— skygaze; —

by C.J. Evans

I don’t know how to tell you about the rain. It falls as if all these woods

weren’t owned. It bends the arcs of meteorites and flies, invites

uninhibited fucking on blankets of fir needles. That night in Harlem we didn’t

kiss: this lifetime of lovely almost-but- never pain is the rain’s. I want it to riot

at my small end, loose in the flowers that’ll roof my grave. If we stop

with all these buildings and laptops and flashing LEDs—all our

by Wumen Huikai

Supportive Sibling Lan Xichen as Lan Wangji Mourns & Pines for His Love

+ bonus Lan Xichen offering to bring his brother to go find Wei Wuxian:

lánlán.........

Red eyeshadow and black eyeliner Lao Wen my beloved

INTRODUCTION:

多恨生 Duohensheng (Spotify link here, YouTube link here) is the seventeenth song on the CQL companion album, and is performed by Zhu Xingjie as Jin Guangyao’s character song.

The title of the song incorporates the name of Jin Guangyao’s soft sword, 恨生 Hensheng, which I’ve chattered about a bit in this post here. The characters are 恨 hen / “hatred, resentment” and 生 sheng / “to give birth to, to give rise to.” The character 生 sheng is particularly versatile, in that it can also, in noun form, mean “life.” As a result, 恨生 hensheng can also be translated as “the birth of hatred” or “hating life.”

Conceivable alternate translations for the title of this song include: “birth of many hatreds,” “greatly resenting life,” and “much hated life.”

“And how many people in your life Are willing to know who you truly are?”

↳lyrics from Jin Guangyao’s character song: Duo Hen Sheng (The Birth of Hatred)