Caffeine-addict

It have been rough days, lots of work, not enough time to rest. I barely slept 3 hours and already have to go to work again.

I felt too sleepy and I knew I needed some caffeine if I wanted to survive. But, only a week ago I went to the cardiologist and he said my heart was sick, he gave me medicine and warned me to not drink any caffeinated drinks.

But I really needed it, it wouldn´t be that harmful to drink an energetic drink just for today, Would it?

So I bought one before running to work.

When I arrived to work I was hyperventilating, working in the fifth floor and getting there running makes you tired. I felt a pain in my chest, but I ignored it. I went to my office to get to work and start drinking to get some energy.

Half an hour later I began feeling unwell, I was sweating, my hands shaking and my chest aching. I could feel my heart beating too fast, too wrong inside my ribs. I clutched my chest as the pain was increasing. I tried to stand up and ask for help, but as soon as I stood up, the floor tilted, my vision got blurry and before I could understand what was happening, I fall.

I began seizing in the floor, my whole body shaking and spasming. My heart threatening to stop. My poor heart was suffering too much trying to keep me alive. I was struggling to breathe as my full body was in crisis. Definitely ignoring the doctor's warning was a bad idea.

You woke up early. Tired since you couldn´t sleep well last night. Or well. You haven´t been able to sleep well for months by now. Too much work, too much stress.

You prepared to go to work, you are a college teacher. You teach political science. So there you were, well dressed, very elegant. You looked at your reflection in the mirror to comb your hair, there you saw how unhealthy you looked. Baggy eyes, pale skin, and also the suit you were wearing seemed too big for you, you have lost a lot of weight recently. Since being a teacher isn´t your only work, you have been living on base of unhealthy amounts of coffee and energetic drinks.

You tried to compose yourself, you needed to work. So you took a deep breath which caused a sharp pain to explode in your chest. So took short breaths as you clutched your chest, you couldn't miss work. You took a energetic drink from the fridge thinking you were just tired and just needed some caffeine to be productive again.

So you went to work, once in the college you regretted coming. Maybe you should go to see a doctor and hopefully you could justify missing to work today. Your chest felt like burning, the pain was still there. You were struggling to breath well.

You walked to the teacher´s room and you sat in a chair for a second, just to try to catch your breath. There you were, breathing laboured as you clutched your chest. You could feel your heart beating wrong, something was off. Your heart hammering inside your chest, jumping, skipping while beating wildly.

You heard the door of the room opening. A friend of yours came in with two cups of coffee.

"Hey! I brought a coffee for you. Seems like today will be a hard day".

Your friend said joyfully but soon stopped as he watched you struggling and trembling while clutching your chest.

"Hey, hey. Are you okay? What's wrong?"

He asked you worried. Placing a hand over your shoulder.

"I'm okay- just- need a second"

You answered with difficulty. But you weren't alright, your heart was beginning to fail. Too stressed from abuse of caffeine, lack of food, lack of rest, excess cortisol.

"You are definitely not okay. Here, take a deep breath, let me call the nurse."

But before he could do something else. You collapsed, falling to the floor. Body shaking, face blue from lack of air, lungs unable to breathe, your heart convulsing unable to beat properly.

Your friend ran to your side, trying to check your pulse just to realize how wrong your heart was beating.

"Hey, pal. Resist, you'll be okay. I'll be here right next to you. Please, don't let your heart stop."

He pushed the emergency button every room had. In the moment he turned again to see you, you have lost consciousness. He ran to your side, realizing your heart have just stopped beating. You have just falle to a cardiac arrest.

He immediatly began giving compressions to your chest, trying to reanimate your still heart.

"Common, don't give up."

He continued giving you CPR, doing the work your heart should do on it's own. Soon the nurse came with a desfribillator. Soon the nurse with help of your friend were trying to make your heart beat again.

Shocking your heart, making it jump and convulse from the electricity. Just to fall still again. Your heart too tired to beat again, too strained from so much abuse. You should have taken better care of your heart.

I wanted to introduce myself so I can meet new people. Sorry if my English isn't good. English isn´t my first lenguage but I try my best.

I'm Kain, I´m 20 years old, I´m a cardiophile. I like resus, CPR, seizures, a dying heart, heart torture but externally)? like using drugs or shocking it, 'cause I don´t like gore at all.

I enjoy both, being the victim or the rescuer/torturer. It's very important the consent, I mean, most people here consent others to do that kind of roleplays or are okay with others fantasize with stoping their hearts, but there are people who are into real stuff with no consent or start talking about more dark stuff and I don´t like that.

I´m a coffee addict so despite in the moment I get scared because well you get very anxious when you drink 8 cups of coffee and a energetic drink, but it´s kind of hot to think about having a cardiac arrest due to caffeine and having to be rescued, another person having to make my heart beat again.