fuck

i wish people would just stop fucking lying to me

I can’t feel like this again. I psychically feel like my heart is broken and that I have no one. That I’m all alone cause no one can fill that void. And things just keep piling on and I can’t take it anymore. I’m tired of constantly being the one who’s getting hurt and has to deal with it. I’m angry and I’m confused and I’m hurt and sad and I just don’t understand.

Thought about my first love all day today when I hadn’t done that in years. Almost drove past your house today and than stopped myself. Unblocked you just to see what you look like now and all my feelings of anxiety came flooding back. It’s weird how we find a way to move on but still feel like a huge part of us is still attached to someone. A long time ago you posted about my favorite movie, which only became my favorite after you. I swear that the universe connected me to you all those years ago for a reason. And I wish I could say things would be different but the hurt I guess just never goes away.