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                            MY NAME ON YOUR MOUTH FORGIVE ME WHEN I PUNCH IT OUT.

                            MY NAME ON YOUR MOUTH FORGIVE ME WHEN I PUNCH IT OUT.

her body trembles and shivers as tears she had tried desperately to contain spilled over her cheeks. if she hadn’t known better she would have sworn that her heart was quite literally breaking. she LOVED that man with all her heart. after all, they came together during a vulnerable time when they had lost someone so precious to them. they helped each other stay together when they were desperately falling apart.

their marriage was quick. she was young. at least they were? who really  knows when it seemed like timelines seemed to mix and mesh. she with her young self. hair still long and golden blonde. her eyes although now pooling with tears were still vibrant. to know in the future that he had been with another woman. the woman next to her. TOMOKO. who was so absolutely beautiful. strong. & had such piercing eyes she could feel herself being looked through. as if she were nothing more than g l a s s.

it was no wonder as she aged her husband would long for someone who held the beauty that she lost. a different beauty. suzie q didn’t mean to start crying when she saw her. but when reality hit her she felt it knock her to the ground. her knees skid from the fall and the redness in her cheeks stayed vibrant as tears f e l l .

when those lips met her own she was stunned. for a moment those tears pausing. suddenly her body didn’t feel cold. her warmth bleeding into her as she found herself leaning into the hug. suzie q. her heart was breaking. thoughts filled with countless questions that would be left unanswered. 

tomoko had kissed her. held her. & was now reassuring her. this woman had a pure heart. kind intentions. she meant no harm. it wasn’t her fault.   as she was held she moved closer to her, tears fading into the other’s shirt as a small smile managed to work its way onto her lips. looking up at her with watery eyes as she gently pressed a kiss in return. soft  & gentle although her lips still quivered. parting after a moment and placing a hand to rub at her eyes once more.

it’s hitting her. hard. but it wouldn’t be right for her to breakdown in front of this woman. oh, what a mess suzie appeared to be ---- tomoko envied her for being able to show emotion so upfront, so EASY. as if a rock had been thrown thru a window.

she shouldn’t have sought out the other, but it was only right. the truth was a bitch.

her arms slowly,              hesitantly unwrap from around her, as if she were a DEER and sudden movements might scare her away. her hands quickly place themselves on the woman’s cheeks, MOTHER - LIKE.        softly.   gently.

she spares a CHUCKLE, a broken smile on her face. she’s breaking slowly, terribly,           she was foolish to have done what she did. even if not aware he was married. it was all a mistake, no matter if her love for him thinks otherwise.