i met up with my old best friend and told her i kept seeing her in my dreams, in happy dreams... she hugged me and sat really close to me so her cheek was pressed against mine... and as she was talking she was playing with my hair...! i don't even know if i have a crush on her or not irl but either way i think i should get back in touch with her cuz she's really sweet >///<

how suicidal do i need to be to get jiraiblr famous

it's weird... for a moment i was getting more attention than usual on here but now it's gone back to normal. i suppose i shouldn't be surprised? it was more of a fluke than anything

my favorite staff member talked to me one-on-one for over an hour and after giving me my meds he cleaned up and bandaged the scrapes on my knuckles from the punching bag... he's like a big brother to me :)

not allowed to SH anymore but i wanted to anyway so i beat up the punching bag in the garage without any gloves on. knuckles not quite as bloody as i would like but it's definitely better than nothing

i'm sorry all of my posts are so pathetic and depressing </3 my life really isn't bad enough to warrant that. i'm supposed to be a happy person

do you think i'm good at singing? :(

aishite, aishite, aishite...

my cover of creep by radiohead which absolutely nobody asked for and which absolutely nobody will like <3

i need to stop touching my acne so it can get better but i have the constant urge to pick at my skin so i'm always touching it. this is so targeted

i feel awful when i get jealous of my fellow jirais because most of you are younger than me and have it worse than me and here i am wanting to be more special than you???

you are all so talented and wonderful and you deserve all the positive attention you're getting! i'm sorry i'm such a terribly jealous person... i should be there celebrating you as well... but no, whenever anyone gets praise for something i'm supposed to be good at, suddenly i want to do that thing and hog the spotlight...! it's really awful so i'm sorry for that :')