right so, that face, from the infamous scene where Obito convinces Kakashi whoopdeedoo you SHOULD care about teammates and friends actually

BUT THAT'S THE THING THIS IS THE THING THAT MAKES ME SO FERAL ABOUT THSI

Kakashi ALWAYS cared about teammates and friends. Like it IS just a part of who he is. If he didn't actually care, it'd take alot more than a guy like Obito saying 1 thing to change his mind, because that was never the case

right? RIGHT YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT IM SAYING RIGHT

Kakashi's problem was never that he genuinely believed that he should prioritize rules over lives. Literally same scene, start of the scene, Obito asks him if he realizes what he's saying (ditching Rin to complete the mission) and THIS is the face he makes

He looks down BEFORE he looks up at Obito. Yes, he absolutely realizes what he's saying and he absolutely thinks it's messed up. He 100% thinks it's a gross and ugly truth, but it's still gross and ugly. Something he wishes weren't true. And then, what happens after that? Obito declares saving Rin takes priority over the mission. What does Kakashi do?

sdfasfdkmsafdlkaHE FREAKING LOOKS DOWN AGAIN and he just tells Obito the same dumb mantra he's had on loop in his head since his dad died about shinobis needing to carry out missions even at the expense of the team

Obito punches him, they get into an "argument" (ngl it felt more like Kakashi just word vomiting at Obito all the things he keeps telling himself to justify his own behavior because again, KAKASHI HIMSELF DOESN'T ACTUALLY BUY INTO IT, it's like he keeps needing to convince HIMSELF over and over)

Then Obito asks if Kakashi genuinely believes what he's saying/genuinely feels that way. And cue the face I go feral over.

HE DOESN'T KAKASHI DOESN'T ACTUALLY FEEL THAT WAY KAKASHI KNOWS HE'S FULL OF SHIT

He doesn't say yes immediately. He doesn't say yes with conviction. He looks down and away like he's guilty

And then of course he remembers his dad's suicide and

he hardens his resolve and THEN answers yes

Cuz what's really going on here? Kakashi's whole deal in the main series, yeah go after your friends, saving lives is more important, and he's always believed that. Obito was even SURPRISED when he first heard about baby-Kakashi suddenly going rules-comando-abandon-friendso because he had heard Kakashi declare that he cared about protecting his friends

we all know what's really going on here, *cough cough* Sakumo *cough cough* but like it's not JUST trauma

Kakashi is a child, he saw what happened to his dad, and MORE than being true to his own personal convictions, he's SCARED. He's scared of consequences. He doesn't believe you should abandon friends, but he is scared of the consequences of prioritizing them over the mission cuz he saw what happened to his dad

What do people do when they're scared? They try to gain control of the situation, his obsession with the rules, and they get angry, because anger feels better than fear. So now we have our cranky rules-driven boy

WHO STILL CARES ABOUT HIS FRIENDS

and does genuinely feel conflicted and horrible when he's forced to pick between being true to his own convictions, or listening to his fear

and moreso

What's the first thing Kakashi do when Obito begins leaving to rescue Rin himself?

he WARNS Obito, he wasn't trying to convince him as in "hey this is the right thing you need to do" he was trying to warn Obito because he didn't want to see what happened to his dad ALSO happen to Obito (also like, straight up sidenote, every time he lectures his team about rule following feels like he's trying so damn hard to like, make. them. get. it. IDIOTS he doesn't want you all to die the same way either)

LIKE GRRRRR THATS WHY THAT FACE MAKES ME SO FERAL

We're watching real time someone betraying their own personal convictions because they're scared, and they're feeling ashamed over it. When you don't act in accordance to your own personal values, that can really mess you up as a person. It feels awful

And it does. So Kakashi doubles down, trying to justify his fear and drown out his actual beliefs but it clearly just makes him feel worse.

I think that's kinda the whole reason why Obito's whole "abandon your friends and you're worse than scum/trash" whatever hit him so hard. Right before that Obito told him that he thought his dad was a hero, followed by acknowledging that yes there is a stigma against breaking rules, but it's better to break rules and have friends alive, than to have been the "perfect shinobi" and people dead

because THATS WHAT KAKASHI WANTS TO BELIEVE he wants to believe that his dad, his hero was RIGHT he wants to follow his internal convictions but the real kicker

Obito acknowledges that yeah, there are consequences, but are those really worse than letting people die? HE'S LITERALLY BOTH VALIDATING KAKASHI'S FEAR AND ALSO SAYING THAT KAKASHI'S INTERNAL BELIEFS ARE RIGHT AT THE SAME TIME

oh OH and lets not forget Obito complimenting Sakumo again, let's circle back to that. The root of Kakashi's fear all comes from that. And here's his teammate saying: A) hey idiot, saving friends IS important B) What your dad did was good, despite the consequences, he was right

Of course this doesn't sink in right away, but Kakashi does eventually double back because this all mattered to him

But yeah like, Kakashi never BELIEVED that the rules were more important, he was just scared of breaking them. He was MORE scared of the consequences

If Kakashi didn't already believe that friends mattered, Obito's words never would have reached him

anyways in conclusion, Kakashi was a child reacting out of fear and Obito helped him be brave, and I am feral over the clear answer to Obito's question "Do you really believe that?" because the answer is clearly "No" despite what Kakashi says, the answer is no, he doesn't believe that, but he's scared so he will still say yes

Thanks for coming to my TEDtalk about Kakashi in which I say nothing new

William's design doesn't have every colour in existence on it like in canon i'm sorry i have my limits. i love how you can tell i spent the most time thinking about dorothy and william's designs

Anyway here are the roles: Yami - Shadow hashira; his tsuguko is nacht but they dont have the usual mentor student dynamic, being the same age + partners. Shadow breathing is derived from idk (i wanna say moon but yk). He found Asta and Liebe in this au and takes the role of giyuu in the trail (with everyone SO ready to execute yami along with asta and liebe)

This was meant to be a single panel comic… and then I came up with dialogue for the following conversation, BUT THERE WAS NO WAY I HELL I WAS GONNA POLISH AND COLOR THOSE PANELS TOO, the first one took me 3 hours.

I also would like to clarify: THIS IS NOT A ROMANTIC SHIP! It is a friend ship, that being said, don’t tag this as Zora x Noelle pls. Im thinking of calling them the Silveale siblings.

Anyways, reasons why I think they’d be friends

- Their dynamic would be funny as shit, they’re both tsunderes that love to tease. I think most of the time, Zora is the one teasing Noelle, but every once in a while she smacks him back harder, and he cant come up with a good retort XD

- Zora’s fairly isolated from the Bulls(as of rejoining them anyways), he hasnt been close to anyone since his fathers’ death, I think it’d be good for him to have a younger sister figure

- Their powers contrast nicely. One has very little mana but is very tactical and controlled when using it, and the other has a shit ton of mana but struggles with managing it

- Noelle’s family is ass. Nozel is kind of alright, but for most of her life they have been ASS. She’s already got a big sister in Vanessa, I think it’d be neat if she found a big brother in Zora

Annd some headcanons for their dynamic:

- Both of them would rather die than praise/show verbal affection (to everyone, not just each other) so sometimes they get each other small gifts or do favors

- Zora slowly gets more protective of Noelle overtime, and he’s a wingman whenever she’s around Asta

- Neither of them admit that they’re close, only a few of the Bulls notice that theyre close (Vanessa, Finral, Gordon, and Luck)

- When Zora finds out how shit her family was to Noelle, he sets traps in the Silva castle

Aaand yeah, thats all I got XD You can see me slowly getting better at drawing Zora throughout the comic, I dont like how his face turned out in the colored panel, he’s such a bitch to draw.